I think the thing I need to be right now is honest with myself.
I had a hard year, but the hardest part is over (I submitted my paper and passed the candidacy exam 🥂🎉). Now I have the time to focus on myself and my healing, and work on work-life balance. But there was a toll for the incredibly hard effort I had to put into getting my important work checkpoints completed.
In other words, I'm back where I started. But I'm okay.
I let myself heal for a few weeks before trying to get back to the gym. Mentally mostly. I did very light exercise and spent most of my energy planning things that I intend to do. Like travel and start Cognitive Behavioral Therapy to help with my anxiety and ADHD. I'm hoping this mental work helps with maintaining a better overall lifestyle. One component of this is working on sleeping better.
The next thing I'm trying to add is some commuting to work via bike (it's about an hour one way). I know this will take some time to build stamina. But I'm working on getting the components together to make it work.
One thing I have no trouble with is gaining muscle. But to add like 2 hours of cardio a week (at min) I think this should help in the balance of muscle gaining and weight loss.
Either way I'm just happy I survived everything. Every day can be a new day 1 for all I care, because it all takes just starting. Just working on making "starting" an everyday habit.















