#lovefromfaraway

[rhondarecreates]

Now in Ukraine... For my sweet grits! Sound on 😘 #campgritty #lovefromfaraway (at YUGO coffee) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2oIQGnCXkj/?igshid=175zc8a0a6733

[bemilk85]

...I don't want to let you down I don't want to lead you on I don't want to hold you back From where you might belong... I would rather hurt myself Than to ever make you cry There's nothing left to try Though it's gonna hurt us both There's no other way than to say....good-bye !! #goodbye #staystrong #bepatient #lovefromfaraway #someonestaysinyourmind #sunandmoonlake (at Sun Moon Lake)

[terrafoxsense]

We’ve not met

and yet

You move me

Making me 

Shaking me

-mtk

[for-the-love-of-pete]

Is it bad that I just want to be alone?!

So many people in my life right now are telling me that they are disgusted  with me because I seem to be "forgetting about them"...

Excuse me for being a full time student and working 25 hrs a week in clothing retail and having to volunteer hours per week for class requirements and keep myself fed and keep the apartment clean and find time to stay in shape and, and, and! I swear I don't even get to sleep anymore...

Really, all I want to do is pack a bag, hike up a mountain, pitch my tent, make a blanket nest inside, and drink tea for days. Is that too freaking much to ask for?! Apparently it is...

Because I don't "randomly text my family first enough" I'm causing hurt feelings. Also, saying thank you with my voice isn't enough, it must be written in letter form... probably long hand cursive at the rate this is escalating!

Making plans with friends, raising hell to keep those dates open on my calender, then having them cancel last minute because "they worked all day," and it is still my fault because I'm not available enough! Bitch, please! I haven't had a day off in 5 weeks, don't talk to me about how tired you are and why me driving to your house is still too much for you to handle!

This is just stupid. Why is it bad that I don't want to spend every minute making sure that everyone that is my friend feels like I love them solely through spending time with them? I feel like a total bitch saying that I don't want to spend my time talking to my family. But having two minute convos on the phone with each member of my family just so I can tell them that, "yes, I still hate work, and yes, I have tons of homework that I should be doing" just feels like a waste of time to me! 

Why can't my family just understand that I love them because we are family so we don't need to talk about it all the freaking time! I don't want you stalking my Facebook to find out how I am doing, I don't actually put my life on there. If you want to know, text me, but don't be pissed that I don't text/call you first! 

Why can't my friends understand that I don't have time to go out to bars/hang out every weekend? I mean if we have been friends for this long I feel like we should be in that stage of trusting that we love each other but not requiring us to do unreasonable things, like cutting class or giving up homework time to hang out.

I just don't understand why it is bad that I want to be anti-social. Why is it bad that I want my family to mind their own business and not mine? Why is it bad that I might rather want to have alone time instead of going out with friends? Why can't they just let me be independent and alone for a while?

There are literally people getting in jealous arguments over spending time with me... I can't handle the stupidity that is this situation... I'm not even that cool, people! Stop it, stop the crazy! And this isn't me bragging about people liking me, it is actually really painful watching your calender become totally booked two weeks ahead of time, every time slot out of your control. 

*sigh* ok, rant over. Thank you internet for listening.

[saphiranox]

Crave You.

There are moments where I have to force myself to look away, though I wonder if you even know I stare. Every moment I moment I spend with you, I crave your attention. All I can do is observe, study every detail about you. It is forbidden to do anything else. If only you knew how you made me feel. You make my heart race like no other has, my soul melts when I hear your voice. You are such a mystery to me.

You have all the features that make my mind float like a weightless cloud. When you sing, it fills my heart and ears with sweet serenity. Your creativity is inspiring, it makes me feel like I can do anything. Why can't I have you? You make everything you wear look stylish and cool. Your mind is so beautiful. Everything you come up with is incredible, full of so much story and life. What would I give to spend a day alone with you!

I've been feeling this way since I met you long ago, but I never allowed myself to express my feelings. I still don't, and I don't think I ever will. When all else fails, at least I can type. Because of all the life events I've been through, such a decision would be useless. You might have shown interest in me at some point, I don't know, but I'm sure you don't feel that way anymore. I've always wanted to ask you if you did, maybe it would help me with closure. But if I did, I'd be doing more bad than good.

I just can't help looking at you! You are so close to me, yet if feels like you are miles away from my grasp. I love you. I crave you.

[monkeywriter]

I havent seen HIM in person since April 2006. And yet seeing him on a tiny screen talking & moving like he was almost here for even a few minutes got my heart beating like I was seeing him all over again. It sucks to love someone who will probably never love me back. Hoping for the day we can at least be real friends again. Till then I will just admire him from afar best I can. Sigh