Hi again mama it's little mouse
I've been on and off regressing for like a week now and I'm getting a little worried I'm not gonna get big again especially when I really need to. I didn't think I was that stressed for me to need to be little so much but maybe I was? I dunno
It's honestly really tough pretending to be big when I have to talk to people I don't think I can be little around, it makes me feel tired. And I have to help people when the world is being mean to them, or at least I kinda feel like I have to or else I'm bad. Yesterday I had to pretend to be big because I had to comfort my friend who was having really mean hallucinations and I felt really bad for them that I couldn't help better
But I did get to watch totoro and angelina ballerina and had cookies and warm milk with vanilla in my old snow white mug yesterday too, it made me feel small and nostalgic and cheered me up!! I hope I can still do stuff like that even when I'm not home alone and I hope I can hide it easily
I don't want my mommy finding out about my regression yet, partly cuz I'm worried she'll think it's weird and will yell at me and say I'm making excuses to get out of my adult things I have to do, and partly cuz I'm worried she'll force me to be exactly like I was when I was a kid and make me cuddle her and show her affection when I don't want to
Sorry this is a big big ramble. I hope the world is being nice to you mama, and if it isn't I hope it gets better
sorry that i took so long to get to this. wasnt sure what to say! i know it can be hard pretending to be big but i want you to know youre doing a great job and im really proud of you. i hope you can keep doing those small things that make you feel little too.
i really hope neither of those things happen with your mom. :( maybe if the latter happens it could b a bonding experience in a way, but of course thatd only work if your mom respected your boundaries.
i hope the world is kind to you little one.