I don't post much on here, because who tf do I think I am to blabber my mouth and I really don't got much to say (especially when I am now too old to understand that I need to keep my private life private), but I NEEDED an outlet to vent.
There is a highly-likely chance that I will unexpectantly CRASHOUT. Either it will be from the anxiety finally digging the (metaphorical) knife and getting the best of me or I will be FULL ON REJECTED.
So, I love me some rules. I'm a sucker to some guidelines. But let me say this, there is NO SHOT that I have spent the last week (nonstop everyday) working through my rusty writing skills - first on eight (longer than normal) poems and a 12-page short story (filled with lore, strong character relationships, better than my usual dialogue with realistic dynamics, a twist ending, themes, and a full circle moment) - to ONLY be met with the guideline that submissions were due exactly on midnight. I was just finishing the ending of my short story and compiled everything up, to see 12:04am stare blankly back at me.
Old, younger, me would've said I deserve it. That I should have managed my time better (which holds some merit but please shut it). But today me, I submitted it anyway. I'm not saying the rules should bend everytime or that I have some privilege that others don't deserve. No. What I'm saying is that deadline should be flexible in the face of a submission that is at most a few hours late, if the submissions speak for themselves (I mean they still have to go through the review process to be accepted or not, its not like I'm asking to skip the line).
To have my most dedicated and soul-beearing work simply shelved for a handful of minutes that makes me late, will scar me for the rest of my life. So, yeah, I know I'm correct. And, a crashout may or may not be inevitable depending on whether what outcome has been chosen out of my control.
