Drew my first self portrait since last year.
I love looking back at past things and realizing how much I've grown in such a short time especially with drawing myself. I haven't even tried drawing myself since the utter tragedy that was my fanfiction phase (If you know me, you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about)
The best part of all of this is drawing myself the way I really am and writing in big big letters "I Am Beautiful" because with how utterly, unimaginably, awful I've felt for a while, I need to hear this from myself.
I've been stuck in a deep hole of negativity for so long. I've never hated myself more than in these past few weeks because nothing but bad things have been happening to me and I feel like I can't please anyone or make anyone happy. I've been a witness to domestic violence, something else has also happened I'm not sure I even want to talk about, Gaza, Robin Williams' death, the awful events happening in Ferguson....
Everything has been shit lately and now I'm finally starting to love myself again thanks to my friends, and the people who have taken time from their lives to talk to me on tumblr after seeing my frightened text posts. Thank you all so so much I'm feeling much better now. Thank you for caring enough to talk to a stranger. Thank you, Sierra, for seeing me as more than what I think I am, and helping me realize that I'm not useless to the world. Thank you for seeing the things in me that I can't see in myself.
Thank you so much everyone who helped me. You're the reason I'm sitting here with my pencils drawing my self portrait and being able to write that I'm beautiful without feeling doubtful or negative about myself.
I hope all of you are well, and I hope you guys can spread more love to others like you've spread it to me! Let's all continue to love and help each other!
Shine on everyone!
