Over the past four weeks a lot has changed. My 15 month relationship came to a close, and I have learned a lot about my self and my life. My therapist has become an invaluable resource to me, helping me realize that, in my mind life is black or white, when in reality life is gray. I have started journaling my thoughts every night. And it has helped me stay focused and keep my mind clear. I have come to understand who my true friends are, and how they have helped me; and, surprisingly, how I have helped them (sometimes without even knowing how I was helping them). I have also realized that I broke a cardinal rule; I took everything, especially life too seriously. Slowly, I am learning to enjoy each moment for what it is, and stop worrying about what will happen in 10, 20, or 50 years. Since you cant plan the future, why try to? It has done nothing but stress me out and make me tired. So, as the summer approaches, and as my partner and I reconnect with my partner, as friends rather than partners, and as I start these two new jobs, and day dream about the future; I will have to try not to plan for it. I can prepare for it, but there is no sense in trying to control it. An old Yiddish proverb comes to mind, "Man plans, God laughs." So, in closing, my gentle followers, I love you all, and thank you for supporting me. All I need is some Paxil, and my summer is set!