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2. What is the thing they feel the most guilty about?
Nchuanamz deals with an expected dose of survivors guilt. What she feels ‘most’ guilty about, however, fluctuates depending on circumstance and the time, as it does when you live for as long as she has. Cor’s death and the subsequent scattering of her followers tends to rank among the highest, even though she knows that not only did she have no control over them, but that those events are likely responsible for her and a handful of others surviving the Numidium’s activation.
There are also times she feels guilty for deceiving and hiding things from others, whether it be about her nature as a Dwemer, or her knowledge of Tonal Architecture- The latter often making her feel like a hypocrite, as some of her last words to Yagrum Bagarn before they split ways were to ask him, “What is knowledge for, if not to better those around us with it?”
5. List 3 fears; one “surface level” fear, one “repressed” fear, and one “deep dark” fear.
Surface-level fear: Nchuanamz has an awful fear of drowning or suffocating.
Repressed fear: Her intolerance to magicka will cause her to be unable to protect or assist a friend, ally or loved one.
Deep dark fear: Everything she’s done has been for nothing, has been futile, and all she’s worked to achieve and do will end in ashes.
8. Do they have anything that triggers them?
Surprisingly, no. Not in the psychological sense, at least. Magicka and her have never gotten along well, the resulting headaches and collapsing have been the cause of many issues throughout her life.
11. Do they have any vices?
Nchuanamz finds it difficult to swallow her pride and admit when she has been wrong, and she can hold a grudge for a long time as a result.
15. Who do they hate the most?
Hate is a strong word. For a long time, she resented Lorkhan for his hand in the Dwemer’s disappearance and the corruption of an old friend and person she had looked up to, but then later turned that resentment onto them. That person would be Kagrenac, who also led to Cor’s death.
She doesn’t know enough about that conflict to understand its intricacies, but eventually gave up in a decision that they had both been responsible, feeding into each other.
She continues to hold a half-hearted grudge against Yagrum, likely only out of stubbornness at this point, and in part, a fear that he does not forgive her.
Generally speaking, however, it is very, very hard for Nchuanamz to truly hate someone that isn’t a largely-intangible et’Ada.