Ooooouuugh macdennis eating disorder parallels my beloved. oh dennis' clear obsession with controlling the things he is allowed to consume and enjoy for fear of succumbing to his own human needs and looking weak or foolish, oh mac's clear need to cut out the things he wants and loves for fear of succumbing to his own human desires and feeling like a disappointment. dennis' shame vs. mac's guilt. dennis' desperation to be seen as something other than a victim vs. mac's desperation to be seen as something other than a sinner. dennis being afraid to be punished for eating while mac is attempting to punish himself by not eating, dennis using food to control mac because he doesn't know how else to access his body and mac relenting every time without question or hesitation because he wants so badly to be controlled by him. mac who feels the need to confess to a priest about eating too much as if it's a sin, and dennis, who believes that eating too much makes you weak and disgusting, sharing a big sweaty garbage bag full of chimichangas when no one else is around and absolutely raving to each other about how good it feels. all of it of course is just the same as dennis who doesn't believe in god and so wants to become him instead and mac who wants to believe in god so badly that he tries to will him into existence, longing for each other but forced by their own arbitrary and self-imposed rules to believe that it isn't possible. can anybody hear me i think i'm going to die.
