#lyricsdecoded

[you-are-sweeter-than-fiction]

So, music is like an oxygen for me and I really care about lyrics, mostly cause I'm a poet, writer. And sometimes one line from a song can tell more about my current situation than thousands of explanations. For now If I could type the lyrics that hit my heart the hardest (Taylor of course, but she's in a happy place now, and I am not.) that would be :

"There's nothing left to lose, because I had you." by Shawn Mendes - They say it's good when you're scared cause it means you have something to lose, and as long as you have something to lose your life has some point. If you have nothing to lose because you Had that one person, it means this one person meant everything for you, and what left has no value. We can add, that if only this one person in your whole life had a value, then there is nothing beautiful waiting for you in the future. In other words, your life is ended, right? What's around you means nothing, what's in front of you means nothing. It hurts.

"No reason to stay is a good reason to go" by Camila Cabello - When you truly love someone you never hope and you never prepare for the worst. You believe in this feeling and in your future together, and when dark time comes you fight to get through this, but it takes two to have a relationship. No matter how hard you love and fight and try, and how big hopes you have, if this person gives you no reason to stay, you need to go. And it can be the hardest thing to do in your entire life. And you will miss him and you will cry and you will still love him, but you can't give this love in the name of him to yourself. You need to let go although you don't want to. Cause it's his decision. He gives you no choice. And it's awful.

[you-are-sweeter-than-fiction]

I just need to say what hurts me the most about REPUTATION. It’s the song called DANCING WITH OUR HANDS TIED. My heart breaks every time I listen to it. Especially lines: ”Say that we got it I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted”. I remember when Taylor said that she’s just like the fox. She needs to run and hide to live happily. She’s always judged. She has eyes on her no matter what she does. She felt like she was living in a gold cage. Haunted. In this environment of her, it’s so uncredibly hard to find someone who really likes you for what you are, who cares enough to know your secrets, your weakness and dreams. Your real face and heart, as it is when nobody’s watching..

 So listen to lyrics carefully. Taylor sings, that she loved him from the very first sight, without a reason. Her emotions have been frozen for a long time, I think that is because she wanted to protect herself. When you love someone, you give this person a huge power to “push your buttons” (your daily mood and feelings depend on this one person). She sings he painted her golden. It’s like she drowned in love for the guy. She even didn’t know why. It wasn’t because of.. , more like ‘in spite of’. In spite of her past, in spite of all those people who smashed her heart before, and all her fears, sleepless nights, crying on the floor. Taylor wanted to trust him. She started fresh. She had hope that maybe this time will be different. She was ready to spend ‘forever with his hands’ near her. With his face in her mind every single day. She took the risk. She took the bullet.What can we say. Taylor was ready to face difficulties, worries and  threats posed by the future. To give him everything she had inside. To cherish him, protect him and to be not only his lover, but most important - best friend. To always support him. Now, we need to focus on the fact why they didn’t have a happy ending. So.. he painted her golden, yes. He promised that nothing is going to change his feelings for her. That there was no such thing in the world that could divide them.. Then history repeats itself. They were dancing with their hands tied, “through an avalanche“ (media, looking at her every step, judging her every single choice, punching flashes into her face). She was hoping and waiting for him to say that it’s allright. That they got it. They can handle it - together. She wanted him to admit, that yes, she’s a mess, but he loves her as much as she loves him, and because of this, they are invulnerable, bulletproof and fearless. Unfortunately it didn’t happen in the end. He withdrew, he could not bear the pressure. He gave up on her. He couldn’t take it anymore. Why do we know this? Look at those lines: “ I'd kiss you as the lights went out Swaying as the room burned down I'd hold you as the water rushes in If I could dance with you again” It’s the saddest part. It shows not only, that he left Taylor, but also, that she doesn’t mind. I mean..she has no regrets about him, she doesn’t see him guilty. She is not mad at him. She understands what he did. It’s like she wants to say, that she’s the reason they couldn’t last forever. She takes the responsibility. Do you see this, guys?? Can you believe this?? It’s outrageous for me. It breaks me. “..if I could dance with you again..”!!! It looks like she thinks that “ Yeah, I’m a mess, it’s my fault, my fame and all the media around me are unbearable. I get it. I can’t expect you to handle this shit. I understand. Good luck. I’m just gonna sit with my cats. Alone. You still deserve best, I could still do anything for you. It’s me. I’m sorry. “ Like, honey.. no! You wanted to handle anything for him. To be always there for him, to love him no matter what, to always support him, protect him. You gave him your best. You didn’t judge him by his reputation. You were ready to dance  “through an avalanche“. You were full of hope and faith. You trusted him. ALL HE HAD TO DO WAS STAY and he didn’t! He didn’t try enough for you! It breaks my heart, really. It freaking kills me. I’m so happy that you found someone right now, who is worth something. Who is better for you. Takes you as you are. Who can stand this mess. Make an effort for you. @taylorswift, you’ve always deserved it. You deserve best. Take care. xxxx