hanbin had always felt self-conscious about his lack of experience, hence his reluctance to physical intimacy. he was always shy and reserved, a true nerd at heart. you assumed he must have had at least some experience in doing sexual stuff. but he explained that he had always been focused in his studies.
he wasn’t clueless about it at all, he was just inexperienced. how many times has he touched himself to the thought of you?
hanbin started fidgeting with his glasses, an indication that he was nervous and that he had something on his mind. after a few moments of silence, you rolled your eyes and said, “we don’t have to do it if you’re not comfortable, hanbin.” because as much as you wanted to seem unfazed by his behavior, you were still concerned about him.
he took a deep breath and looked into your eyes. “i’ve never done this before and i don’t want to disappoint you.” you could tell he was tense about the whole thing, too shy to make a move, afraid that you would judge or reject him.
you decided to be the one to initiate things and gently kissed his neck, causing him to let out a soft moan, his heart racing as you shifted forward and finally kissed his lips. it was like a switch had been flipped and his shyness disappeared in that moment. he slowly moved his lips along with yours, carefully, as if he was afraid of doing something wrong and make you stop.
the kisses turned into a heated make out session, with you seated on hanbin’s lap. you could feel his cock pressing against your cunt. you broke the kiss and looked at him, his face red as he seemed to be thinking carefully of what to do next. hanbin wanted you so bad. he wanted to touch you, to feel you. he wanted you to be his first so badly, but he was too shy that he didn’t know how to express it.
“do you trust me?”
he looked at you with complete honesty as anticipation built within him. “i trust you. i want nothing more than to please you. so please do whatever you need in the moment, if you have to pull me closer.. or push me away—“
“you talk a lot, loser.”
“sorry, i got carried—“ hanbin let out a soft gasp as your fingers glide over the buttons of his uniform, revealing more skin with each click. he once again bit his lip nervously, a silent encouragement for you to continue. he watched you take off his uniform and proceed to take off his pants as well.
by the time the last piece of his clothing hit the floor, he gulped nervously and mumbled, “should i undress you too?”
“you’re so polite, it turns me on.” you scoffed. “but yeah sure, if you’d like.”
he nodded. hanbin gently slid his fingers underneath the hem of your shirt and started pulling it up slowly. he audibly gulped at the sight of your breasts peeking out from the lace of your bra. he swallowed hard to keep his composure as he pulled your bra down, revealing more of your breasts with each passing second.
“you wanna feel them?” you asked.
he looked at you, fighting the urge to touch you and explore further.
“what? i need to know what you want, hanbin.”
he nodded eagerly, unable to resist you any longer. “i wanna touch you.”
that made you giggle. “see? it wasn’t that hard.”
he spent a few moments exploring your body; letting you feel the warmth of his palms on your breasts, trailing kisses down your neck, and tracing the curves of your body with his fingertips and lips. you both allowed yourselves to get lost in the sensation.
“i’ve been dying for this,” hanbin whispered into your ear as he positioned himself between your legs. he held onto your hips, steadying himself, eyes filled with desire. “tell me if it hurts.” he let out a shaky breath, fighting the urge to thrust into you right away.
“shut up, you’re the virgin one here— oh god!” you couldn’t help but moan when he entered you as he shuddered at the feeling of finally being inside you.
he groaned in relief and started moving slowly, every inch of him in you driving him wild. both of your bodies were shaking with each thrust.
“hngggh.. fuck— feels good.” he grew bolder in his movements, gradually picking up the pace, matching it with your breaths. your grip on his arms became tighter as he thrusted even faster, your breasts jiggling with every thrust.
hanbin thrusted harder, losing himself completely to his passion. you couldn’t do anything but moan under him as he moved in and out of you. “bin… please don’t stop… haaah…”
“fuck baby, fuck fuck fuck fuck— so close… so close baby..” he felt the intensity reaching its peak and thrusted harder and faster. he was panting heavily, eyes locked on yours.
you could see the sheer of satisfaction and happiness on hanbin’s face as he came on your stomach. he held you close as you both came down from your climax.
“how was it?” you asked, voice surprisingly soft and gentle.
he swallowed hard, feeling a wave of emotions. “it felt… great,” he said softly. “i never thought my first time would be with someone as amazing as you.” he continued, still panting.
hanbin had offered to clean you up before you could even scold him for cumming on you. but you were honestly thankful that he had pulled out even if you were on the pill. it just showed that he knew what to do during that moment, considering that you didn’t talk about contraceptives before doing the deed.
“thank you,” he said while you were laying together, voice thick with emotion.
you just smiled at him, finding the moment endearing that you didn’t want to ruin it by saying something mean. your loser deserves to be treated nicely and sweetly sometimes.
the atmosphere of the cozy restaurant felt just right for a night out with hanbin. as you scanned the menu, you couldn’t help but notice the way he looked at you. those warm, deep eyes full of affection. “what?” you glanced up, your brows raising. your nonchalance was a feeble attempt to mask the fluster rising in your cheeks.
hanbin shook his head and offered you a smile. “you look really cute when you’re trying to decide what to eat.” the sincerity in his voice made your heart skip a beat.
you rolled your eyes, trying to play it cool, but a smile tugged at the corner of your lips. “thanks, i guess?” apart from academic endeavors, your loser also never fails to captivate you.
as your dishes arrived, you took the opportunity to lean closer, resting your elbow on the table, and casually brushed your hand against his thigh. hanbin’s eyes widened in surprise, a mix of amusement and anxiety flickering across his face. “do you know how hard it is to concentrate on eating?” you teased, your fingers inching closer to his waistband. “maybe i should help you out.”
hanbin let out a nervous chuckle and darted glances around the busy pub, panic in his eyes as he took in the couple at the next table with their playful banter and the group of friends laughing loudly nearby. “come on, baby, not here,” he replied, his voice low. his face was a delightful shade of pink, and you couldn’t help but fancy the effect you had on him.
“but it’s so tempting,” you continued, playfully biting your lip. “what if i just… i don’t know, gave you a little handjob right here… right now?” you drew your hand back mockingly, pretending to consider your options. his eyes darted around the room. god, you were making him way too nervous!
your fingers once again moved closer to his thigh, brushing against the edge of his bulge, which had begun to respond to your touch. “binnie, just think about it—a little release to make this night more enjoyable, hmm?”
with a chuckle laced with embarrassment, he tried to redirect the conversation, but your excitement was still bubbling over. hanbin looked so cute trying to keep it together. “do you think anyone would notice?” you whispered to him, your fingers still grazing his bulge. you held his gaze, seeing his breath hitch slightly.
“please stop,” he said. “we’re in public.”
“i’m just giving you a little attention,” you retorted, reveling in the game you were playing. as much as the anxiety of getting caught was evident in him, you knew he was still turned on.
you retreated slightly, fingers still lingering on his thigh as the waiter approached you just then, disrupting your playful tension as he politely asked if you needed anything else. hanbin cleared his throat, managing to compose himself just in time to respond, “no, thank you.” you stifled a giggle, well aware that the waiter had no idea how much mischief was brewing beneath the table.
“can we at least wait until we’re not in here?” he pleaded, his hands running through his hair in that way he did when he was flustered. it was hard to take him seriously when he looked like this, all flustered and a little helpless.
“gosh, fine!” you said, feigning a sigh of resignation. “i’ll behave… for now.”
dinner rolled on, with you stealing glances at him every so often. hanbin was trying to focus on the conversation, but every time you caught his eye, you could sense him thinking about what you had said earlier.
one thing about your loser is he isn’t the best at hiding something, hence why you could tell he couldn’t wait for what was to come once you two were out of the restaurant.
loser!hanbin is puzzled and taken aback by your question. he pauses for a moment before replying, “uh, yeah i think so? i haven’t tried it… but i’ve heard people do it.”
you can’t help but laugh at his response. you think he’s so dumb!
his face flushes with embarrassment as he looks around to make sure no one else can hear your conversation. you had already made him say embarrassing things around other people multiple times, he can’t take another one.
“i don’t think we should be talking about sex here,” he says, trying to keep his voice low.
you can’t resist teasing him! and it has become somewhat of a hobby to you. you find immense joy in making and seeing him all shy and flustered. it’s like having the power to make the smartest, most intelligent guy in class turn into a blushing mess.
“you’ve never smoked a cigarette after having sex before?” you ask.
hanbin’s face falls and he looks down, clearly embarrassed and shy. “i mean, i’ve never had sex before so i wouldn’t know.” his response is so earnest and sincere.
“so, you’re a virgin?”
he doesn’t answer you, but you can feel his mind racing. why are you even asking him this? it’s not like there’s something wrong with being a virgin, right? not that he’s been waiting for the right person or anything. it just hasn’t happened yet.
you watch him nervously look around once again. “jeez, relax! i was talking about the band and not literal cigarettes after sex. you didn’t think i wanted to fuck, did you?”
he gets more embarrassed by his own misunderstanding, but a hint of relief can be seen on his face. “n-no! of course not. i wouldn’t think of you that way.” his last sentence is said so quickly and nervously that you can’t help but laugh at him again.
“you know, we can try it some other time.”
his face turns red and he looks away. he can’t make you stop talking about it, but the least you can do is lower down your voice! “we really shouldn’t be talking about it here.”
“or maybe just the sex part. so you won’t be a loser anymore. would you like that?”
reader being the reason loser!hanbin got into cigarettes after sex ?? now he can’t help but think of fucking you while the band’s songs play in the background…
your loser!hanbin is close to my heart. im sobbing. i love him.
thank you! the loser!hanbin reactions are making me happy omg. i’ve been having loser!hanbin brainrot these days n i just need time to write them. let’s hope i’ll have the energy and motivation to make it a series 🤞🏻 (don’t worry bully!gyuvinists !!! lol)
