#macaron rambles

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😭😭😭 I have never seen Hazuki fail this badly bruhhhhh HOW DID HE FALL ASLEEP TWICE

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This game kinda has like A LOT of content. I'm friendzoning Kei for Madoka rn (easy since there aren't any rivals for Kei) and I went to the fireworks with him. When you call him, he asks why you want to go with HIM instead of your crush and at the end of the date he suggests going with your crush next time. It's such a small detail but it really feels so cool to see that. Like yeah they're "rooting" for you now and you actually see it.

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Studying with these two but instead solving any questions or making notes I keep getting distracted and draw loving doodles of them 🤭

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Maybe I really need to go back to whb just for Minhyeok. Oh god, is this what it feels like to like side characters....So down bad I'd go back just to have crumbs and glimpses of my special blorbo....

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Since everyone and their mom are releasing their frustations regarding PB's newest update, I'm also gonna give my 2 cents. In short, I'm not angry but sad and disappointed. The game is doomed to end and I can't even do anything about it.

Like, What in hell is bad is so silly and fun. The premise is interesting, the characters are all fun and intriguing, the character designs are even more amazing with how unique and cool they are. I didn't mind the sometimes wonky translations and the, in the beginning, slightl difficulty in getting L cards, not even when they announced the 3 month rule, because it was worth it for me. I like it, I could still experience the world through the stories. I cared about the characters.

This kinda game lives and dies through their story and characters. If the players don't get attached and don't care for them, then it's over. It's why events and merchandise work. You get more about the characters, lore and collectables, in a limited time frame so you wanna work hard. And if there's limited stuff you gotta pay for, that's ok bc you really really like them through all the times you've read about them.

But it's simply impossible to do that now. It's been a while since chapter 5 got released. The last event story was really short and scarce between the release of new gachas and nightmare passes. You need L cards AND their corresponding artifact to read the whole card story. How am I able to read anything? How can I come to care for everyone when I barely get to know them?

You could say, well it's a small company; they need money and more time to get work done. Well, Cheritz was also small but they managed Mystic Messenger just fine (I'm gonna leave The Ssum bc I'm out of touch). Isn't it easier to make a player fall in love with the game so much they want to pay for it regardless of financial sitiation, than to solely rely on the wealthier players? A game is also dependent on the community but what community is left if only whales can play the game? The games' content is already scarce so fans gotta entertain themselves. Well, what about the fanartists, fanfic writers, cosplayers, lore analysts, the yappers, the incomprehensible ones? They're gonna be gone. And soon after the game.

I'm gonna unlock the remaining stories from my L cards but after that....I don't know anymore....🥲

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So I finished watching Delico's Nursery and then bingeread the connecting manga TRUMP and um....

I SHOULD HAVE READ FIRST BC NOW I'M EVEN MORE DEVASTATED 😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT DO YOU MEAN DALI'S DREAM WASN'T REAL???? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WITH PROPERLY PARENTING YOUR SONSSSS?????? cat. WHY CAN'T KRAUSS JUST DIE???? WHY ARE THE FRAS SO FABULOUS???? I can't....I just can't man 😭

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I realised again how A3! only lasted for like 2 years but it made such a huge impact on me like few other games. I don't really follow JP server except for looking at new cards and stuff bc it's too much work and it's not the same experience. It's like I'm still following a friendxs social media without reaching out bc we drifted apart. It's nice to see them enjoy their life and I DO wish to be part of it but it's simply not possible without a lot of work I can't manage without running myself haggard.

Still, it has such a special place in my heart and though I continue to mourn it at times, ultimately the pain of our farewells has faded into nostalgic times I cherish dearly and can finally remember fondly. It's somehow bittersweet how it doesn't evoke strong emotions anymore like it used to, whether positive or negative. But I guess it's just part of the passage of time. Some friends aren't meant for a lifetime and that's OK.

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AND WHAT IF I DIE WHAT IF WE DIE TOGETHER CAUSE WE CAN'T BEAR TO BE SEPERATED FROM EACH OTHER AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH