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Hawks Mafia AU x Reader Pt 4 (part 1)
Hawks makes his way to the elevator of your apartment building and rides it down to the lobby. All the while, thinking about the ensuing war and what he can do to protect you.
This isn’t his first rodeo, but this time it’s different. He has someone he cares for, someone to protect. If Twice were to find out about you, that would crush him. He doesn’t want this to get any bigger than what it is.
It’s the next morning, 6 am to be exact. You hadn’t slept a wink. You make your way to the kitchen to heat up some water in your tea kettle. You take out a packet of tea from one of the cabinets and grab a mug to set your tea bag in.
You spent the whole night thinking. Thinking about Hawks. Thinking about when you’ll return to work. IF you wanted to go back to work at the diner.
You were still shaken up, as anyone would be in that situation, but you also knew you had to get back eventually.
You let out a heavy sigh.
Your tea kettle started going off with a loud whistle. You pour the boiling water into your mug, holding the small tab of your tea bag to prevent it from falling in. You let the tea steep a little before removing the tea bag to add milk and sugar.
You head over to your couch carefully holding your tea, as to not burn yourself with the hot liquid.
You place the tea on the coffee table and pick up the tv remote. You start to flick through the channels, despite knowing that the only thing really on at this time was the news and paid programming. You decide to look through Disney channel and Nickelodeon before finally deciding to watch spongebob.
You honestly just wanted it for the background noise, so you kept the volume low.
You return the tv remote to its spot on the table and pick up your mug. You gently blow and bring the mug to your lips.
You feel the warmth of the tea flowing throughout your whole body, as well as a sense of calm taking over.
You place your mug on the end table next to you, so that you didn’t have to keep sitting up for it every time you wanted some.
As time passed and the more tea you drank, you felt your eye lids getting heavier and heavier. Sleep finally taking over your body.
You decide to go to your bed, so you could sleep comfortably.
You lay down and instantly, the bed starts hugging every curve of your body and within an instant you drift off to sleep.
You start to dream even.
A soft breeze, started hitting your face. It felt like spring. You open your eyes to see a peach colored sky and flower petals falling from the trees.
The petals lightly floating in the breeze, caressing your hair and skin every so often.
You continue you to look up at the sky and it starts to turn a crimson red color. The clouds turn black. The flower petals that once caressed your face are no longer, as they turned into ash. Falling from the sky like black snow.
A hand comes around and grips your face to cover your mouth.
You start to hear a sinister laugh, followed by a menacing voice.
“He really thought I would never find you” the voice says, followed by another laugh
The hand moves from your mouth to the back of your head swiftly and you soon felt your head being pushed to the ground with excessive force, but before you could hit the ground, you wake up.
You look at your alarm clock and it’s 9 am. The shock of the dream still hitting you. A lump forming in your throat from the fear.
“What was that dream” you think to yourself
You decide to check your phone and notice you have a couple missed calls from Hawks, your boss and your best friend.
You decide to call your best friend first since you haven’t spoken to them since you both worked a shift together prior to the incident. They’re actually the reason you got a job at the diner in the first place. You’ve known each other forever and even made sure to get in the same college, even if you didn’t end up rooming together.
They started working at the diner before you did and put in a good word with the owner, who is also your boss, and you started work a couple days later.
“Hey girlyyy~” they say excitedly
“Hey,” you say, trying to match their energy
“How are you feeling?,” they start,“I’ve been trying to check on you, but I also didn’t want to corner you or your emotions if I called or texted too much”
You let out a small sigh/laugh.
“I’ve been holding up. Honestly, I’ve been kinda distracted to really stop and think about it,” you say, your voice coming out happier at the thought of your very handsome distraction
“Oh?” they say interested,“details please”
You giggle
“His name is Hawks and he’s actually one of our regulars”
“Which one?”
“He has blonde hair, these really beautiful, amber colored eyes and always wears like REALLY nice suits. Like nicer than all the other men that come into the diner.”
“OHHH,” they say realizing who you’re talking about,“oh he’s fuckin hot”
This causes you to laugh
“Hm really? I haven’t noticed,” you say
“Oh you so totally have,” they say teasing you
You laugh
“I was just joking,” you say smiling,“I have definitely noticed, but he’s also very mysterious and kind. He’s actually the one who helped me that night. If he wasn’t there I-”
“Hey, you don’t have to think about that. All that matters is yourself now and the scumbag can’t lay a hand on you again”
“You don’t know that though. If I go back, how do we know he won’t try anything?”
It was quiet for a second
“You’re right. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that. I wasn’t thinking”
“I-it’s okay. I’m sorry for snapping at you. You were just trying to be positive and-”
“Dude, you literally have every right to snap at me. You went through something traumatic. Something I can’t even begin to understand how it feels, no matter how hard I try. I shouldn’t have said what I said, so thank you for holding me accountable,” they say reassuring you
Again it’s quiet. You try to fight the tears from forming, but you feel your eyes start to fill up.
“…I was so scared. I thought he was gonna-”
“I’m coming over,” they say as soon as they hear you crying,“should be to you in about 5 minutes. see you soon.”
You try and pull yourself together before your best friend arrives, but the tears continue to fall. You haven’t cried until now and it just feels like everything is hitting you all at once. Like a dam that held in too much and finally cracked.
Your best friend makes it to your door in exactly five minutes and rushes inside, surprising you a bit.
Seeing the tears streaming down your face, they immediately pull you into a hug and rub your back.
“Let it out babes”
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Once you get your bearings, your best friend makes you a cup of tea to help calm your nerves.
“Careful, it’s hot,” they say handing you the mug
You give a small smile, as a way to say thank you.
They join you again on the sofa, adjusting the blanket you have over your legs and put their legs under as well.
“Ya know, that’s the first time I’ve cried since the attack happened,” you say
“Sometimes when people go through something traumatic, their emotions can shut down. You probably held it in for so long that you finally just broke,” they start
“Y/n, you went through something so incredibly horrible and I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you’re feeling, but I am always here you and it is okay to cry and be angry and feel hurt. Whenever you need to cry or feel like you want to hit something, just do it,” they end, never breaking eye contact with you
“I’ve spent this whole time..basically distracting myself. Telling myself ‘no, this won’t break me’ and now here I am,” you say, a small laugh/scoff escaping your mouth,“I can’t let him take my power away from me. I refuse.”
“And he won’t. Y/n, you are not broken because of this. You have always been resilient, no matter what you’ve had to face and I know that you can will get past this. It’s gonna take time and a lot of healing, but you will come out on the other side.”
You lay across to the other side of the couch, hugging your best friend’s waist. They hug you back and rub your shoulder.
Tears slowly leave your eyes, until you let sleep take over.
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When you wake up, it’s 4 pm. You basically missed the whole day, but that was the last thing on your mind.
You realize your best friend’s legs were no longer under your head, so you sit up to look around for any sign of them still being in your apartment.
You see a note on your end table.
went out to get food to make dinner ♥️
You hear knocks at your door and decide to check your best friends location. You see they’re still at the grocery store and have been for the past few minutes.
“who could that be” you think to yourself
You look through the peep hole and see Hawks standing there.
“H-Hawks, w-what’re you doing here,” you ask slightly in shock, but happy for the most part
“Well, I called and you didn’t answer, so I got worried. I just wanted to make sure you were okay,” he speaks honestly
“Yeah, I’m okay…physically. It’s been…kind of a rough day,” you say, not making eye contact with him
You feel his arms wrap around you and he starts to rub your back.
He walks you back into the apartment, so that you weren’t left standing in the hallway and closes the door behind the both of you.
When you pull away from the hug, you look up at him and he kisses your forehead.
Art by cherryviii
Thank you so much for reading !! I’m splitting this in two parts because I have held it hostage for long enough 😂
Working on part two neow!!!