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[maneojiyong]

╰ ♡ ✧ ˖  non-sexual forms of intimacy ┊  @maneoxvic — 39 + 5 .

“i don’t know if i belong in the aegis anymore.”

worrying his lip between his teeth, jiyong can’t bring himself to look at his mentor. vic is the last one who’d judge him for saying such things, and the only person he trusts enough to share this with, but that doesn’t help settle his nerves.

“i don’t know if i ever belonged in the aegis at all.” there is a slight tremble in his voice as the words quietly spill from his lips. “not that i have any regrets. you taught me so much in the short time we worked together and i’ll always be grateful for that, but—” the witch pauses, but shakes his head. “sometimes i wonder if i would’ve been better off if i had listened to my grandparents and hadn’t moved to seoul.”

that had never been an option though. jiyong doesn’t even need to think about it, already knows his curiosity was too strong to ignore and that he would’ve ended up in the capital sooner or later. but curiosity killed the cat, they say.

jiyong knows he’s lucky he hasn’t met the same fate. yet.

a soft sigh escapes his mouth. “i know i’ve done a lot of good things over the past few years, most of which i couldn’t have done without them, and i wouldn’t take any of it back if i could. but do i agree with everything the aegis does? do i see myself still working for them five years from now?” the answer to both questions is a resounding no, but he doesn’t say it—doesn’t think he has to either. vic understands. he always does.

“the real question is, where do i go from here?”

he feels the couch cushions dip and two arms wrap around him. jiyong doesn’t hesitate to reciprocate the embrace. “i don’t know what to do, vic,” he mumbles and looks up at the man. “do you think i’d be okay if i left the aegis?”

[kannikaxmaneo]

✉ — @maneoseojin​ asked: 89 - playing 20 questions

“—So, yeah. That’s why I think Satan should have monthly meet and greets.” Kannika sipped at her milkshake as if she’d really done something with that answer. What was the question again? Definitely not anything about hi-touches with the devil, but somewhere along in her bullshit rant, she’d managed to get off track. Oh well. Now Seojin knew about her wildest shower thoughts.

“That’s... thought-provoking as always, Nika.” She couldn’t exactly tell if the angel was being sarcastic or not, but she took the compliment as it was either way. “Your turn to ask a question, then. Hit me with your best.”

The witch smiled, almost too cheerfully to be sincere. “What are your intentions with my best friend?”

Seojin blinked, and Kannika simply went back to sipping at her milkshake. “Did... did you suggest we play this game just so that you could ask me that?”

“Maybe. Now answer the question, old man.”

[seokxmaneo]

✉ — @maneoyoona​ asked: 15 - linking arms

“I don’t wanna go.”

Typical, really. When was the last time Beomseok had willingly gone to any sort of event? She couldn’t remember— though, it was probably best not to bring that up. Knowing Yoona, she’d spout off the exact date and time that the medic had been last seen going somewhere on her own accord. 

“But you’re already all dressed up, don’t you wanna show off?” Yoona, bless her heart, had really stepped her game up from ‘because I said so’ and was at least trying other ways to convince her. Seok may not be buying it, but she got brownie points for it anyway. The medic was dressed in the most formal jumpsuit she owned, forever refusing to wear a dress for the sake of the Yi reputation or whatever shit her family went on about. Even just buckling the straps of her heels pained her mentally, knowing she’d much rather show up in the sneakers and loose flannel she’d had on earlier that day. She might just be kicked out of the gang for that. Honestly, it would just be better if she didn’t show. But Yoona wasn’t having that.

“No? Byeol’s seen my outfit, you’ve seen my outfit... that’s enough, I think.” The parrot squawked from where he was resting in the corner, acknowledging having heard his name. “See? He wants me to stay home, sorry Yoona! Hope you have a good time,” Seok plastered on a mock polite smile, stepping backwards as if the other might just give it up and let her be. That was wishful thinking.

“Seok, please?” Oh. Were those puppy eyes? “I don’t have a date and I can’t arrive alone. C’mon, be my date...” She’d really stepped her game up. How was Beomseok supposed to say no to puppy eyes and the ‘but I’m lonely’ card?

The medic groaned. “Fine. But if a single person asks me to put in a good word for them with uncle Hyun, I’m getting the fuck out of there immediately, I swear to God.”

The other simply smiled, linking their arms together as she began to half lead, half drag her friend out of the house. “I can live with that.”

[maneojiyong]

╰ ♡ ✧ ˖  non-sexual forms of intimacy ┊  @maneoxyunho — 38 .

home is a concept jiyong never quite managed to grasp.

namhae is a bandaid on a wound that requires stitches, a temporary fix for a heart he can barely hold together with his bare hands. he finds moments of happiness in the smell of freshly picked herbs and the clatter of wood and steel when he cooks up a new recipe and a gentle summer breeze playing with his hair. but when he stares up at the stars painted on his ceiling, he can’t help but wish for something more.

eighteen summers come and go, and he finds himself standing in the middle of an empty apartment in seocho, with eyes full of wonder and a head filled with dreams. his cat rubs against him, curling her tail around his leg, and a gentle smile forms on his lips as he crouches down to scratch her between the ears. “this our home now,” he says to her, to which she responds with a noise somewhere between a meow and purr.

but the word home still leaves a hollow feeling in his chest. he tries to fill the void with the company of strangers, who taint his skin with marks and bruises that only fuel his self-hatred when he looks at them in the mirror. they never stay. he tells himself he doesn't want them to, but when he muffles his sobs into his pillow after he's left to take care of himself, like so many times before, he realizes how badly he craves to be held and loved by someone who wants all of him and not just his body. but who could ever love someone like him?

guarded, selfish, and yet hopelessly vulnerable: such is seo jiyong. not the lone wolf he claims to be, but just a simple human being with a heart made of glass he so desperately tries to protect. a monster in the making, as he calls himself.

and then han yunho comes along, wearing a smile so bright it could chase away any dark cloud. he has never met anyone made of sunshine and stardust, but it is the only way he knows how to describe him. his heart surrenders without putting up much of a fight, and he catches himself daring to dream of a happy ending to a story of endless heartbreak and broken promises. maybe he is allowed to be happy, after all.

as the sound of his boyfriend’s soft breaths slowly lulls him to sleep, he comes to the realization that some homes have a heartbeat and that his is locked in the chest of a man who turned out to be a guiding light in some of his darkest times. a lazy smile quirks at the corners of his mouth and his eyes flutter closed once more. for the first time in twenty-one years, he is content with the life he’s living, and the tempest sweeping about inside of him finally settles down.

he lifts his head, eyelids heavy with sleep and a smile still lingering on his lips. it is a rare moment in which he’s awake while yunho is asleep. normally it’s the other way around, and he wants to cherish the moment for as long as possible. words he’s never spoken before threaten to spill from his mouth, but instead he nuzzles back into the pixie’s chest and whispers a small, “thank you,” before sleep overtakes him too.

home was a concept jiyong never quite managed to grasp. 

until he met yunho.

[changminmaneo]

insects, dolls

Insects: Name something your muse finds gross or annoying: Changmin absolutely cannot stand other people making someone uncomfortable, to the point he will get in fights over it.

Dolls: Has your muse ever collected something?: Stuffed animals and plushies, he has so many they completely take up a side of his bed and has a hammock for them on his ceiling that is absolutely full.

[changminmaneo]

1, 11, 21, 31, 41, 51, 61, 71, 81, 91, 100

1. When is their birthday?: October 13th, 1997

11. How would your character court the person of their dreams?: Changmin is a bit of a hopeless romantic, and although he doesn't believe someone could love a person as broken as him, he would try his hardest, bringing them flowers whenever he had the chance or knew that the last bouquet was about to wither and die, bring them gifts he knows they'd very much enjoy after he learned more about them, take them on very cheesy but romantic dates until he finally can steal their heart.

21. How do they display affection?: He's very physical with his affection, unsure how else to display it. Changmin is very touch starved after years of absolutely no human contact, so he wants to be close to everyone he loves and make sure they know he cares.

31. Are they superstitious about anything?: Not really, he knows bad things happen without anything else showing that they will.

41. Are they comfortable with technology?: Changmin is pretty comfortable with it, although it took about a year for him to learn how to use it properly.

51. If they knew they would die tomorrow, what would they do today?: Spend time with his family, hands down. He loves them more than the world, and absolutely would want to spend every last second with them.

61. Does your character prefer adventure or safety and security?: With Changmin, it's a bit of a mixed bag. He wants to do fun things that he never got to do before, things that could be considered dangerous, but also appreciates the safety of his home and family.

71. How kind is your character?: Refusing to be anything like his parents, Changmin tries his hardest to be the kindest person he can to those who deserve it. He'll give the last dollar he has to someone who needs it, buy whatever another person may need, save whoever he can in whatever way they need it.

81. Is your character religious?: No, he believes that if there was a higher power, there is no way they'd let the things that happened to him to occur.

91. What type of music does your character like?: For the most part, he gravitates towards angry rock music and sad songs that help him get out his feelings. He'll sing along to the songs with every emotion it makes him feel.

100. Does your character dream? If so, what do they dream about?: Good dreams are extremely rare for him, although the few times he has them, they're about his family and spending time with them. However for the most part, he has nightmares about his past that haunt him in the morning. Due to that, he tries to stay awake as long as he can, despite it making him exhausted nearly all the time, though he wont show it.

[changminmaneo]

5, 15, 25, 35, 45, 55, 65, 75, 85, 95

5. Are they in good health?: For the most part, Changmin is pretty healthy. He's a bit underweight, mostly due to the fact that he forgets to eat for days at a time, and getting in fights often has him hurt in some way. Other than that, he's doing really well.

15. Are they most likely to get in a fights with their fists or their tongue?: His fists, absolutely. Changmin may throw a few insults, but none too clever. He enjoys getting in fights, and he'll take whatever pain he's given.

25. What do they consider beautiful in others personality-wise?: Changmin finds it incredible when someone is strong, yet has the ability to be vulnerable around others still. As someone with a lot of pain himself, he knows how much it is needed to be vulnerable sometimes, and strong when it is required.

35. What is the most important rule your character lives by?: Due to his past, Changmin fully believes in not hurting the innocent. He refuses to get in fights with anyone who doesn't deserve it and will make absolutely sure whoever he gets in a fight with is someone who is causing trouble or discomfort for another.

45. Does your character have any chronic medical conditions?: Changmin suffers from night terrors and sleep paralysis from his mental state and his past, but other than that, no.

55. Is your character an introvert or extrovert?: Neither really, he's more of an omnivert. Changmin does need people to interact with, but after a few days of being social, he needs time to recharge. For the most part however, he leans more towards being an extrovert.

5. Is your character better at leading or following? Which do they prefer?: Changmin has never considered himself a leader, and he much prefers to follow. He doesn't have nearly enough confidence to lead anybody, not even himself.

75. Is your character ticklish?: Very ticklish. If someone even brushes their fingers against his side, he'll end up jolting away and giggling.

85. Describe your character in three words: Compassionate, emotional, hypercritical (only of himself).

95. Name three things most would not expect your character to be able to do: Despite his inability to cook, Changmin is an excellent baker; he can make any sweet thing you could throw at him. He is also incredibly good at pole dancing, a skill he took classes to learn, and while not being too strong, he is able to do many advanced moves. Another thing is that he can speak fluent Russian, taught by his grandmother until he was 8 years old.

[changminmaneo]

hansol: “ you deserve every good thing in the world . ”

Changmin had a very trying night, being a sex worker could be exhausting, his clients often asked for things that normally would require aftercare or some self care, however that wasn’t a part of the job description. He often had to just move onto the next client, not able to get much rest in between. It was nights like those that once he returned home, Changmin retreated to Hansol’s room to climb into his bed, waking his often sleeping brother doing so. 

“It was another bad night...” He’d mumble, worming his way into Hansol’s arms as his sore body relaxed. His brother was usually half awake when Changmin did so, but he didn’t mind, all he wanted was to be held and close to someone. However, Hansol always gave him that bright smile of his, and made sure to cuddle closer. Changmin never had to explain much, his brother had made it clear to him over the years that he could come in whenever he needed for comfort. 

“Hey, Minnie, guess what.” Hansol said sleepily, his fingers gently running through Changmin’s hair. “You deserve every good thing in the world. You know that right?” Changmin didn’t respond, pretending to be asleep already. He honestly didn’t believe it, but they were still comforting words to hear. Hansol was one of the few rays of sunlight in his life, and Changmin absolutely refused to dim that bright smile, despite how much he wanted to say what was on his mind when Hansol said such things to him.