#lotusunder

[godbidden]

                    ❛   it’s fine  ,  i won’t ask  .  pleasant or not  ,  your past is your own  .   ❜

( @lotusunder )  /   s.c. ♡

[disenvow-a-blog]

❛    you have pretty eyes, exorcist. they remind me of things i once enjoyed a long time ago.  when i was . . .     ❜    innocence, a long life among friends and comrades, freedom, the chance to remain perfectly   —   disgustingly human  . . .  

@lotusunder​

[swiftkicks-blog1]

                      ‘ i -- am not upset. ‘ despite clearly pronounced anger, brows bent and fingers curled. she should know better by now than to make a big deal of kanda throwing himself in the face of danger, but he could at least let her fight beside him. ‘ but you’re not the only exorcist, you know? you don’t have to take -- every hit. ‘ ( @lotusunder / ♥’d! )

[wargod-archive]

               Features grim, silence eerily verbose when surrounding the usually so jovial deity. Their cheeks were not swelling with a blush and their face was not painted with the crimsons of the earth. The silence is verbose when surrounding them. It tells of a distinct pain, suffering, and inner turmoil. They almost appeared ill but as they walked the silence followed, a walking corpse, beauty deadly. Arita pursed their lips that was previously contorted into a forced smile. ❛ I haven’t slept soundly in days but I also suppose the likes of me does not need sleep. They all speak to me, EVERY SINGLE ONE- But I don’t suppose you know of that. ❜  Their words came out cryptic, dancing around their thoughts and what they actually wanted to say. ❛ How many people have you killed? Please tell me. ❜

✧・ﾟ: *✧ @lotusunder

[celestince]

malachite

malachite: has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

HONESTLY I think the biggest thing he regrets is not being able to properly stand up for himself in the beginning. He didn’t have much of a choice in the things he did, how things went, but I think he thinks that the could have. Say, he didn’t WANT to leave his father in a battle Gharnef but he did because he was told to by both Jagen and his father, and he didn’t Want to flee the castle and leave his sister behind but he did so because he knew it was what everyone else wanted him to do, he did not want to watch as he had to watch a dear friend sacrifice himself in his name in order for him to go on and live. There are many decisions he makes as the commander, MOST of which he regrets. The moment a life is lost on battle, he shelters the blame as if he were their murderer. He can’t stand the idea of innocent lives being lost, but he cannot stop the endless loss of friends, companions, soldiers. All in all, I think he’d wish to get to know everyone a little better, that he’d go back in time and defy the odds that were placed against him, but in those moments, he cannot help but lost himself in the pressures of everyone around him. I believe he wishes he would be more steadfast and unyielding to the pressure placed on him by everyone else. Yes, he gets better and with time and maturing, he does gain a sense of ‘rebellion’ so to speak. Rather, being able to stand up to those who command him in ways which conflict with his feelings and believes. He wishes he could go back and become that way before anything bad happened, before his life and home were stolen from him and before he knew what and who all he’d lose. 

[faustianbargaining-blog]

      ❛ h-hey, wait -- stop, what are you doing, mr. kanda --? ❜ 

on instinct, he grabs for the back of kanda’s jacket to stop him from stepping straight into the group of vicious-looking beasts.  kanda was strong, sure, but leo didn’t peg him for cocky -- that was a lot of pissed off monsters, and he was just one guy.  you’d think he’d at least react, but he seems surprisingly cavalier.  almost like he doesn’t realize they’re there.

wait.  does he -- does he not know they’re there?

oh shit.

      ❛ uh -- c-can you not see anything in this room right now? ❜ 

@lotusunder liked for some trouble.

[swiftkicks-blog1]

                      ‘ what? ‘ her voice grows in urgency, glass-green gaze settling at her feet -- crosses etched into either ankle glow and innocence greets her gaze with a soft shimmer, but otherwise there is nothing of interest save for her heels. ‘ the head nurse helped me pick them; what do you think? ‘ ( @lotusunder / ♥’d! )

[wargod-archive]

           THEY WERE INCREDIBLY GIDDY. Two hands were cupping their cheeks while the other ones (wisely) prevented themselves from reaching out and grabbing the others, swinging them around furiously. TRUE HAPPINESS rarely revealed itself upon their face, but it was the nice things, the simple human delights they found utterly entrancing.  ❛   Please tell me more about her! It’s so nice isn’t it? LOVE? It’s such a wonderful thing! She must be so beautiful- what color is her hair?   ❜      ✧･ﾟ: *✧ @lotusunder