Nov 11 2017
I went to someones house tonight. She was sweet and kind and beautiful and sincere. She asked me if i was still in love with my ex. I told her no but i actually am. I want to move on. I want to step forward but she is my forward. She is my motivation. She is the better me. I have been struggling with the fact that i am lonely but i no longer care if this is the way i feel. I just care about what is right.
To put this into perspective for all yall, i couldnt even keep it up. We started fucking and i made her cum a couple times but no matter what i couldnt. Flashes of (from now on im going to call my ex "Mo") Mo came into my head. Just her face. Her beautiful lips and unbelievably perfect body. All i wanted was her. All i want is her. I miss her smell and the feeling of her skin.
But, nobody like me deserved someone like that. She was an angel put on earth to be a lesson to men like me. And i love her undieingly forever because of it.
I Miss You Mo