#luzonica.vnt

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wish being loved was in the cards for me.

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did you know we like tea over coffee. or that we rub our eye tattoo for comfort. or that we keep jedi’s ashes on a high shelf and need to get a bed for him. or that we have 5 billion collars for a cat that doesnt wear them. or that we have bills to pay today. or that we have a favorite pair of pants. or that we cant sleep without our husky stuffed animal. or that we have four rings we never take off other than to shower. or that we’re a person

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dont like tjis

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very tempted to unblock and see if just maybe we wont have to be the bigger person here but so many assumptions have been made atp i think id just get yelled at about all the ways that actually this is our fault and i know we wouldnt recover from that

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dont want this anymore. never did. dont want to be scared. dont want to be hunted. just want happy peaceful life. it’s not fair

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“and we all get together when we bury our friends” but its people only coming out of the woodwork when we were at our worst because no one bothered to believe us or stopped to question anything until we made ourself the villian

“youll never take me alive, do what it takes to survive, cause im still here” but its every single person we have ‘killed’ because we cant afford to lose the fragile peace we have

“and i will drown in the fear” but its the fact that you motherfuckers get to just move on but i will live with your actions forever and theres nothing i can do about that because we both know none of you will ever fucking apologize or see any wrongdoing

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watching dove go to make posts on his blog about how hes feeling completely fucking unrelated to anything- only to watch him delete it because he doesnt want to be perceived as “slipping” and lose the charade is fucking breaking my heart

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knew smth was up!