finding her j.r x reader
part of ends with us series
plot: Jill tries to find you
warning: mention of abuse
Kerstin always knew about you.
The entire national team did. You were the girl that Jill lost, her first love.
so when she caught Jill stalking your social media during a team meeting she had her concerns.
“Oi” Kerstin called out to Jill who was opening her car door to leave. Jill’s head whipped around at her friends voice “Kerstin?”
“Have you talked to y/n recently?”
Jill widened her eyes, she hadn’t told anybody that she had seen you or even just been aware of your existence in Manchester.
“Did you see her?” Jill asked Kerstin and she shook her head “I saw you on her socials and then uh I went on her socials and saw she was in Manchester” she shrugged and looked back at Jill “have you seen her”
“Twice”
Before Kerstin could talk Jill interrupted her “both accidentally, her and her girlfriend came to a game and I ran into her at the dog park on Sunday”
“Girlfriend?” Kerstin questioned and Jill nodded “her names Ellie but I don’t know something seems off about her, y/n looks almost scared when she’s near” Jill explained and Kerstin nodded.
Kerstin remembered how miserable Jill was when she figured out she couldn’t help you be safe anymore, your parents locked you in a room whilst she was miles away.
It killed her.
And it was starting to kill her again now that you were back.
“Should we go check on her?” Kerstin suggested “just to see if she’s okay because I don’t think you’ve properly slept since Sunday” Kerstin pointed at the bags under Jill’s eyes.
Jill scoffed but it was true, everytime she closed her eyes she saw you from years ago, bruised covering your body from your parents abuse.
“The way she looked when Ellie called her on the weekend, her skin paled, eyes popped open and her body just caved in on herself. I just hadn’t seen her like that since-“
“Jill it’s okay”
“What if it’s happening again Kerstin?”
Silence grew.
“Then we help her, you’re not kids anymore, we’re adults we have support systems, it will be easier” Jerstin said, her hands taking place on Jill’s shoulders.
And that’s how Kerstin found her way to your work.
But what you didn’t know was Jill visited your home.
And Ellie was there.
When Ellie opened the door Jill automatically stepped back.
“Man city player Jill Roord, what are you doing at my house?” Ellie scoffed and Jill’s eyebrows furrowed “your house?”
“Well technically my girlfriends but you know how lesbians are” she shrugged and Jill fake laughed
“Uhm I’m looking for y/n have you seen her then?”
Ellie smirked “she’s in the bedroom, having trouble to walk at the moment” she answered and Jill had to stop herself from looking at the girl in pure disgust.
“Oh”
“Yeah so you might have to visit another time… or never” Ellie stepped up to the Dutch girl
“What’s that supposed to mean” Jill said, her protectiveness over you now starting to show as she could see the cracks through your girlfriend.
“She doesn’t want to see you”
“She said that?”
“Yeah”
Jill clenched her fists.
She could see the girl lying through her teeth.
“Can I hear it from her?”
“Like I said she’s occupied” Ellie started, now getting aggressively annoyed at the blonde girls presence.
Jill looked behind her at the driveway.
1 car.
“neuken” she muttered u der her breath.
You weren’t here.
She looked back at Ellie, stepping up at her, her head having to look down at her from her height.
“If you’ve touched her without consent, or harmed her in any way shape or form aggressively I will not hesitate to come back here, en deze keer zal ik niet zo aardig zijn.”
Ellie furrowed her brows at the use of Dutch but stepped back at the threat.
Jill turned around and quickly walked back to her car.
She had to find you.
