#lovingthytribe

[honorthymunn]

....and they call her Lionheart

[honorthymunn]

Stuck Inside & Still My Light Shines...

My soul cries out all while I suffocate...Desperately yearning for a soul that understands to not turn their cheek. I must speak , the quietness ensures no survival...every fiber of my being aches for my tribe whom remains lost. 

Imprisoned in a seemingly free yet cruel world, ripping me to shreds with every moment lost. This heaviness I wish not upon anyone, shoving it deep inside anywhere it can hide. Isolated, paralyzed with grief, shame and fear constantly keeping afar those who need be near.

Attacking myself for my lacking more strength, fortitude and courage for that final fight. I desire again to create miracles slicing myself open trying to find where I went. Am I still here? Lost in the chaos searching for want of life rather than the struggle pushing me disappearing in death.

I stand defeated in honor for a cause which waits for Trumpets to play for proof of Justice. I wander ceasing to gain solid ground, at war with knowing letting go must be picking up the pieces mending a divinely new life for me. Thy heart screaming that by doing so dishonors all that I miss.

Torturing sacrifice learning to live as I await the days hoping piece by piece my soul comes running back into my arms. While melancholy reminding of times lost deserving such cherish, their souls cry out for the love not allowed me to give. 

Only in my dreams do we united in bliss live. Sleeping consuming hours upon hours it’s force leaving me to live in my subconscious where our tribe celestially binds together allowing us to frolic and play peacefulness washing our sad souls away. Then I awake grasping at ghosts as you each wisp away.

This once Dark Night leaves like winds flowing forward my soul so loving with care. I glance back just once more saying goodbyes as my life shuts the door. They heart aches with kindled love opening it’s bright new door. My soul doth not cry out as it had just before, my light loving heals me thy graces invoked. A Miracle reminds me such life I live for...it’s for those whom surrounds me, you children I adore.

Calming the tempest you need not worry no more...as Mamma now see’s such great things life has stored. Now I can honor my Daughter creating Miracles Once More.

xxMamma