#love probs

[that-girly-wonderland-blog]

I used to have a huge crush on this guy. Now I sometimes think that maybe I should talk to him, but then realize he's the biggest fuckboy I've ever met so I don't.

[lovetxts]

i've never craved physical intimacy like i do with you and it's a beautiful but very scary thing.

[choicexx]

To that guy..

To that guy who told me na bestfriend niya ako.. To that guy whom I didn’t expect na mafa-fall ako.. To that guy who left me hanging.. To that guy who caused me so much pain.. To that guy who told me na bestfriend niya ako.. You told me Im your girl bestfriend few days bago kayo magbreak ng girlfriend mo. I can’t even understand why you have to put a label dun sa friendship natin. None of my guy friends ever told me that. At ikaw pa ang nagsabi ng ganyan sakin. Hindi ikaw yung ganung tipo ng tao unless trip mo lang na sabihing “bestfriend” mo ko. O kaya naman ayaw mong magka gusto ako sayo kaya inunahan mo na. But still, I didn’t get the purpose but i didn’t care, hinayaan ko lang. Until, halos everyday na tayo magka usap. 

To that guy whom I didn’t expect na mafa-fall ako.. Being a hopeless romantic at sobrang marupok, tapos ikaw na sobrang playboy at chick magnet, I shoved the thought na magka gusto ulit sayo. It has been years since I felt attracted to you pero mas pinili ko ang friendship natin. And then now, the history repeats itself. But this time, mas malalim, mas hulog na hulog. Di ko magets yung sarili ko para ma fall sa mga pinakita at sinabi mo. Masyado akong nabulag sa lahat ng yun. Ang sarap kasi paniwalaan pero ang totoo pala, pakitang tao lang lahat kasi nga sabi mo “bestfriends” tayo.  To that guy who left me hanging.. Im so sure na meron kang idea na baka gusto na kita dahil sa friends natin. Dun sa time na nainis ako kasi bigla kang nag out sa chat at tinanong kung bakit ka nawala tapos sinabihan mo akong,”Girlfriend? Kailangan magpaalam?” and then I reacted so violently. I know I was so wrong to act that way. Pinahamak ko sarili ko. Before nung incident na yan di mo na din naman ako masyado kinakausap. Kadalasan “seen” nalang. Hanggang sa ngayon, wala na. Minsan nga ang sarap mag thank you sa boredom mo. Kasi kung hindi, di mo maalala na nag eexist ako. Sa mga ganung panahon mo lang naman kasi talaga ako kinakausap, realtalk. Pero lately pansin ko na kahit bored ka, di mo din naman ako naalala. Like our convos, you always left me hanging. To that guy who caused me so much pain.. Nung time na narealize ko na gusto kita, pinigilan ko naman e. Kasi alam kong hanggang “bestfriends” lang. Pero di ko alam na bago ko marealize yun, wala na.. nahulog na ako. I know this was all my fault. Kasalanan kong magustuhan ka kahit alam kong mahal mo pa yung ex mo. Kahit na alam kong irereject mo lang din naman yung feelings ko. Kahit na alam kong walang patutunguhan to. Pero gusto kitang saktan. Gusto kitang saktan kasi minsan feeling ko hindi ko deserve yung ganung treatment mo sakin. Na kahit sinasabi mong bestfriend mo ko, yung treatment mo sakin parang yung ibang babaeng nakakausap mo lang sa chat na pwede mong gaguhin at bastusin. Na kahit minsan di ko naranasan sa mga kaibigan kong lalaki. Gusto kitang saktan kasi alam kong minsan nananadya ka na. Gusto kitang saktan kasi sobra mo din akong sinaktan. Pero alam kong di nun mababawasan yung sakit na nafefeel ko. At hindi ko din naman tatalikuran kung ano yung meron tayo nang dahil lang sa punyetang naramdaman ko sayo. Mas matimbang pa din sakin yun syempre. Mas pinili ko yung brighter at good side. Ako din naman yung laging nasasaktan bakit di ko nalang tanggapin diba? Sige, hahayaan ko na lang kung saan ka/kayo magiging masaya. Thank you for teaching me not to fall inlove with your so-called bestfriend kung ayaw mong torture-in yung sarili mo. 

[irishsquirrel3]

Do you ever think you finally got over someone and your like "yassss finally" and then you see then for like a second, just a second and then your like "oh fuck me" literally.

[tessaractling]

mumbles

so like im getting over a break up (dramatic woo hoo) and so like i dreamed about us and now its stuck in my head like why does this shit have to happen?!

[first-things-first-to-the-death]

And the endless cycle of push and pull continues. I can't even complain at this point because I'm doing it to myself. She pulls and I pull back. Just waiting for that final push now.

[zombebbs]

the distance between us has become unbridgeable.

[for-getmenot]

I think when people think that you and someone are dating…that it HAS to say something. Is that just me? Like there HAS to be something…someone please tell me I’m not crazy..