#lucasxmaya

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“Well this dark haired girl and this blonde girl both liked the same boy and they all stayed best friends. Could that really happen?”

Y’ALL THE WAY I REMEMBER SCREAMING WHEN THIS GMW EP FIRST CAME OUT !! Like they really hadn’t scripted anything yet about Maya liking Lucas so the fandom didn’t know if we were making it up but then !!!!! WHAT A LINEEEE IT GAVE SO MUCH HOPE and like the way Maya looked away and was like “well shit” I-

This is rlly hitting me like it was yesterday uwu

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I’m still so mad that they cancelled gmw before riarkle & lucaya were able to thrive... the disappointment

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That lil smile tho

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Waves

Here is another drabble. This one is a little more closely linked to the show, but still different–obviously.

This is like Ski Lodge never happened–Lucas never formally “chose” Riley, but Maya still decided she didn’t like them anymore.

I also aged them up a little bit.

The feeling I thought was set in stone

It slips through my fingers

Trying hard to let go

Lucas sits in Mr. Matthew’s class staring at the back of Maya’s head. He couldn’t even tell you what they were learning today which in hindsight was pretty pathetic. How lost can you be by the back of someone’s head that you couldn’t even pay attention class?

By the time the class ends and definitely when the day ends, he realizes he had been on autopilot almost all day. Too enveloped in the thoughts that were Maya Hunter.

He should have known she was never going to let him pick her. She is too loyal, too kind and the head of Riley Committee.

He should have known the second junior year started.She carefully chose her seat at the beginning of the year to sit in front of Riley instead of him. The first day she sauntered on in with an air of beauty and rebellion and stuttered at the open seat in front of him. He stupidly thought if she plopped down in front than she would choose him over Riley then somehow that would prove something to him–that just maybe they could make it work.

But as always, she changed direction so subtly that he was sure no one would notice that she even considered him, but he noticed it.

And it made him refuse to give up the sliver of hope he still held for his blonde beauty.

But then Riley is telling her she has changed and Maya is listening to her. Lucas could feel himself losing her as though she was a rope that no matter how tight he held on, it still slipped through fingers so quickly that it left burning scars.

He couldn’t bring himself to be mad at Riley because she was trying to find a quick fix to a triangle that was never much more than a straight line rushing right into the short stack of pancakes that had come crashing into his life when he was thirteen years old.

Now as a junior in high school, it had been going on too long and to try to change it would just lead to destruction. His group of friends was falling apart at the thought of Maya and Riley no longer being Riley and Maya.

He saw the glares Farkle sent him when he spent too long staring as Maya walked through the cafeteria.

The way Zay shakes his head at him knowingly when Maya speaks of Josh and Lucas finds any reason to leave the room.

Even Smackle had picked up on it and the sadness that she exuded towards him made him uncomfortable and fidgety. Smackle picked up on more secrets that brought the group down more than anyone else. Lucas was all but positive she knew of Zay’s crush on her and had known for quite some time.

Loving Maya and wanting her was going to hurt more people than it would make him happy. So he tried so hard to push it away, but then she was smiling at him and pulling him close to her and he holds his breath to not breathe her in.

He is going to lose her and he was a masochist for prolonging it as long as he has.

Because then–she is saying she doesn’t like him like that anymore. She liked him because Riley did and Lucas wasn’t one to cry out in anger, but he came close in that moment. Because there was absolutely no way that they could go through the shit they did and for her to feel nothing for him. The lingering looks, the holding of each other and the secret touches no one knew about it.

She thought she wasn’t going to be picked so she pushed him away before he hurt both her and Riley.

So that’s where they are at. Him staring at the back of her head while Riley thinks now they are together and maybe they are. He doesn’t even know anymore and it doesn’t even bother him when Riley starts to stare at Farkle’s head just like he did Maya.

He is pretty sure she doesn’t even know she is doing it.

They sit in Topanga’s both acting like they are happy and not falling apart and losing each other as friends in the process when she finally snaps.

“What is your problem?” Riley asked and he looked up from his homework. He was so in tuned in his world of self-loathing he didn’t even realize it was just them there.

“I don’t have a problem.” He muttered.

She scoffed an angry breath he didn’t even know she could produce. But she did and it was towards him.

“You have had a problem for months, Lucas.” Her tone begins to soften, away from angry girlfriend to worried best friend, “I am your best friend, Lucas. Talk to me.”

He knows whatever he says will break them even if it doesn’t break her, but he has to say it to someone or he might just lose his mind.

So after moments of tense filled silence, he says sadly. “She stopped liking me, Riles. It doesn’t mean I stopped liking her.”

Riley breathes an oh like, of course, that’s it. She doesn’t elaborate and neither does he. They both sit together in their misery, staring at each other as though begging the other to fix them when Maya walks in. Riley’s eyes jump over to Maya with a terrifying precision and Lucas can’t tell if Riley looks hurt or relieved.  

It is awkward and confusing and Maya looks at Lucas like he has just ruined everything in the world. Farkle comes bouncing in with his usual energy, mid-sentence of telling Maya something when he finally reads the fucking room.

“What I miss?” He asks so genuinely that Riley gives him a soft smile which Farkle gladly returns.

Lucas can’t help but think that Riley was going to be just fine. He, on the other hand, probably dead at the hands of the girl he loves.

Riley’s eyes are back on him and her eyes look glazed over. He wonders if she just realized how much time she wasted on the idea of him instead of being with Farkle who had always been her knight in shining armor. How much hurt Maya had gone through at their own stubbornness.

It stays quiet and sad and it doesn’t get better.

For a long time, it just stays worse.  

There is a swelling storm

And I’m caught up in the middle of it all

And it takes control

Of the person that I thought I was

The boy I used to know

But there is a light

In the dark

And I feel its warmth

In my hands

In my heart

Why can’t I hold on

It comes and goes in waves

It always does

It always does

We watch as our young hearts fade

Into the flood

Into the flood

[Chorus]

And freedom

And falling

The feeling I thought was set in stone

It slips through my fingers

Trying hard to let go

It comes and goes in waves

It comes and goes in waves

And carries us away

Through the wind

Down to the place we used to lay when we were kids

Memories of a stolen place

Caught in the silence

An echo lost in space

It comes and goes in waves

It always does

It always does

We watch as our young hearts fade

Into the flood

Into the flood

And freedom

And falling

The feeling I thought was set in stone

It slips through my fingers

Trying hard to let go

It comes and goes in waves

It comes and goes in waves

And carries us away

I watched my world youth disappear in front of my eyes

Moments of magic and wonder

It seems so hard to find

Is it ever coming back again

Is it ever coming back again

Take me back to the feeling when

Everything was left to find

It comes and goes in waves

It always does

It always does

And freedom

And falling

The feeling I thought was set in stone

It slips through my fingers

Trying hard to let go

It comes and goes in waves

It comes and goes in waves

And carries us away

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Honesty, the lack of closure for Lucaya makes me feel like:

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