#luminanox

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox | “ stop punishing yourself. you wanna make up for what you’ve done? get off your ass and do something about it. ” | anakin & rex

it was a bad call. anakin had known it was a bad call, but he hadn’t been able to fight the orders from higher up, and he hadn’t been able to keep his men safe. it’s more death than he knows what to do with, and the guilt feels like a physical weight on his chest. 

rex breaks through it. he always manages to. anakin blinks, wipes sweat and dirt out of his eyes. ❛ rex -- ❜ his voice is hoarse, and exhaustion beats through him physically, beats through him in the force. he wants to say ‘ i’m tired ‘ and ‘ i can’t ‘ and ‘ we have to stop ‘ but he doesn’t. he can’t say any of that. 

he takes a breath. looks around. back to rex. for a moment it’s just them, in this bubble, together. anakin reaches and clasps rex’s shoulder. ❛ on my six, captain. ❜

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox | ❛ only you could contemplate imminent death and think ‘alright’ ❜ | anakin & rex

to anakin’s credit, he does think about the implication of that suggestion as he twists his wrists in his manacles. and that thought lasts for all of twelve seconds before he decides that he hates the path it might lead him down, and he does something obi-wan would be proud of.

he releases it into the force.

see? he can be a good jedi. ❛ well, rex, it is a war. ❜ anakin grins, a little too bright and a little too sharp, and his force wraps around rex’s purple for a moment. anakin wonders if that helps. ❛ besides, it’s not every day you get locked up on a seppie ship, is it? enjoy the ambiance. ❜ it’s dingy, and smells like a strange concoction of oil and...fish? anakin’s not the biggest fan anyway. ❛ i’ll have us out of here before you can even think about death. ❜

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox | ❛ you are not real. you are a dream of a dream. ❜ | cody & rex

oh it feels cruel. time pounds on and on and on and he and rex have aged the same way, bear the same lines. cody thinks time should have separated them somewhere in the middle, but besides rex’s hair, the muscle mass cody’s lost in his rehabilitation - there’s no difference. 

and cody’s known. for far longer than rex, who seems to have been told moments ago, from what cody can tell. but how was he meant to approach it? what could cody have said, to rectify all the horrors he’d wrought, all the terrible things he’d done? chip or not, cody remembers the feeling of the blaster in his hands, remembers what it was like to cut down the jedi that had once trusted him, the people he had once protected. he remembers it all. 

the rebellion has given him hope again. removed the chip, given him purpose. now he is akroor, called cody only by those who have seen his heart. by obi-wan ; ahsoka. so few of them left. rex’s words cut like a sabre ; break his heart.

❛ rex’ika. ❜ a long forgotten nickname, one he hasn’t used since rex was a shiny. though cody is careful, his actions are sure, as he reaches for rex, hand resting against the curve of his neck to press their foreheads together. a brother’s greeting. ❛ i am real. and i’m sorry, for all i’ve done. for not telling you sooner. call me a hut’uun for it. you have every right, brother. ❜

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox | ❛ i finally found a place i hate more than caves. that’s a first. ❜ | cody & rex

❛ oh? what’s to hate? ❜ it’s not often the clones are given sharp-pointy weapons, but cody’s glad for them today. the foliage is thick, and disgusting, and weighs down on them from all sides. cody’s never wanted a lightsaber before, but at this moment he’d give an arm for one. he’s sure they’d make quick work of the whole terrible affair.

still, he’s doing what he can. even with rex’s complaints. ❛ is it the humidity? or the leaves? or that poisonous flower we found an hour ago? maybe it’s the bugs? or are you talking about the mud? i just can’t quite put my -- ❜ he hacks particularly viciously, and sends what seems like a mountain of vines to the ground ❛ -- finger on it. ❜ 

honestly? he’s on rex’s side here.

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox || rex !!

❛ you ever think about what you wanna do after all this? ❜ for as casual as the question is, the explosions around them juxtapose it greatly ; as does the yell anakin has to employ to be heard above it all. they’re pinned down in a very real way, and anakin is half bent over rex, his arms held up above them. the continued rain of debris doesn’t seem to be slowing anytime soon, but his force shield is holding. it’s holding. ❛ i think you’d be a really good teacher! ❜

[moltolavoro]

@luminanox | ❛ I just want some damn peace. ❜ ( rex || cody ) 

he lets it sit. the drink in his hand has barely been touched ; its his first. he doesn’t know how many rex has had. he probably should. cody’s the responsible one most of the time. but it’s been a rough campaign. rougher than usual. rex deserves a drink or eight if he wants them ; cody just wants to see him get home safe. most of the rest have filtered out, accompanied by fives, coric, and kix in fits and starts. 

they sit shoulder to shoulder. the weight of the words somehow fit between them anyway.

❛ i know. ❜ rex wants. he’s allowed to want - and to say it. because rex is smart, he only says it to the people he can trust. cody doesn’t say it at all. wanting isn’t for cody to have. ❛ we’ll see it one day. ❜ they’re soldiers. but rex is his aliit. his vod. it’s more complicated than it should be. ❛ i promise. ❜

[bledstars]

@luminanox​ gets a thing

     “ Ah, a fellow drop-out.” His tone is jovial as he raises glass in admiration, stepping over the unconscious (or were they dead? hard to tell under these club nights) patron as he makes his way closer, “ And what’s your story?”

[compassionhero]

@luminanox asked:     ‘ i won’t leave you behind. ’ from REX

     no one in the rebellion has made it this far totally unscathed. rebels get shot, or shot down. they lose limbs or worse. they all know it could happen, so they stay ready for it --- mostly. luke just doesn’t know why his mishaps are always such a spectacle. here he is, leg chewed up by a wild fyrnock, and he wasn’t even in a fight.   “i can’t walk on it,”   he’d said through his teeth, angry with himself more than anything else. he’s supposed to be a jedi.

     rex’s tone surprises him, though it shouldn’t. 

     the mission is more important than he is. more important than any person. and yet, how many other times has someone come back for him? has he ever done less for someone else? this is what they do.

     it’s just that... sometimes when rex talks to him, luke gets the idea he’s really seeing someone else. and it doesn’t take a wizard to guess who.

     “all right.”   he’s still frustrated, but he puts his arm around the older man’s shoulders, letting him lift him and take the weight.   “i should be fine, once we get back to the ship.”