#lyss' rambles

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I just remembered that I got so stoned last night that I came up with a REALLY dirty concept for a Risotto Nero/Female Reader one shot...

I'm sitting here thinking about it and I'm like "what in the hell was I thinking at the time?"

Is it hot? Well, in my head it kinda is...

But I am too afraid to even attempt to write it because I feel like it won't come out right and people will find it weird...

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So today would have been the parade/kick off day for my Expo.

So sad that I won't be able to have fun and be with my fellow nerds, but here are some of my favourite cosplays/ meeting legend Frank Welker at the 2019 Expo.

I dressed as Gyro from JJBA and I made that cosplay in less than a month (hahha it shows)

Also, my oldest wanted to be Captain America 😁

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Well now...

Inbox is empty and now I can start working on my main projects!

I’m gonna try and do a rotation between what I want to do. I have at least four (4) fanfics I want to do but I also don’t want to feel overwhelmed and pressured to get content out.

With the boys not in school anymore, I don’t have as much free time as I used to when I would write. Which is the reason why I haven’t been writing as I used to when I started this blog. By the time I get home after dealing with them all day, I feel exhausted and blank. But I want to change my ways.

My weight has been going up again and I have to start changing somethings personally. I want to write my own stuff and not feel anxious about a deadline. Just whenever I get it done, it will get done.

(Though I will be picky about The Reason because that series is precious to me and I want that one good enough for me lol)

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Finally started writing The Reason chapter 1 and got a part done 😊

Feeling good about it, im hoping I can get another part done before I get too distracted.

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I have been officially laid off from work.

Now I have to deal with the government to set up my EI -_-

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Has anyone else feel like they lost their interests a bit lately?

Like, I know a bunch, if not all, writers think their work is utter shit but their fans love it.

I LOVE to write. I LOVE coming up with ideas and characters and want to share them with people...

But it's like these first 3 months of the year have taken away any of my will to do anything. I look at a request and drive myself crazy trying to figure out where to go with it and make it so the person who requested it liked it and what they were looking for without me having anxiety that I may have done something wrong by accident.

I finally got started on a new chapter fic, but I haven't even started the first full chapter, just a prologue. And then I have ideas for 2 other chapter fics and want to write them but it's like...where is the will to do this stuff?

I have to try and not let the things that bring me down get in the way of something that brought me joy and start writing for myself and the way I want when I take requests. I should just have the mentality of "I do this for fun and if people want to request, they get what they get."

I have to try and find the joy that has been taken away from me and not let people (my ex) belittle me for doing something that I had called an "outlet" for my depression.

Writing was fun for me. It was great for me to get my ideas out to share with you all and for me to escape into a world where I was happy.

I'm sorry everyone who follows this blog for not delivering the content you all signed up for. I'm gonna try my damnest to get back to the way this blog started out.

I do thank you all for sticking around, those of you who did 💜

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I honestly think a Beauty and the Beast AU with Jotaro would be so cute.

Reader would basically be Belle, Jotaro as the Beast, Dio as Gaston and so on and so on.

Think about it, the Beast is mean and rude but then Reader shows up and shows him the softer side that he didn’t know he had and they fall in love.

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I wanna say thanks!

Hey y’all.

I had a great time reading and answering fluff things today since I was having a REALLY bad week mentally. (Today wasn’t the best) But all your fluffy imagines and submissions really made me happy, so a big ‘ol thank you to you all!

I ended up calling into work today because of my mental issues. I’m not happy about it, but I really needed a night to get better.

I’m currently watching hockey with my dad (it’s fun because we share this obsession) and then I’ll watch Black Clover and Fire Force. (Hinawa 💗)