(part 1) Hey, hi! I found your Jaemin highschool!au like three days ago and I've been squealing about it like i'm not 23 years old and they're not 17 lmaoo. So I wanted to put in my two cents about Yeojin, after reading the other comments including yours. I can understand that Yeojin is doing her best as a friend, looking out for Y/N and such...but I think she's being a bit rude for getting mad at Y/N and leaving her hanging at a time like that. But I don't think she's a bad person!
maimaichacha said: (part 2) I understand that she’s young and she’s only human, so I can only hope that she can grow from this experience, and realize that just because Y/N doesn’t tell her everything doesn’t mean that Y/N doesn’t trust her. Anyway, I love how the story is going, keep it up! The boys are all hilarious, especially when they change the group chat name and picture lol. Looking forward to reading the rest, thanks for writing daily~~
ahh first of all, thank you for reading my story! second of all, thank you for being nice about this lol .. since i havent been getting so nice of asks about yeojin as of lately(but it’s okay because i delete them anyway and everyone’s support is so nice) and yes, i definitely agree! i, personally, wouldn’t have done what yeojin did.. but instead i probably wouldn’t have done anything better than she did(ex. being petty and slowly drifting away because my dumb ass ruins all my friendships and i don’t do well with confrontation) and yes, i hope she learns from this too!(me, the author, saying this.. lol) third of all, thank you! i try to make them as funny as possible, and the groupchat name and picture is probably my favorite things besides their banter lol
언니 ( @diamondacequeen who really is my wonderful older sister) tagged me in this a few days ago. I should probs do that SHINee thing she tagged me in too…anyway, thanks for tagging me, chicken nugget :P.
Name: Maia
Nickname: Maiar, Duckie (lol thanks grandma), occasionally shithead (by 언니 -_-)
Gender: female
Zodiac sign: libra
Hogwarts house: first it was Slytherin, then it was Hufflepuff, then it was Gryffindor….but honestly, i think i’m a Hufflepuff!
Favorite color: purple! and green.
Time right now: 15:12
Average hours of sleep: i sleep a lot, so maybe like 10?
Lucky number: uuuhh…i don’t really have one lol. maybe 2? i like 2.
Last thing I googled: how to spell gryffindor lmfaoooo (for a diehard Harry Potter fan, I suck…)
Number of blankets I sleep with: 1 comforter…but there’s a fleece throw that I keep on the side of the bed, so I guess 2?
Favorite bands: 방탄소년단, VIXX, SHINee
Favorite solo artists: Jonghyun, Kimbra, Imogen Heap, Rap Monster (my love for Do You and Monster are so deep that he is deemed one of my favorite solo artists lolol), Hoody, Dean, Crush
My dream trip: the one that i am about to embark on in a month, which is to Korea. I want to see EVERYTHING, and experience life in the place that I’ve been wondering about for the last 3 years. After that, I want to go to Spain and be enveloped by Barcelona.
What I’m currently wearing: a long sleeved BB8 shirt and grey shorts.
Age of my blog: mmm…6 years old? I think.
How many people I follow: 175
How many posts I have: 16,129 (for a 6 year old blog, that’s bad lol. I guess I don’t tumbl as much as I could!)
What I post: well these days, mostly BTS…and SHINee. and then there’s a sprinkle of other groups, like EXO, VIXX, Monsta X, etc. and i reblog funny stuff, political stuff, social stuff…a mix of everything.
When my blog hit its peak: uuuuuuhhhh…probably in 2014 and 2015, when i started posting stories and stuff.
hmmm, i’ll tag @artist-statement, @hitchhikingbabeh, @dltltr, @saranghae-rae, and @lvivska-batyarka~~ and anyone else who wants to do it is highly encouraged to do it! <3
Aww, I'm sorry to hear that people have been saying mean things! It's better to just try and share an opinion in a way that's not hurtful to the author ㅠㅜ. Another thing I love about the story is how Chenle is always commenting on her tweets and is always in her business lol. I feel like that's something he would do in real life, because he's an excited pup who just wants to make sure everybody is good UwU. Also I like how Jaemin is so chill because that's the vibe I get irl. K I'm done lol ^.^
ahh yeah even if i dont like something a character does i try not to be mean or say anything hurtful to the author and just share my opinion as politely as i can lol. and yes!! i feel like chenle is that way too tbh and your statement about him being in her business is so ironic(you’ll see) and yeah, i get the vibe that he’s pretty chill too and doesn’t really overreact like the other members usually do? thank you!
Rose had already been in the closet so she knew where she wanted to stand for this whole ordeal, but as she slammed the door behind her she realized that she would have to stand against the door because Baekhyun went in before her. There was space in the closet, but not much. She was able to stand far enough away that they weren’t touching, but even that foot in between them didn’t seem to be enough. At least it seemed like someone had pushed all of the clothes hanging on the bar to one side of the closet so that the wall of the closet was revealed. Rose folded her arms and breathed out through her nose. The small amount of light coming through the door frame allowed her to see Baekhyun’s form, but nothing really definite. Being this close to him required that she look upward to see his face, and she didn’t like feeling so short near him. It made some things flare up in her that she didn’t like to think about.
Why, of all people, did she have to be the one the bottle stopped spinning on? Why couldn’t it have stopped on Chanyeol? Or even fucking Luhan? She seemed like a lot of fun. It definitely would have been funny to see how far she’d go with him. Normally, something like this wouldn’t even be a problem, but Baekhyun had been getting on her nerves as of late and it sort of sucked the fun out of all of this. It didn’t help that he basically challenged her into getting into the closet with him by bringing up a game they hadn’t played in months, like before she got with Ravi. All of this would have been so different if he weren’t so fucking frustrating. Even the fact that they had been standing there for at least a minute without anything happening was frustrating. Like, why was he being so silent? Nothing had ever worked in shutting him up before. Maybe she should have locked him a closet a long time ago.
As if he could read her mind he finally spoke. “Rose.”
“What,” she snapped. Yes, his silence was annoying, but it seemed like his stupid voice was even more annoying.
He sighed. “Could you not be an asshole right now? I wanna…,” he paused to take another deep breath, “I wanna say something to you.”
“Maybe if you weren’t so fucking annoying, I wouldn’t be an asshole,” she muttered.
“Maybe it you weren’t such a fucking asshole you wouldn’t be an asshole,” he countered.
“Ugh, byuntae, you’re such a fucking crybaby.”
“Why is it so hard for you to understand I don’t like that shit? This is what I mean by you being an asshole, Rose.”
“And this is what I mean by you being a crybaby, Baekhyun. I can’t say shit to you without--”
“That’s because you’re always fucking attacking me! I’m trying to talk to you and you immediately started jumping on me.”
Rose snorted and unfolded her arms. “Oh, please, you say that like you don’t do the same shit. You don’t see me whining every time you start pestering me.”
“That’s because I don’t go as hard as you do and I have actual fucking feelings.”
Rose reached out and pushed Baekhyun into the wall of the closet behind him. “What the fuck is that supposed to mean, Byun?”
He leaned further into the wall and sighed again. “It doesn’t matter, this isn’t even-- Ro, we’re running out of time.”
“I don’t fucking care, it’s not like I wanted to kiss you anyway,” she grumbled as she folded her arms again.
“Well, I wanted to kiss you so can we just--”
“What?”
“What?”
“Did you just… say you wanted to kiss me?”
Rose noticed him stiffen against the wall before he cleared his throat and stood up as straight as he could. “Yeah. I, um...”
The change in his posture made her a little uncomfortable, so she dropped her arms to her sides and pressed herself into the door. “Why?”
She heard him take a breath like he was going to say something, but he paused. “Can I tell you after?”
“Yeah, but--”
Baekhyun took one step to close the barely existent distance between them and reached out to put the fingers of one hand in Rose’s hair while his other hand applied pressure to her back and pulled her even closer to him. With their bodies right up against each other, Rose could feel how warm he was and how quickly his heart was beating. Her heart jump started in her chest and she placed her hands over his to pull them away from her body. The way he was touching her was too intimate for a simple kiss in a stupid game and it made her extremely nervous. Rose’s hands on his only seemed to do the opposite of what she intended and he tightened his hold on her body. She felt his lips brush the corner of her mouth in a hesitant kiss, and she closed her eyes right before he properly aligned his lips against hers in a full kiss.
A long time ago she would have died for this, the feeling of Baekhyun kissing her like it was the only thing he ever wanted, and so she kissed him back without giving it a second thought. His lips were so soft and gentle against hers and just when she was starting to wonder if there would be more, he started to pull away from her. Rose wound her arms around his neck and kept him where he was as she deepened their kiss. She tried to remind her frantically beating heart that this was just a game as the hand in her hair trailed down her back to join with the other one around her waist. Since this was just a game the feelings that she was experiencing were old and not even really there. She just liked kissing and of course her skin was warming and her nerves were buzzing only because she had never kissed Baekhyun before and the new feeling just made her feel excited. The kissing in general was the reason she felt lightheaded and a little out of breath, not the fact that she used to daydream about what kissing him might be like. It had nothing to do with the fact that the years old crush she had been hiding was pushing its happy way back to the front of her heart. Nope, not at all. Because her crush on Baekhyun was completely gone. Mostly gone. Sort of.
Baekhyun pulled away with a groan, and Rose tried not to follow his lips for more. He seemed to have changed his mind as he kissed her slowly at least three more times, their lips lingering together longer after each one, before actually stepping back into the wall and loosening his hold on her waist. She wasn’t ready for the complete loss of contact and Rose grabbed onto the front of his shirt as she stumbled forward a little. He placed his hands on her hips to settle her and then they were close enough to kiss again.
Right as Rose was about to lean in all over again he whispered, “I like you so much, Rose.”
Her heart, along with the rest of her body, stopped as she processed what Baekhyun said to her. She rested her head on his shoulder and her voice was barely audible when she said, “Oh fuck, please don’t tell me that.”
She felt like crying. Kissing was fine. Kissing was something that could be dismissed as a stupid game. Kissing was something she could keep to herself and pretend it had no affect on her. Hearing that Baekhyun might be feeling the same way that she had been trying not to feel was not something she could easily brush off as being a part of a game. That was something that warmed her faster than secretly making out in a closet on a dare.
“I don’t expect you to like me back or anything.”
Rose could feel her heartbeat in her ears and all over her body. “But why would you even say something like that to me? I can’t-- we can’t even… Baekhyun, no!”
“I’m sorry, I just--”
“Why did you say anything?” she asked in a harsh whisper as she pulled herself completely away from him. Of all the emotions she was feeling, anger felt like the safest one to act on. “Fuck, I’m with Ravi and I can’t just-- what did you think was going to happen between us?”
“Nothing,” he hissed back, “I just wanted you to know. Do you know what it’s like to hold shit like this in? It fucking hurts when you--”
“I know it fucking hurts! You think I don’t know what it’s like to be-- no,” she snatched her hand away when she felt his hand bump against hers. “Baek, please--”
“Look, Ro, I didn’t tell you to piss you off or make you feel bad. I just needed to tell you because it was getting harder to act like just the thought of you didn’t make me lose my breath, and I just… I had to say something.”
“Well you’re a fucking idiot because what the fuck am I supposed to do now? I can’t believe you thought this was okay. Did you even consider what this would do to me? Fuck.” She ran a shaky hand over her face and muffled a panicked groan.
“I’m sorry, Rose, I really am, but I needed you to know.”
“Well fuck you because now I know and I just-- I can’t-- you’re so fucking stupid!”
Baekhyun reached for her again and laced his fingers through hers when she accepted his touch. “I know.”
“I hate you.”
“Yeah, I know.”
Rose sighed and let go of his hand, and reached for the doorknob instead. “This… didn’t happen. Nothing happened, okay?”
“Rose--”
“No, Baek. I can’t do this. So nothing happened.”
“You really expect me to act like that kiss didn’t happen?”
“Yes. Please,” she said before she opened the door and stepped out of the closet with Baekhyun close behind her.
It was hard to really concentrate after that. She could join in and joke around with everyone for a few minutes before she got distracted again. Even though she tried to believe that nothing happened, the truth kept poking at her and dragging her attention away. Luckily, she only needed to pretend to be okay for fifteen minutes before everyone called it quits. Once she was in her own room and alone with her thoughts she allowed herself time to think about the things that she hoped Baekhyun would pretend didn’t happen. The kiss, the confession, the feelings.
It all just made her confused because she still loved Ravi as much as she did before she went in the closet, those feelings remained decipherable and comforting. Her feelings about Baekhyun, on the other hand, had changed and she couldn’t say which direction they had gone. Part of her was happy, yes, because he liked her. It kinda sucked to admit it, but it was true. How long had she wished that there was a chance he liked her back? Since they first met freshman year? The part of her who had been wondering about his feelings for her was so, so happy. Part of her was angry, because what kind of dumbass confessed to a person in a relationship? The kind of dumbass she tried not to like so intensely, apparently. Part of her was sad because this was going nowhere. Even if she had said she liked him back, which she was trying very hard not to think about, they wouldn’t have been able to go any farther than that. She wasn’t going to break up with Ravi, or do anything that could put their relationship in danger of falling apart. But the idea that there could be something between her and Baekhyun was something she couldn’t help thinking about. Part of her was tired and just wanted to sleep because feelings were stupid and so was her stupid best friend.
She refused to think about kissing him and what that meant because that would only serve to confuse her more. Even if he hadn’t said anything about liking her, the kiss they had was something that caused her heart to beat faster than she ever remembered it beating. Just the thought of the way he held her had her heartbeat quickening.
But it didn’t happen. None of the stuff she was thinking about happened so why was she so conflicted? Why did she feel like she should have said that she liked him back? Why did she feel like she should have kissed him until someone on the other side of the door called that time was up? Why did she feel so guilty when she kissed Ravi goodnight as she dropped him off at home?
Right. Because it did happen. Baekhyun liked Rose. But what was she supposed to do now?
Oh my goodness, I've been sooo busy with school too. It's actually really annoying hahaha. But I'm doing well! I've been writing a bunch, and I'm really hoping to put something up soon...hoping lol
Aww, but yay writing!! I can’t wait to see what you have! >.<
