I was wondering you could do a smau where everyone is talking about yns best moments with the other girls and the boys reply with some pictures but Harry and Ethan have the most of faith and yn (maybe even yn and Olive) and Simon of yn and Talia also some with yn and Juni
"MY GIRLS AND I" (SMAU)
harry 'wroetoshaw' lewis x fem!reader
a collection of tweets focusing on Y/N's relationships with her fellow WAGs!
A/N: this is actually such a cute request!!! y/n is implied to be an influencer. reader uses she/her pronouns, and as always, pics are not representative of reader's appearance, just the vibes!! i hope this is okay xx
Harry 'Wroetoshaw' Lewis x fem!reader (social media AU)
A/N: reader is an influencer in her own right and uses she/her pronouns, all pics found on Pinterest and are not representative of appearance just vibes. the reader and talia are best friends (and she's friends with the other partners) which should be a given in any of my work. i lowkey fucked up my formatting so just imagine everything is a reply to the first tweet below, okay? slightly suggestive content (click on images to see the full thing and for better quality!)
messaging the Sidemen to see if they would cover for Harry (smau)
Harry Lewis x reader (established relationship and he doesn't really appear) (i tried to make y/n as gender neutral as possible)
CW: implied cheating kind of (no actual cheating), y/n loves Talia (but who doesn't), it's my first fic-adjacent thing, y/n is kind of a dry texter and is friends with the boys - ignore any spelling mistakes, i am hungover.
Harry 'Wroetoshaw' Lewis x fem!reader
"A collection of posts and moments following your breakup with Harry (who wants you back)"
A/N: reader is a YouTuber, use of y/n and she/her pronouns. some suggestive content and derogatory comments, you and Harry have broken up!! swearing and drinking referenced y/n is mentioned in the roast of the sidemen 2 and there are comments made that would be expected of that type of content. hints at reconciliation. reader is kind of mean and pictures are not representative of her appearance
Harry 'Wroetoshaw' Lewis x reader
A/N: a collection of texts you receive from Harry, your best friend who has a massive crush on you (and you have one on him). reader's gender isn't mentioned. reader and harry live together. reader "slutshames" harry. reader is a little bit mean but harry likes it, and they're also quite bold with their feelings sometimes but also oblivious to Harry's feelings for them, cw for being quite suggestive and also there being mentions of drinking
I was wondering is you could write something about how everyone says Faith and yn are the female versions of Ethan and Harry
"mirror image" (Written/SMAU)
Harry 'Wroetoshaw' Lewis x fem!reader
A/N: this was fun to write!! reader uses she/her pronouns, and is an influencer. mentions/pictures of people drinking, swearing, all the typical warnings for my stuff. again, pics are not representative of y/n's appearance, just the vibes. slightly suggestive in some parts. reader's a bit mean to Harry and Ethan but it's lovingly. y/n and ethan act like siblings (says the author who is an only child), and Faith and y/n are a bit codependent? it's not *exactly* what you asked for #sorry
WORD COUNT: 1289
“D’you wanna know what’s actually like pissing me off? Like it’s genuinely making me raging-” Ethan starts, leaning into his microphone. They’re filming for Sidecast, as they have time to fill before they have to leave for the airport to film in America for the World Cup. Harry rests his elbows on the desk, nodding for Ethan to continue. “When we’re away, right, y/n and Faith genuinely like move in together. And I’ll like- call Faith, and I’ll just hear y/n in the background, and she’s like ‘Ooo, Faith, come back to bed’! They are actually just roleplaying being married, at this point-”
Tobi snorts, “You and Harry do the same!! Do you not remember when we were in like, Sweden- was it Sweden?- and y/n called Harry- Ethan, you started humping his bed!! You were moaning so loudly, so I don’t think you can complain-” Ethan’s mouth forms an ‘O’ as he struggles to find the words. “That wasn’t even the only time- you always like, hump each other or whatever, and-”
“It’s different! It’s different!” Ethan sputters. “I genuinely think that y/n is trying to steal Faith from me! She’s like raising my child and all-”
“Wait, hang on!” Simon pipes up, “You always try to steal Harry from y/n!”
Ethan shakes his head. “That’s different too! I’ve known him longer-”
Tobi interrupts, pointing accusatorily at Harry, “You two are dating the female versions of each other. You know that, right?”
Harry shrugs, before grinning and batting his eyelashes at Ethan, “Is it really that much of a problem? Ethan’s a- a lovely gentleman, and y/n should be happy to be compared to- Hang on.” His phone starts to ring. He moves the microphone away from his mouth, answering it. “It’s y/n.” He whispers to his friends, before putting you on speaker. “Hello, lovely-”
“Harry, hang up. Just hang up.” Ethan stage whispers, stifling a laugh, knowing you’ll be able to hear him.
Through Harry’s fucked up phone speaker, they hear you scoff. “Harry, tell Ethan to be quiet.”
Harry looks apologetically at Ethan, “You heard her tell me to do it, so this is not my belief- shut up, Ethan.”
“Well, I never said tell him to shut up, did I?” Harry shakes his head, knowing you can’t see him. “Harry, I know I’m interrupting but just really quick, I just needed to ask a question-”
“WE’RE DOING THE SIDECAST, Y/N!!” Ethan shouts. Tobi’s hiding his face, microphone on his lap, whilst Simon and Josh snicker at each other.
A second voice pipes up from Harry’s phone. “DON’T YOU YELL AT HER, ETHAN!”
Ethan’s jaw drops again. “FAITH?! Bro, I think we actually like summoned those two, oh my Christ.”
“Oi, so you two’ve been chatting shit?!” Faith asks, with a laugh in her tone despite the confrontational words. “Actually come outside, the both of you. We’ll batter you!” Josh and Simon exchange a look, whilst Tobi puts a hand over his mouth, sinking down in his seat. Harry has his head in his hands, phone on the table in front of him.
“Watch yourselves, lads. Anyway, erm- what time do you guys fly out tonight?” Harry can hear the smile you’re suppressing in the question. He already knows why you’re asking, but he wants to hear you say it.
“Why d’you wanna know? Hmm?” He pointedly asks. He hears you cover the microphone of your phone, the rustle as you move your hand over it. A small smirk spreads across his face, as he pictures you and Faith conspiring. He’d thought about it before, but is only now realising how nice it is to have your partner be best friends with your best friend’s partner! You and Faith had known each other before she’d met Ethan- the story being that one of her TikToks appeared on his FYP, him knowing you followed her, and basically peer pressuring you into hyping him up- but you’d never been particularly close until Faith and Ethan began to date. Partially because you were unable to escape each other.
And now here you are! You were Faith’s maid of honour, alongside practically being Olive’s godmother, and just about lived together when he and Ethan were away, which, yes, was sometimes a bit annoying. But the shit he and Ethan put you and Faith through- well, neither of them could blame either of you two much.
You clear your throat, and he hears Faith snicker. “Well, I just wanted to know so that I could say goodbye before you left! And- sothatIcanpackmythingsforFaith’s.”
“Sorry? Repeat that last part?” A shit-eating grin spreads across his face, as he and Ethan make eye contact. In the background of the call, Harry hears a baby that he assumes (hopes) is Olive shriek with joy, and suddenly realises that you’re already at Faith’s. Obviously, he knew you two were hanging out, but wow! Not even at a cafe, or in the park?
You sigh, long and sarcastically, and he can practically picture the raised eyebrow, doe-eyed look you’d be giving him. He feels flustered just thinking about it. Shifting in his seat, Harry clears his throat, a sign for you to continue. “Faith and I have- decided that whilst you and Ethan swan about in America, I’ll stay with her at least for a little bit. It’ll be nice for us all! I get to spend time with my soulmate and niece, alongside keeping her company and you and Ethan get to be safe in the knowledge that we’re safe and sound together. Isn’t that lovely?” You don’t even let him answer before saying, “So what time are you leaving? I’ll say a very nice goodbye, promise.”
Josh pipes up from his corner, “It doesn’t really sound like you’re asking Harry.”
You and Faith both scoff through the phone. “Are you saying I have to ask my boyfriend for permission to hang out with my best friend, Josh? We’ll be telling Freya about this. You better watch your back, mate. Anyway- Harry? Baby? Love of my life?”
Coming back to reality, Harry coughs lightly. “It’s quite- quite a late flight, right? So I think I’ll probably have to leave at like ten. So-”
“Oh my gosh, Faith, we can have a wine night! That’s awesome. Okay, I’ll let you get back to filming! Love you Harry! I’ll see you later!”
Faith wrangles to phone from your hands, “Bye babe! Love ya!” and then she hangs up.
The boys sit there in silence for a moment. Harry has a dopey smile on his face, and Ethan immediately begins to laugh at him.
“Bro, this is what we’ve been saying!” Tobi practically yells. “You two act the exact same way!” Both Harry and Ethan shake their heads, still in denial.
—
A few weeks later, after the “$100 vs $1,000 FOOTBALL MATCH” video dropped, Harry is scrolling on TikTok when he sees something you reposted earlier in the day. It’s an edit from the video- him and Ethan cuddling in the hotel room bed. And then- it becomes an edit of-
You and Faith?!
Turns out, you’d posted a photo of you and Faith on Twitter, with the caption “Who did it better?” He huffs, checking the comments. All of them say practically the same thing:
Bro, they’re just dating the female versions of each other it’s actually crazy
Harry thinks about it for a few minutes. You can be quite socially awkward, with Faith sometimes helping you in your interactions with others, acting as a boon for your self confidence over the years… similar- similar to what Ethan did for him.
Right so I was thinking like Harry x reader and reader is having a tough time with her friends (they suck!) And constantly make her feel bad so she's distancing herself from Harry a d it's all fluffy him trying to make her see she's perfect.
- Xx
"I got you, babe."
Harry 'Wroetoshaw' Lewis x fem!reader (angst and fluff)
A/N: reader's friends do, in fact, suck - like they are bullies. reader uses she/her pronouns, no specific physical descriptors apart from the fact that she has hair and is shorter than Harry. i dont know if this is exactly aligning with what you wanted, but i tried!!! again, reader's friends are BULLIES (they bodyshame reader and make generally not nice comments)! reader has a degree in an unspecified subject, and alcohol is mentioned (but reader doesn't drink it). use of y/n throughout. this is long, i fear. mentions of throwing up but that doesn't actually happen. not proofread at all #sorry I got into a flow state and you can tell because the tone with which i write really changes sometimes, dialogue is not my specialty
WORD COUNT: 5518
“You realise he’s just going to leave you eventually, right?” Your friend Poppy asks you, not even looking up from her phone. Across the table, Margot laughs, taking a sip from her wine.
You look between them, confused. “I’m sorry?” Silence had been blanketing the room since you’d arrived, not even a hello from either of them, only a quick hug from the host, Becca, who then shuffled back into the kitchen.
Margot and Poppy exchange a glance. Margot shakes her head, “You have nothing to be sorry for, babe. It’s just- I mean, c’mon. What’ve you got going for you? Like really? You’re what, 28? And you look like that. We’ve all seen the girls he likes on Instagram, and- well. You’re nothing like them.”
You ball your hands up in your lap, “I don’t think you know anything about my relationship, Margot-”
Poppy sighs, interrupting you. “How long have you been together? 4 years? No ring? That’s a sign of something, y/n. Jordan proposed to me after 6 months, because he knew from the start that he was sure about me.”
“I have a list of reasons as to why he hasn’t proposed yet right here. Wanna hear?” Margot doesn’t wait for your response. “You talk too much about your boring little life. You think you’re funny when spoiler alert! You’re not. I don’t even want to talk about the way you dress because it’ll just make me angry. You’re far too willing to divulge us with all your innermost thoughts and feelings, all your little vulnerabilities. The way you carry yourself is just horrible-”
“Which is why I didn’t ask you to be a bridesmaid.” Poppy interrupts, still scrolling.
Margot nods, before continuing. “Your time management is terrible, you never make decisions, you’re a clingy little bitch- like seriously, you message us like everyday even when we don’t reply, you-”
You begin to tune them out, feeling like you’ve just been dunked in an ocean full of ice cold water. You watch Margot’s mouth move, Poppy nod in false sympathy, and see Becca move in and out of the room, too focused on playing the perfect host whilst you’re being ripped to shreds in her dining room. You blink hard a few times, trying to repress the sudden wave of tears rising in your body.
“Oh my God, Jesus. You’re not seriously about to cry?” Poppy scoffs, raising an eyebrow in disgust, before raising her voice to yell into the kitchen. “Becca, can you get a fucking glass of milk for y/n? She’s acting like a fucking baby.” The massive diamond of her engagement ring sparkles cruelly in the candlelit dining room, and from the kitchen, you hear Becca sigh, before appearing in the doorway.
“Guys, c’mon. Let’s all just be friends. Margot, Poppy, lay off of y/n. y/n, can you just- not do your ‘y/n’ thing tonight? It’s our girls night, so just relax. Okay?” She smiles, but you can see the fakeness of it. On the table, your phone buzzes with a text from Harry, away on a Sidemen shoot, telling you goodnight and that he loves you. Poppy glances at you with disdain as Becca disappears back into the kitchen.
She lowers her voice, leaning into you, even though Margot can definitely hear her. “I think it’s charming that he puts up with you. And honestly, you should count your days with him because we all know that there are other people out there who are more attractive, more interesting, and just- more suited to him. There is nothing about you that would ever make people want to be around you. I’m telling you this as your friend of 10 years- we studied the same degree, we lived together during uni, and you’re like a sister to me- but I’m doing so much better than you. How did you fuck it all up so badly, y/n?”
Margot takes another sip of her wine, swilling it around in her glass. “We’re telling you this because you’re our friend, and we love you. But we don’t really like you. We invite you out because… well, we have to. And we’re worried that you being so… you in the privacy of your home will condemn you to a lifetime and loneliness. Apart from us and Harry, you don’t really have anyone else. So we invite you out to try and negate that! You get it, right? Can you really blame us?”
You don’t say anything. You feel disgusted, at yourself but, more importantly, at them. As you thought about it, a lot of things began to make sense.
Obviously, there was Poppy not inviting you to be a bridesmaid when she’d asked Becca, Margot, and basically all of your wider friend group (even Tara, which was fucked because she never even liked Tara!). But there was how sometimes all of you would be out, and one of them would type something and the other two would laugh, which led you to believe they had a groupchat without you. Or how, when Poppy’s fiancé met you for the first time, he said “You’re just like how Poppy described you!” and then they both laughed.
And what about your birthday? How Harry had gone all out, and arranged a surprise party for you, giving them invitations and them agreeing enthusiastically and- not showing up. Not even sending you a message or posting an Instagram story, and then posting a photo of them all at brunch.
You felt like an idiot. The growing pit in the bottom of your stomach felt all-consuming, and when combined with the heat in your face from embarrassment and rage and- loneliness, you knew you had to leave. You abruptly stood, grabbing your phone from the table, whilst Margot and Poppy shared a look, Poppy seemingly stifling a smile.
“Something the matter, babe?” Margot asked, her tone a mix of annoyance and pride, “Did our honesty actually upset you? Jesus, you have to learn to take criticism. I literally said that we love you.”
You couldn’t even look at either of them, instead opening your Uber app and ordering yourself a car.
“y/n, come on! We’re trying to open your eyes to the truth.” Poppy snickered. As you looked up from your phone, you saw Margot mouthing ‘shut up!’ at her. You pursed your lips. Becca came out from the kitchen, holding two plates of pasta.
She sighed at you, “y/n, just sit down. They’re just trying to give you some advice! I spent all day making this, you’re just gonna let it go to waste?” You heard Poppy murmur, ‘if she eats it, it’ll just go to her waist!’ Becca shoots her and Margot (both of them laughing) a dirty look, but doesn’t say anything to stop them.
“No. No. No! I don’t- I don’t have to do this. I think you’re cruel, you’re all just fucking- cruel! You won’t let me be happy in my relationship! You won’t let me be happy at my job- Poppy, I got fired because I ‘had to’ help you! I can’t even BREATHE without one of you jumping down my neck!” Becca goes to speak, but you interrupt her. “I could not fucking care less about your pasta, right now Becca. I’ve already got myself a lift, and I’m leaving and I- I can’t do this. I never want to speak to any of you again. I don’t even want to wish you guys well in life, because you all have made me hate mine.”
You go to the door, grabbing your coat and handbag from the hook and slam the door behind you. You stand in the hallway for a second, chest heaving with the force of your breath. You feel light-headed, the adrenaline coursing through your veins feels overwhelming. You hear nothing from the inside of the flat, and then- they’re laughing.
Your jaw clenches, and you take off towards the staircase, flying down the steps two at a time until you exit the building. It’s dark outside, and you can barely see the stars because of the harsh street lamps, but the wind is whipping your face and you suddenly feel every nerve in your body. You stay standing there until you see the car pull up.
—
In the lift back up to the flat you share with Harry, you have to lean against the wall for support. The adrenaline has worn off, and you feel like you might throw up. You checked your phone once in the car, and there was nothing. No messages chewing you out, no voicemails, no texts from your other friends asking what happened, which was both expected and unexpected.
You hadn’t even answered Harry’s text from earlier, but he would definitely be asleep by now. Fuck. As you arrived at your floor, you realised just how alone you were. You didn’t want to wake him up to talk about this - and maybe, Margot had a point about you. She was a lot of things- a bitch for one- but she wasn’t really a liar. Maybe you did talk too much. Maybe this was something you just had to deal with… alone.
As soon as you got back to the flat, you shed your shoes and coat, dropping your handbag on the coffee table in the living room. You stand in the dark for a few minutes, just looking at your hands. You don’t feel anything. You feel everything. You suddenly feel the overwhelming urge to shower, and scrub your skin until it feels raw.
—
You wake up the next day in somewhat of a fugue state. Checking your phone in the dark bedroom, you see it’s well into the afternoon and you’ve received no messages from anyone. Not even Harry. Which was to be expected. Again, he’s away, he’s busy which is-
Fine.
It's all fine. Everything is fine! You can deal with this alone. Even if you’ve overslept and you don’t feel like you can move, and you just want the ground to swallow you whole so you never have to face anyone ever again. You thank whatever entity inspired you to take the day off of work weeks ago, having known about your girl’s night and expecting it to get rowdy- just not in the way it had.
You don’t even sit up in your bed, instead, you run a hand over your face, throw your phone back on the night stand, and close your eyes, hoping to go back to sleep. You were holding Harry's pillow close to you, because even with his shirt draped across your body (after scorching your skin in the shower, you needed some kind of comfort), it doesn't feel like enough. What you really need is Harry.
But he's not here.
The words of your ‘friends’ are tolling in your mind like a bell. Admitting that you need him to make you feel better feels like acknowledging that they're right.
You're too needy, you're too much, he can (and will) do better than you. There is nothing likable about you. Your friends fucking hate you and always have. So does he.
It's relentless, and you are five seconds away from bashing your head against your pillow to try and shut them off. You’re not even tired, really. Sleeping just feels easier than facing the world.
—
You’re not even sure when you actually fell into a deep and dreamless sleep, but what feels like five days later (but is more like 10 hours), you awaken to dim sunlight stretching across the bedroom, and the feeling of someone’s hand stroking your hair. You slowly began to realise that your head is no longer on your pillow, and you’re no longer hugging Harry’s.
Instead, Harry is sitting against the headboard of the bed, scrolling on his phone with your head in his lap. How he situated you here without waking you up, you have no clue. His hand remains in your hair, which makes you realise he doesn’t know you’re up. You blink your bleary eyes, trying to regain your senses, having been sleeping in a blacked out room for basically a day. As you slightly shake your head, his hand stills.
“Good morning, lovely.” He says softly, a bit of a laugh in his tone. You squint at him, trying to figure out when he got back. Harry can see the question on your face, “We got back earlier than expected. I called, but no reply. Figures though, you were fully wiiiped out.”
The words of your friends flash through your mind again. He saw you holding his pillow, which means he saw you needing him. You sit up next to him, rubbing a hand over your face, feeling exhausted but not tired. “What time is it?” It comes out slightly slurred, but Harry understands you well. He flashes you his phone, which reads ‘07:43AM’.
You stretch your weary arms above your head, and move to the edge of the bed. You can feel Harry’s eyes on you, drinking in your figure. The bed moves as he reaches for you, but you stand before he can touch you, and shuffle to the adjoining bathroom.
Behind you, Harry’s protests fill the air: “Wha- y/n! Where do you think you’re going?!” The pout in his words is evident.
You don’t think you can look at him, and your skin burns with embarrassment, “I hav- I have to shower. I’m working today, so. Yeah.”
“Oooo! Cheeky shower? All by yourself?”
You imagine that if he was able to, he’d be wiggling his eyebrows at you. You turn around to face him, smiling lightly in spite of yourself. “Some of us actually have to do work today. I can’t have you in there distracting me.”
“But-”
“Maybe later! If you’re lucky.”
Harry shakes his head, but returns to his phone. Closing the door to the bathroom, you rest your head upon the cool wall, taking a deep breath before running your shower. You do all your typical morning stuff, and by the time you’re out of the bathroom, Harry is fast asleep snoring incredibly loudly. You put on your work outfit, and still before leaving the bedroom.
You look back over at Harry, and quietly sneak over to his side of the bed. He’s got his face smushed into his pillow, and you realise he’s holding your pillow, just like how you were holding his. Your heart warms slightly, at the idea of him needing you as much as you need him. You’re about to leave him with a kiss on the cheek, when your phone buzzes.
7 NEW MESSAGES FROM: Margot😇
Hey babe😗
Just wanted to check in on you after your breakdown the other night xx
You know we meant nothing bad by it
We’re just looking out for you
Plus you deserved the wake up call
It’s cruel that people lie to you
Especially when they sleep in your bed next to you😉 xx
Okay, fuck that. You swipe away the notifications, but it doesn’t stop that same horrible feeling of nausea beginning to encroach upon you. You straighten up, and without looking back, you leave the room. You need to get out of the flat, and- and you have 15 minutes to walk to work. Your shoes, slipped on before the front door, pinch at your feet slightly. It’s uncomfortable, but welcome, helping bring you back into your body.
—
Having been in a relationship for four years, and having loved you for seven (and counting!), Harry Lewis liked to say that he knew you well enough to know when something was wrong. And something felt, to put it lightly, fucking wrong.
When you didn't answer his message on Sunday, he kind of expected it? Like, it was your girl’s night, and he knew that they tended to drag on, so it was fine (even if he felt slightly stressed), but then on Monday, when he still hadn't heard anything…
Yeah, the alarm bells were starting to ring.
He even went as far as to message Becca, just to check in, but found himself left on read. Suffice to say, he was even more confused than before. Arriving home at 4AM on Tuesday morning, Harry made sure to open the door as silently as possible, creeping his way into the flat. He dragged his suitcase in after him, and frowned slightly. Your handbag was still on the coffee table, your coat was slung over the sofa, which was weird to Harry. One thing you always did was make sure that your coat hung up. You liked to be able to grab it easily before leaving, and he liked the sense of normalcy it gave - the fact that something so domestic made things just a bit easier. He liked that.
What he also liked was walking into the bedroom and seeing you in bed. You’d been living together for 2 years, but still, seeing you so relaxed in the bed you shared gave him butterflies (not that he’d ever admit it). As quietly and cautiously as he possibly could, Harry pushed the door open to the bedroom. The scene he was met with warmed his heart, but also made him a bit more concerned.
You were in the bed, obviously, holding something Harry recognised as his pillow and wearing his shirt which made him just want to squeal. But, of course, that would’ve woken you up, so he didn’t. Harry approached you. Although half of your face was smushed, he could tell that your brows were furrowed and you were frowning, as though you were having a bad dream. A matching frown spread across his face. Obviously, he couldn’t jump into your mind as you slept and see what was troubling you, but by God did he want to.
Instead, he settled for trying to provide you at least some kind of comfort whilst you slept.
Harry first opened the curtains slightly, knowing that you would appreciate the feeling of the sun’s warmth as you woke up. The sun was beginning to rise, and although the lighting was very, very dim, he took a photo of you, finding himself in need of some memento of this. Immediately setting it as his lock screen, Harry then stripped his clothes off, standing only in his boxers. He felt like he was playing a very important game of Operation. Obviously, he appreciated you finding comfort in other him-adjacent items. But, the real thing was here now!
He didn’t even feel particularly tired, having slept on the flight back from Kos, but he just wanted to be close to you - and he’d read somewhere that physical contact was good for nightmares and bad dreams. He tries to recall what specifically, and hopes that it meant it was good for stopping them. The last thing Harry wanted to do was give you more bad dreams with the assistance of his nearly nude body.
He slid under the duvet on his side of the bed, leaning against the headboard, and for a moment, he just watched you. Your hair had fallen into your face, and he reached a large hand in order to move it. Your nose wrinkled as he did so, and you cracked an eye open at him. He knew you weren’t awake fully, but he took the opportunity to pull you over to him, feeling less guilty than if he were to be waking you from a REM cycle. You let go of the pillow and immediately latch onto him, before falling fully into sleep again. Harry swears his heart skips a beat, and he takes another photo of you. He’s not obsessed, or anything. But when he’s away, he likes to have these as a memento of what’s waiting for him when he gets back.
—
Harry wakes up disorientated several hours later, and realises that you aren’t in bed anymore. He shakes his head to nobody, remembering the conversation you had before you left. Even then, something about your energy felt off. You had smiled at him, but it didn’t reach your eyes, and- and!! He wasn’t allowed in the bathroom whilst you showered. It wasn’t even a sexual thing in the moment (not really, anyway). He just likes to sit on the counter, or on the toilet whilst you shower, so that he can tell you about all of the gossip and funniest bits from his day- and maybe so he can watch you shower.
He checks his phone before slipping out of the bed. No messages from you, not even something to say you left- which hurts a little bit, he doesn’t want to lie. It wasn't like he needed to be in contact with you all the time, but he'd been gone for nearly a week, and before Sunday, you'd been messaging him with random updates about your day (something he loves!)- and now… nothing.
Harry's worst fears had been affirmed: something was wrong. And he had no clue what. It wasn’t anything that he did, was it? He scrolled through the messages he'd sent you since Saturday. All remarkably inoffensive inquiries into your day, the trading of pictures you thought the other would like to see- there was no indication of anything being wrong.
Until, of course… the girl's night with your friends.
If Harry was being completely honest, he didn’t even really like your closest friends that much. The first time he'd ever met Maggot (No- her name is Margot!), she'd started talking about the differences between him and your exes, and then promptly went to the bathroom, coming back with a deep-dive into who he followed on Instagram, accusing him of having wandering eyes. Again, this was his first time meeting her, and both you and Becca had been at the bar, ordering drinks, whilst Poppy scrolled mindlessly on her phone.
He had just sat there gobsmacked until you and Becca returned, seemingly numb to the brewing tension between Harry and Margot (or, as Ethan had started to call her after Harry recounted the evening, “Maggot”- the nickname which, since then, has infested his vocabulary, leading to Harry having to be extra careful when talking to you about your friends).
But, because they were your friends, he never said anything. He would sit there and nod whilst you spoke about them, hold you whilst you cried about them being horrible to you, and even got their numbers so that he could invite them to your birthday, because he knew you’d want them there. They didn’t even show up, and although you were smiling, Harry saw it never fully reached your eyes, as you kept checking your phone. He held you as you cried last night, and as their fake apologies rolled in and you forgave them.
Harry wanted to believe that they were good friends under it all, but he knew deep in his heart: they were vile, horrible people, and they were terrible to you, despite what you believed.
Suddenly, his phone buzzed.
2 NEW MESSAGES FROM: Big Behz✊✊💦
Oi Harold you are late to filming
Come on big boy😍
He swore softly under his breath, rubbing his eyes and throwing on a hoodie with a pair of trackie bottoms. Duty calls, of course. Strutting off to the guest bedroom where his recording equipment is, Harry begins to hatch a plan. Obviously, yeah, he can’t make you tell him what happened in detail. But he wants to be able to be there for you.
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It’s nearing 9PM when you leave work. You never usually stay that late, but you needed something to keep your mind off of things. It has always been like that, for you. There was no need to talk about your feelings if there was something you could be doing. And! And, it also lets you work through it alone. By doing a repetitive task for a few hours, you usually found yourself replaying events that had happened, coming to conclusions upon them, and deciding what to do. Although, this one had royally and truly fucked you up.
You knew it wasn’t your fault. You knew that if there really were any issues, your friends should’ve come to you when it first started to be a problem, and discussed it like adults instead of jumping you during dinner. But it’s the same thing, over and over again. What if it’s true? It got to the point where the sound of your own mind is annoying you. You turned your phone fully off at lunch, after Becca had messaged you, acting as though nothing had happened, and you couldn’t be bothered to turn it back on again.
Which is why you hadn’t seen the messages from Harry, asking when you were coming home because he had a surprise for you.
Or any of his calls from the past two hours, each one slightly more concerned than the last.
So when you gather all your belongings from your desk, saying goodbye to your remaining coworkers, you’re quite surprised to see Harry waiting outside the building. He’s not facing in your direction, but you can see the anxious tapping of his foot, the way he keeps checking his phone, and the bouquet of tulips hanging limply in his other hand.
You still for a second, just watching him. Your boyfriend is a beautiful man. The setting sun catches itself on him, illuminating his blond hair and making it look like spun gold. You know he’s handsome, of course, and you know others think so too. You’d seen enough edits, alongside having read fanfiction with him for a video. But you know who he is under the famous hot guy from the Sidemen. He has a very large heart, and is endlessly patient with you. Seeing him standing there, all you wanted to do was run and throw your arms around his neck, but something was holding you back.
“y/n!” He called out to you, slowly approaching. Shit. You hadn’t even realised he’d seen you. “There you are, my girl.” He smiles at you with a nervous grin you haven’t seen since your first date. You feel a bit nauseous at the thought that you made him nervous, because it didn’t feel like it was in a good way.
“Harry! Hey!” You said, a bit louder than you probably should have. He was in front of you now, phone slipped into his pocket, still holding the bouquet. He didn’t seem to know what to do with his hands.
He went to give you a hug, but pulled back at the last second, “These- these are for you. Obviously. Erm, I thought you- I thought you’d like ‘em. You know? Er. Yeah. Do you? Like them?” He practically shoves the flowers in your direction, before stuffing his hands into his pockets, scrutinising you for your reaction. A weak smile spreads across your face.
“I love them. Thank you, Harry.” Your words come out clipped, but the smile grows as you look down at the bouquet, and Harry feels his heart grow three sizes.
Without realising it, you’d begun to walk the route home. Harry kept looking at you from the corner of his eye, but you didn’t look at him once. You kept your gaze down on the pavement in front of you, the bouquet tucked into the crook of your elbow. You were quiet and Harry didn’t want to disrupt you when you were so clearly deep in thought. He hoped you were thinking about telling him what was the matter when you got home. He needed to know.
It’s 15 minutes of silence before the pair of you reach your building and step into the lift, and the silence persists to the flat. Harry unlocks the door for you, and again, that same weak smile from you. You bustle into the flat, past the living room and into the kitchen, grabbing a vase from one of the cabinets and filling it with water for the flowers. Harry looks at you walk past the dining table. He never considered himself a particularly good chef, but Harry would like to argue the smell of the stir fry he’d made would make anyone salivate!
“Er- y/n! I made dinner, if you want any? It’s stir fry, and like, I know you like it so if you want any, absolutely have some because I will be indulging as welllll!” He rambles loudly, hoping you hear him. It’s then he realises that the sound of running water has stopped.
He goes into the kitchen to find the vase with the tulips on the island, and you by the sink, body shaking with poorly concealed sobs.
Harry’s eyes widen, and he quickly scurries to your side. “Hey, y/n, y/n.”
You shake your head as he repeats your name, hand clamped over your mouth, eyes screwed shut in a way that seems painful. Harry moves behind you. He wraps his arms around you, and gently begins rocking back-and-forth. The repetitive movement is soothing, and you find it taking your mind off of the overwhelming feeling of utter despair. Harry doesn’t try to talk, and you don’t either, instead you turn around and bury your face in his chest. He remains rocking, but also gently runs a hand through your hair. This makes you cry harder.
You don’t know how long you’re there, but eventually breathing becomes easier, and you move your head from Harry’s chest to look at him. He raises a hand to wipe the tears from your face, doing it gently enough that it tickles slightly, causing you to huff out a small laugh. He smiles toothily at that. Hope is not lost yet.
His eyes search yours for several moments. It’s times like these where Harry wishes he could read your mind, and make everything better for you.
Exhaling shakily, you disentangle yourself from him. You lean your back against the kitchen counter. You look over Harry’s shoulder at the tulips, and you begin to explain the events of your girl’s night. It’s easier to not look at him when you talk about things like this. You’re sure if you saw his eyes, and the amount of love he held for you in them, you’d break down in tears again.
Harry’s jaw clenches from where he’s stood, but he makes sure to not interrupt you. At the end of your explanation, he pulls you back in for a hug. He rests his chin on your head, and you let yourself go limp against him.
“I’m so fucked up, Harry. I’m so sorry. I- I know I should be able to deal with this. And I am, I am, I promise. But I just- I can’t-” Your words catch in your throat, and Harry gently grabs your shoulders and makes you face him.
“y/n, I promise you, you aren’t fucked up. Nothing that you’re feeling right now is- is a problem for me, okay? I’m your boyfriend, I can deal with some of your fuckin’- fuckin’ emotional baggage! You’re my y/n, right? We do this together.” You huff when he says emotional baggage, but he can tell it’s jokingly. You open your mouth to say something, but he shakes his head. “I love you so fuckin’ much, y/n. I don’t think you actually grasp that. You’re my best friend in this entire world, pleasedon’ttellBehzorVik, and hearing you repeat the shit that your so-called ‘friends’ said actually makes me so mad. We can find you new friends, Faith’s been harassing me for ages about you two having a one-on-one date! I don’t want you to listen to a word they say about you, and I know that’ll be incredibly hard for you, so listen to me instead: I love you. I love everything about you. You are the person I want to spread the rest of my life with. So who in the world gives a fuck about what they say?!”
“Only some of my emotional baggage?” You laugh lightly. You’re smiling at him, and for Harry it feels like the sun has risen again.
“y/n, don’t be a dick!” He squeezes your shoulders lightly. “I am being serious, though. I love you, y/n. I never want to see you cry like that again, because it makes my heart hurt. The only thing you should do is be yourself. You are not responsible at all for that lot and their problems. You’re perfect for me, y/n. You’re it for me, you know that.”
You kiss him gently, and he responds with gusto.
“I think I love you more than you could ever know.” You murmur against his lips, “Thank you, Harry. Really. I love you.” You pull away from him. He’s looking at you like you hung the moon in the sky, and a full smile spreads across your face. “So… stir fry, huh?”
headcanons (how you met + general headcanons)!
harry 'wroetoshaw' lewis x fem!reader - "Black cat!gf & Golden retriever!bf"
A/N: fem reader but no other descriptors for physical appearance other than that reader is attractive, very cool & wearing a dress, swearing and drinking alcohol throughout the fic, they kiss, possibly suggestive in some parts ?? this is LONG for headcanons i fear, maybe it'll be turned into an actual fic one day but who knows. (i tried my best)
backstory first!!
you and your long-term partner had broken up, and your friends managed to convince you to come on a night-out (circa June 2018), which was basically like a miracle
like you don't like people at the best of times, really. but when they're drunk and sweaty?? that's even worse
anyways, so you're in the corner nursing a vodka cranberry in this little yellow mini dress, watching your friends dance, when you get jostled by this group of guys
they're loud, and you're pissed off, and you turn around and are accidentally immediately drenched in some brightly coloured cocktail. what. the. fuck.
you're just standing there in shock, whilst this blond boy is wide-eyed stuttering out apologies whilst his friends laugh (at him, of course), and you realise that your dress is completely ruined. and this boy has just realised it too
from Harry's POV (also coming out of a relationship, albeit a shorter one), he's just met the most beautiful person he has ever seen. and she's giving him the most disdainful look he's ever seen from another human.
in his very very very drunken state, Harry decides to try and remedy the situation by taking his t-shirt off and offering it to you to try and cover the stain on your dress, but obviously you say 'no', because no matter how attractive this guy is and how ruined your dress is, why would you take his shirt????
his friends are still laughing, because Harry is a notoriously mean drunk, and if he'd spilt his drink on anyone else, he'd be arguing with them, but he was like falling over himself to apologise to you. and you didn't want to give him the time of day!
you shoved the shirt back in his hands, and started to walk towards the bathroom, abandoning your drink and garnering your friends' attention on your way, when you realise he's following you like a puppy with his tail between his legs, drunk off his head and still holding the shirt.
you turn around to face him, and he has a really dopey smile on his flushed face.
"I- ifff you won't take my shirt, at least take my number!" he slurs out, and you're just standing there incredulously, whilst your friends are cheering you on from the dance floor. "I'm Harry fuckin' Lewis! I'm in the fuckin'- the fuckin' Sidemen! I could buy you a new dress! I could buy you 10,000 new dresses!"
"Uh-huh. I'm sure that's true." a bit snarky? sure, but also, who the fuck is this guy?!
he senses your disbelief, and pulls out his Supreme branded wallet, and hands you two crisp £50 notes. you take them, and slip them into your purse. (i would do the same)
"That proves nothing, but like- thanks?" You smile (albeit awkwardly and a bit forced at him), and to Harry, you've made his whole year.
"Sooooo your number? Or- or- or I'lll give you mine?" He's still smiling toothily, and you hate to admit it but he's kind of (incredibly) attractive.
What happens after is:
You agree to take his phone number, but it takes you a while to text him - a while being like,,, three weeks. What you don't see, is Harry getting desperate. at shoots, he's checking his phone constantly.
he was very drunk, but not drunk enough to forget your smile.
so when you do text him: 'hey, i'm y/n (the girl from the bar whose dress you ruined)'
he is jumping for fucking joy like they are filming when he gets the text, and his face goes through about 7 different emotions, and Ethan tries to steal his phone to see what it is.
he doesn't reply in the moment, but does later, and is giggling like a child the whole time.
he immediately tries to arrange a time to meet framing it as a date, but you're like "slow down, cowboy"
it's not that you don't like him, but:
1. you did just get out of another relationship.
2. he's very eager, and that's not something you're used to from boys (because typically they're stupid) and it kind of scares you.
but he is also eager to get you a new dress, so when he frames it as that (even though you know it'll end up being a date), you agree.
and the rest is, as they say, history.
you and harry meet up at a shopping centre, and he ends up following you around (and buys you not only a new dress, but also like anything he sees you look at for more than 5 seconds). he jokingly complains about having to carry the bags, but when you try and take them, he will not let you. you complain about him paying for you, but when you try and pay, he won't let you.
the 'date' ends up lasting over 7 hours, because after you finish shopping, Harry's like "Oo, I'm hungry, are you?" so you get food, and then he walks you home, but obviously, you're like "This route is probably nicer this time of night.", so you guys end up walking the scenic route, and spend a lot more time actually talking and getting to know each other.
he's not as immature as you had first thought, and he makes terrible jokes that somehow make you laugh, and he makes you feel all warm and gooey inside which is just... eugh unbelievable.
when you arrive back at your flat building, he insists on carrying the bags up for you, and then he... doesn't kiss you at the door??? so after he drops them inside and says goodbye, you make a choice.
you run after him to the lift, and you kiss him.
he doesn't kiss you back immediately, and so you back off, smile awkwardly and turn around, but before you know it, he's got you pinned against the wall outside of the lift, you can feel the heat radiating off of his body, and his mouth roughly meets yours, his hands trawling across your body, settling at your waist (and you're kissing him back, obviously).
it's a few minutes of that before you break apart, resting forehead to forehead, and he's looking into your eyes like he wants to look into them forever.
and he smiles that stupid, dopey smile (he's drunk off of you instead of alcohol this time), and since then, you've been locked in.
GENERAL RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS
his love languages are gift-giving (more specifically, giving you his card and letting you spend his money - like he borderline gets offended if you don't use his card for stuff) and physical touch.
idk if you've ever seen that one meme that's like "came home drunk and got way to excited to see my cat" that's him with you.
He is THEEE most annoying guy on Earth. But like not on purpose.
He *has* to be cuddling you in order to sleep, but like in a heatwave, it’s a nightmare. but he still does it. You can try and move away, but it won’t work, no matter how much you complain.
Loves to randomly poke you and like play with your hair, you've mastered your side-eye, but it genuinely does not seem to affect him at all.
you guys moved in together before the second Covid lockdown, because your roommate had moved out a few months before the first one, and you were all alone for the first one, and the loneliness was stifling.
you two have been together for like 8 years at this point... which is insanity.
the other Sidemen (especially when they found out that you're the same person from the club that night) love to take the piss out of Harry - they think you're too cool (and also too hot) for him.
you've also become amazing friends with Faith, Talia, Ellie, Freya etc.
he always buys you a souvenir from the Sidemen travel videos, and like the other Sidemen (especially like Ethan or Vik) are in charge of calling you if he gets too mopey on a night out from missing you.
he also uses these travel videos as a way of scouting areas for your couple holidays.
you've been in like two videos, but not properly - like he asks you a question and you answer from off-camera, and during one of those ChrisMD videos, the audience see you let in the human statue guy with Calfreezy.
in any photos you take together, Harry has a massive smile on his face, and unless you two are like looking at each other, it looks lowkey like you hate him.
he'll be recording like an episode of the Sidecast, and you call him so he answers on camera, and you're just asking him a question, or like kind of 'chewing him out' so to speak (for example, he didn't wash the dishes), and he just has the biggest heart eyes listening to you talk.
some people say you're too mean, or too quiet for Harry, but he is right where he wants to be with you.
when you and yours go on nights out, he is your biggest hype man. he's never gonna tell you what to wear, he's gonna fight other people for looking, and he always asks you to do a spin for him to show off your outfit.
visiting Guernsey with him is always an experience. at this point his family enjoys seeing you more than they enjoy seeing him, because chances are he'll be up in his room recording a video of some kind, and you'll actually be the one spending time with them. gossiping with his sister and mum is awesome, and probably a favourite pastime of yours.
he is basically capable of reading your mind, so even when you struggle to talk about things, he knows what you need/want.
he'll indulge all of your passions (i.e. attending concerts with you even if he doesn't listen to the artist, watching musicals with you, watching the football team you support play even if he doesn't support them - he likely has their jersey anyways)
to conclude, Harry Lewis loves you more than he'll probably love anything ever, and everyone makes sure to remind him that you are too good for him, but you also love him more than anything else, and you two are gonna spend the rest of your lives together <3