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CONFRONTATION pt.2 | mikey sano
this is part seventeen of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART SEVENTEEN LENGTH: 1.7k words
⇝ PART SEVENTEEN WARNINGS: EXPLICIT SEXUAL CONTENT
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. it's your turn to tease mikey.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: Part 2 of Confrontation~ I wasn't sure where to break up the chapter so I'm sorry it's not so long... I also keep rewriting the next chapter and how I want everything to be explained and didn't want to make y'all wait too long. I hope you enjoy!!
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You bring your arms up to wrap around his neck, pulling him to you in a crashing kiss. Your taste on his lips. He positions himself over you, pressing his body against yours. Warm… Hot… He’s so hot. He devours your mouth, restraint pushed to the limit. You roll, switching positions as you straddle him.
His hair splays out on your sheets. You press one hand on his chest, the other lacing into the hair at the back of his head as you stoop to capture his lips again. Feverishly you drag the hand on his chest to pull up his shirt. He assists, ripping it over his head.
You perch yourself on him, staring down at his chiseled chest, torso, rising and falling heavily. There’s a deep purple welt on his ribs. With soft finger tips you outline the mark, instinctively he cringes away.
“What is this?” “I… The fight… It looks worse than it is.” You lean down pressing a soft kiss to the discolored skin. “I have so many questions.” You mumble against his ribs. He brings a hand to rustle your hair, “I have so many answers.” His voice is heavy. “Later,” you say, pressing a kiss where purple meets skin.
You move your way down, hands tracing the angles of his toned muscles as he flexes, sitting up. “Hmm?” He grips your chin, bringing your lips to meet his. His hand is rough as it works its way under your shirt. His skin against yours feels searing hot. You grind against him, pushing him back into the mattress.
He looks up at you, eyes heavy, mouth hanging open with a ragged smile. The sight fans the flames reignited in you. Intoxicating. You want to be drunk off of this feeling, off of him. You pepper kisses down his pecs, the long line carving the muscles of his abdomen. To the indentation of the flesh of his hip that disappears under his pants. Your back arches as you work your way down that scandalous V line.
You fumble with his belt and say with a low breath, “take it off.” Your voice carries a tender authority, hammer dipped in honey. You could tell him the sun was green and he’d not even look to confirm. That is the part that scared him. The visions of you he’d fantasized about at a distance aligning before his eyes.
His belt is off in a moment, landing with a jingle on the floor. You work torturously slow, the sound of the zipper of his pants slices through the ambience of the apartment. He sits up suddenly, startling you. He pants, a look of desperation on his face. “y/n, y/n, y/n… Are you sure? Are you sure that this is what you want?”
There’s an unfamiliar edge in his voice. He’s at his limit, restraint held back by one fraying string. You feel it, rippling off of him. Raw desire. You lean in to kiss him again with feverish intensity. Between kisses, “Yes, yes, I’ve wanted this for longer than I care to admit.”
A rough hand grips your jaw, holding your face to his as he maneuvers to kick off his pants. He breaks the kiss only to tug your shirt over your head, joining the pile on the floor.
He pulls you close, sucking at your neck. His teeth on the tender skin. You whine, pressing the bare skin of his chest to yours. What was tender before is harsh. He bites at the fleshy skin of your chest.
The desire intensified the night he saw you at the nightclub. That dress, your skin shimmering in the low light. He wanted to bite you, taste you. As if reading his mind you whisper in his ear, “Mikey, I want to taste you.”
He looks up as you kneel over him. He reclines slowly, letting you take the lead. You hold his eyes as you move down his body, tracing a nail over the outline of him through his boxer briefs. It twitches, making him clench his eyes shut.
You play with the elastic of his waistband as you softly palm him through the fabric. There’s a prominent wet spot at the tip. You return his favor, sucking at it through the fabric. His hand is in your hair, gripping hard. “Ahaha-” He releases you just as quickly, hand shooting back to grip your headboard. You look at him, face flushed, pupils eating away at his embery eyes.
You relent, sliding the elastic down, letting him bounce free of its confines. His breath hitches. He’s engorged, tip an angry red, veiny and better endowed that your imagination had given him credit. You smear around the liquid that leaks from the tip.
Stroking down with little pressure. He groans. You close a hand around him, positioning your lips at the top. You lock with his eyes, letting your tongue dart out to lick the new bead that had formed there. “Fuck-” he laces his hands in his hair, gripping his own to stop himself from fucking your throat.
You take the tip into your mouth, circling your tongue around it before popping off to let saliva drip down. His whole body is taut. Every muscle of his core flexed. You stroke down the wetness, giving him a lazy smile before you take him back in your mouth. Working lower and lower, using your hand to close the gap that doesn’t fit. You feel him in the back of your mouth before you start your ministrations. Up and down, wet, sloppy, noisy. “Holy shit-” You relax your throat, pushing yourself to take him deeper with each stroke. His hips buck, making you gag. “F-fuck- sorry- I-” His body moving on its own, meeting your movements, the hot wetness of your mouth.
He’s getting louder, groaning, panting, knuckles turning white. “So good, y/n.” You trace the flat of your tongue up the vein on the underside of his dick. He rolls his head back. “Y/N” his voice is heavy. He flexes and relaxes his hands.
“Mikey~ sweetheart,” Your voice is sweet, teasing, “so eager” you repeat his words back to him. With that, his hand firmly grips your cheeks. He has a dark look in his eyes. “God you’re so hot” You mutter. He presses his other hand into his eyes. Breathing deeply, he releases your face.
“What do you want?” You say before you take all of him to your throat. “FUCK! Those. Aren’t. The rules… This time.” He manages between your strokes. You pop off to respond, “Then I’m looking forward to next time.”
You suck in your cheeks, tightening the grip in your hand as well. He lets out a deep groan. You had barely begun before he grunts, “fuck- shit- I’m gonna come.” Instead of words you proceed to take him deeper, intensifying your grip, pace.
“Coming-” He pants before you thrusts deep into your throat, tears prickling in the corners of your eyes. His hands are frantic, fighting to grab your hair, ride out his orgasm in your throat. One finds itself digging into the sheets next to you, the other gripping your headboard.
You gag from the thrust, doing your best to swallow as much of him as possible. You taste him in your mouth. Swallowing again. He slumps onto your bed, tugging you up to rest in his arms. He presses a kiss to the top of your head.
“Thank you.” You mumble into his chest. His chest bounces with light laughter, “Thank you.” He covers your head and forehead in a smattering of kisses. You trace swirls on his chest. He closes a hand over yours, “That tickles.” He pulls your hand up, kissing your fingertips.
His eyes are far away, breath steadying; yours matching his. A featherlight finger tip outlines the bow of his lips. They smile under your touch, “That too.” “I didn’t take you for the ticklish type.” You concede with a grin.
“Thank you for trusting me.” His voice is low. “This feels like a dream… Are you real?” You pinch his cheek. He tears his eyes from the ceiling to stare at you. His eyes are still miles away. The smile on your lips starts to fade. It’s creeping back in, the gravity of the situation.
He holds you closer, “I’m sorry, Y/N. For the lounge, for being a dickhead, for last night, everything…” His embrace is steadying as he pauses. Your thoughts begin to swirl, feeling the chill of the air on your exposed skin. “I forgive you, Mikey.” You brush his hair to the side, “Your apology is more than accepted.”
“I suppose I didn’t really fulfill your last request, do you have any forgiveness to spare?” “I think I can do some digging.” You tease. He smiles softly, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “What’s on your mind?”
“You… You scare me.” Your brow furrows. “Not in a bad way.” He kisses the tightened space between your eyes. “I’ll take that as a glowing review of my technique.” It feels forced to say. He lightens, chuckling, “That too.”
His eyes drift back to the ceiling. “I… I don’t want to lose you…” You study his face, his features. “I don’t want you to get hurt or to be the one who hurts you.” “I understand what you mean,” You reply. He wraps you tighter in his arms, burying his face in the top of your head.
From this position he says, “I’m so sorry, Y/N.” His somber tone makes your heart rate spike. “Mikey… I don’t know what’s going on, but I don’t want to lose you either. So… Please don’t…” Your face feels prickly, an unpleasant electricity thrumming in your veins.
“I’m sorry because I can't leave anymore…” With his words, the tension in your body dissipates. “And I’m so sorry for all of the trouble that will cause you.” “I can handle it, I’m the badder scary, right?” “I don’t want you to have to…”
“You’re really driving a hard bargain.” You poke at the tender spot on his side earning you a hiss. “Guess you’re stuck with me, Mikey.” “If it’s what you want then I would be the happiest man alive.” “Try it again with feeling.” You tease, fruitlessly wrestling to free yourself from his grasp.
“I would be the happiest man alive, but, I think you should know what you’re signing up for.” He finally releases you enough so that you can wiggle and see his face. His eyes are haunting. You bring a hand to cup his face. “Tell me.”
CONFRONTATION pt.1 | mikey sano
this is part sixteen of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART SIXTEEN LENGTH: 4.1k words
⇝ PART SIXTEEN WARNINGS: EXPLICIT SEXUAL CONTENT
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. mikey comes to apologize for the events of the previous evening. emotions come to a head as you test your power over him.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: Thank you for your patience! This is part 1 of the CONFRONTATION. I wanted to put something out while I continue to work on part 2 (and also so that this chapter isn't too long). I hope you enjooooyyyy~
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Rotting on the sofa all day is wildly preferable to remembering even a second of the previous evening. To say you’re mortified wouldn’t even come close. Those feelings aren’t ready to be processed. Your phone has been turned off entirely, the wall of missed calls and messages from the past few days getting the best of you.
There’s a particular message from Naoto Tachibana that you’re not brave enough to open. Youtube playing through your earbuds on your computer, the TV at a volume loud enough to drown out your thoughts, and a game are your only companions today; anything distracting is welcome. You still aren’t able to shake the memories that pop into your mind. Everytime you think about it, you feel yourself cringe with an unrivaled intensity. But something else stirs in you.
The memory of his scent. The firm muscles of his back. The way they flexed as he maneuvered the monster of a bike with expert precision, the power of that bike’s ferocious engine. You feel the space between your legs awaken. You’re bewildered. Something must be fundamentally wrong with your brain chemistry. You distract yourself by showering, washing off the memory of last night. Taking some extra time to relieve the sensation building up. When you finish, you slip into some light loungewear and move back to your nest on the couch.
Picking your game back up, you’re ready to dive in when the doorbell rings. Freezing is your first response before weighing your options. You could just pretend you’re not home… But the TV could definitely be heard from the hallway... There’s a knock this time. You rise slowly, taking light tip-toes to the door. Another knock and then a voice.
“Hey, you’re not answering your phone… Can we talk…?” You recognize the voice without even looking out of your peephole. It’s Mikey. You rest your head against the coolness of your door, feeling your heart drop. The sensation is pleasant against the prickling heat spreading across your face. You aren’t ready to deal with this. He sighs, just loud enough to be heard from the hallway. There’s a rustle of plastic, “I brought your favorite.” You peek out the peephole, he’s holding up a plastic convenience store bag heavy with drinks and snacks. There’s a melancholy tugging in your chest.
He had come all this way, he even brought a peace offering. The image that had accompanied you in the shower still has your mind a little fuzzy but a pit forms in your stomach. You take a deep breath. Trying to ease the unpleasant feeling. The feeling that creeps in before a confrontation; a break up. Let’s just get this over with. You click the lock to open, cracking the door. He looks surprised.
Immediately losing your tenacity, backing away from the door. “Is it ok?” He asks. You nod, giving him access. Moving slowly to take a seat at your counter, crossing your arms over your chest, hiding yourself as you realize your lounge outfit is thinner than you would normally wear around guests. He steps into your entryway, looking around. Slipping off his shoes, he walks towards you slowly as if to gauge your response. Your heartbeat increases. You hate this, the anticipation of whatever conversation was to come.
There’s a crinkle of plastic as he places the bag on your counter next to you before backing off to lean on the opposite counter. His hand gently grip the edge, creating a cushion between the surface and his back. There’s a soreness in his knuckles where they rub against his pants causing him to adjust his grip and lean forward slightly. This movement, the curve and flex of his arms is caught in your periphery.
“So…” He starts. You’re unable to meet his eyes, to even look at him. The silence makes your nerves spike. Let’s just rip the bandaid off. You’d never have to see him again. The thought made your chest hurt. Is that what you really want? You fold, breaking the silence with, “I honestly- can we please just forget last night ever happened.” He pauses, you can feel his eyes on you, which does nothing to aid your frazzled brain.
“No.” He says simply. You blink, the chair creaks as you straighten, turning slightly in his direction. “No?” “No. I told you last night I would make it right. I meant it.” You huff, a curt laugh, feeling your throat tighten. A hard swallow, a steadying breath as you roll your eyes to stare at the ceiling.
“Mikey… I’m mortified. I-I, last night feels like a nightmare, the last week - hell - even longer, I feel like I’m losing my mind - this place - this fucking city I-” A deep breath through your nose, feeling your lungs fight to expand against the tension in your chest, head slumping forward. There’s a searing heat, the frustration, the shame, thoughts swirling. The quick, rhythmic thumping as you bounce your leg unconsciously.
Your teeth dig into your lower lip, the dull pain anchoring you. “I hate this.” You mutter, just above a whisper. It hangs in the air. “I hate…” feeling like I’m a pawn, like an idiot who can’t see what’s right in front of them, useless, useless, useless. You feel suffocated, thoughts and feelings fighting for dominance. “Me?” His voice is gentle, but it slices through you nonetheless. You don’t need to think before your head is shaking ‘no.’
“Well that’s a relief.” His voice is light, it is light. You want to wrap yourself in it, to let it pull you out of the depth, the darkness you feel yourself drowning in. “I hate… feeling useless - like - a burden… Not understanding what’s happening…” “...Well, I take it you never read my messages.” You shake your head ‘no’ again, feeling like a petulant child. He leans his head back, saying mostly to himself, “What am I gonna do with you?”
You had forgotten, or willingly ignored that he had been messaging you in the time since the lounge party. “I’m sorry…” you turn fully to face your TV, your stomach twisting uneasily. He sighs again. “You have nothing to apologize for.”
You don’t move, shoving down all of the intrusive thoughts of what you do have to apologize for. He laughs dryly. “How about this? Anything. I’ll do anything you say. Anything you ask to make this right. You just say the word. But I can’t forget… And… I’d prefer not to leave.” He seems to be choosing his words carefully.
“Mikey…” You start, exasperated. “Anything.” He says lower. You don’t have to look, you feel his energy shift. “I’m serious-” “So am I.” He counters. It feels safe here, somehow, having him near you. One of your hand trails to the bag, next to you, crinkling the plastic between your fingers - it’s relaxing, distracting. The optimistic side of you is begging to humor him. “Anything?” You ask tentatively. “Anything.” He says in that finite tone of his.
You feel around the bag, plastic damp from condensation, pulling out your favorite convenience store drink. How did he know? You stifle a smile. “...Open this.” You say. He’s across the counter from you in an instant, removing the drink from your hand, opening it, and returning it in one fluid movement. You take a sip while you think of your next request, the pit in your stomach seems to lessen.
Why not test your power. You look around your room. “Um… Lock the door please.” He moves and clicks the door closed. “And straighten up my shoes while you’re over there.” He does. “This is weird, are you like my butler now? Or a dog?” You joke, feeling more like yourself with him.
“Is there one you’d prefer?” He jokes back, returning to his spot in the kitchen as the atmosphere lightens. “Hmmm. I don’t know. This could be a good loophole for my apartment’s no-pets policy. How about… Sit.” He plops down next to your seat on the kitchen floor with no hesitation. “Good boy.” You joke, patting his head. His hair is soft under your palm.
It’s creeping up on you. That veil of warm fuzziness that coats your brain, loosening the grip of sadness and anxiety in your chest. It makes it hard to focus. It quiets the voices. The embarrassment. You finally meet his eyes that are looking up to you from the floor. Fuck.
His cheeks are dusted with a rosy blush and… His pupils are completely blown out… You feel a twang somewhere deep inside you that ripples through your entire body. The veil fully falling over your brain. Your eyes devour his face like this. It’s better than you could have imagined.
Your eyes trail down his body. His sharp jawline, the way his shirt drapes and reveals his angular collar bone, the rise and fall of his chest as his breathing gets heavier. The taper of his waist, you look lower and see a prominent bulge in his pants. Your heart skips and begins again at a thunderous pace. He must see the subject of your gaze as he adjusts to cover himself slightly. He starts, voice low, “It’s… I…”
In a soft voice you ask again, “Anything?” Testing the water. A dark look flashes across his face, “Anything.” He replies, just above a whisper, the word taking on a new meaning. You pause. There would be no going back from this moment. Whatever fears or nerves were trying to get to the logical side of your brain were being held down by the warm, gooey, honey now filling your mind. You feel that tingly warmth spreading across your skin.
“Close your eyes.” You request gently. His eyes close slowly, finally releasing you from his captive gaze. You take a moment to admire the man before you; no one else, no judgment. He’s beautiful in a way that makes your heart clench. You wish you could freeze this moment, unmoving in a space where only the two of you exist.
For him, it’s almost unbearable. The darkness of his eyelids, knowing you’re right in front of him. He hears the gentle scrape of your chair on the floor, your light footsteps. You hesitate, hand hovering over the defined structure of his broad shoulders, the warmth of his body seeping through his clothes. He jumps slightly, feeling your fingertips on him. With a gentle hand you caress from his left shoulder between his shoulder blades to his right as you walk a small circle around him, goosebumps rising on his skin in the absence of your touch. He sits there, dutifully, his lashes fluttering against his flushed cheeks.
He hears the soft thud of your knees on the ground as you kneel in front of him. He can smell you, fresh and clean from the shower. He breathes in deeply, memorizing your scent. “What happened to your hands?” You lift his right lightly, looking at the rough skin of his knuckles. “...Fight.” You lightly rub your thumb over the reddened skin, seeing the color lighten and return with each touch.
“Last night?” “Yeah… After…” “You dropped me off?” “Yes.” You massage his hand gently. “Should I ask?” You say with a soft laugh. “You can. If you want. Anything.” His breath is steady, deep. You place his hand back at his side. “As long as the other guy looks worse than you, I guess it doesn’t matter.” Your mind is busy conjuring the image. “Was there ever any doubt?” A smile ghosts his face.
It’s honestly hard to picture. He’s always composed, unbothered. What did he look like, how would he act then? You imagine the fire in his eyes, his fists connecting with a blurry face. That side of him. Violence, it shouldn’t be attractive. He can feel you leaning closer, the puff of your breath on his lips. You linger there, mere millimeters from his face. It shouldn’t… “...Can I kiss you?” You barely got the question out before he crushes your lips together.
Pouncing into action the second you gave him permission. He cups your face in his rough hands, kissing you deeply and passionately. Slowly, though he’s clearly making an effort to restrain himself to do so. His lips are warm and soft. You taste him, after imagining for so long. You want more, need more. He pulls you closer to him, feeling as though you could melt into his heat. You run your hands through his hair, tangling one there as the other trails down the side of his cheek, ending at his neck. You trace light patterns there in the sensitive expanse of milky skin.
He groans into the kiss and you feel a small prodding on your lower stomach. You’re dizzy, finally breaking the kiss for air. Your mouths are glossy as the two of you breathe heavily, oxygen rushes back to your brain. He busies himself, planting small kisses all over your face.
You can’t stop the little laugh that escapes at the affectionate gesture, a flood of happiness rushing through you. He smiles against your forehead as he plants another kiss there. Pausing as he breathes you in, his arms tighten around you in a possessive embrace.
You hum, thumb still rubbing soft strokes up the column of his neck. He breathes deeply again, placing a firm kiss on your temple. Moving his lips down to your ear. He has to be able to feel how hard your heart is beating. He gives a gentle nip to your earlobe that makes you jump, you feel the corner of his mouth tick up where it’s pressed to your hot cheek. He speaks softly in your ear, “Any further requests?” The ache between your legs is begging you to be relieved yet again.
You feel like you’re in another dream, like you’d snap awake at any moment. You run your hand through his hair again, feeling it slip like silk through your fingers just to remind yourself that he’s real. “I…” You can hear your heartbeat in your eardrums.
One of the hands cupping your face drifts down to your neck, mirroring what you do to him. Your breath hitches. He notices. “I need you to ask. I want to hear it…” He says, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. The sensation makes you shiver.
You’ve had sex before, different people, different flavors. They were fun in the moment, but the one through line is that it never really felt like it was about you. These feelings, this situation are uncharted waters for you.
“... I… What do you want?” You whisper, nuzzling into him. You feel the anxiety breaking through the warm goo of your mind. He pulls back, eyes seeing right through you. His face softens, “Those weren’t the rules.” He says gently, punctuating the statement with a light kiss to your forehead.
“Last night I took something from you without asking. I want to ask, but… It’s yours. You should tell me. CAN tell me. Say what you want, Y/N. It’s yours. It’s done.” You feel a fresh rush of blood to your face. “I want you.” You confess again. He presses his lips to your throat earning him a soft gasp. “Tell me.” He says into the sensitive skin there. “Tell me, baby. I want to make you feel good.” He gives a slow, scalding hot swipe of his tongue up the column of your neck for good measure. You feel a shiver down your spine.
“I… Um… It’s been awhile…” You confess abashedly. “Since I… Since someone… I usually… By myself…” You pant. One of his hands trails from your neck, tracing a line between your breasts. His chest separates from yours ever so slightly to give him access. You feel a twinge as the sensitive buds rise to firm tips beneath the light fabric in the absence of the warmth of his body. You feel another throb against your stomach as he sees the peaks form through your top. “I usually… touch… myself. Will you… touch me?” You ask, feverishly.
“Good girl. Asking so nicely.” You feel a flutter in between your legs at the praise. You shift on your knees, the tile beginning to dig into your skin, leaving small impressions. He sees the movement, pulling back looking around for a moment before scooping you up.
He glides with you to your small bedroom. Maneuvering around the door in a fluid motion. He seats you gently on the edge of the bed with a bounce, you lean back on your elbows. He pulls back a bit. Devouring the view of you, nipples beaded under the thin fabric covering them. The heavy rise and fall of your chest. The unmistakable wet spot soaking through the fabric of the lounge shorts.
“Fuck.” His voice is low. You feel a wave of embarrassment under his intense gaze, clocking the wet spot in your shorts too. You try to cover yourself. “Let me see, pretty girl. Don’t hide from me.” He moves to hold your hands, falling to his knees in front of you. “Oh fuck. I- I’m so sorry… Your bike seat.” The thought penetrates through your filter.
You feel that familiar wave of shame wrack your body yet again. “Don’t apologize.” He says in a serious tone. “You don’t have to, you don’t know. You don't know what that did to me… I’m sorry, sorry for my carelessness, for putting you in that position...” He leans into you from his spot on the floor shaking the thoughts from his head, pressing you to recline on your elbows once more. He’s over you, kissing you deeply. “Say it, babe. Say it again.” He says into the kiss, a needy edge to his voice.
“Touch me, please.” He kisses you hard, his body relaxing as he ghosts a hand up your leg, pushing up the edge of your shorts before increasing the pressure to knead small circles into the meaty, sensitive skin at the top of your thigh. You whimper. His touch is so close to the spot that really craves it.
His thumb pushes further up, not even reaching the edge of your panties before he is swiping the slick wetness that is leaking from you. “Look at my pretty girl. Already so wet for me.” You feel yourself clench which earns a dark laugh from the blonde. “So eager.” “Please.” You struggle to control desperation in your voice.
He presses you into the mattress, pulling himself up to hover over you before locking his lips back to that cruel spot on your neck, his other hand wrapping around your throat in a firm but comfortable grip, adding pressure to the kisses he plants. Small noises escape your lips.
The bulge in his pants twitches against your leg. He groans into your throat, the vibration euphoric. He relents, kissing a trail down to your collarbone, giving a quick nip to the skin there. You inhale sharply, the movement of your body held back firmly to the mattress by the hand caging your neck. His hair tickles as he moves his head lower. He nuzzles into your breast. “Oh baby, look at you.” He adjusts his grip on your neck, letting you look down. His eyes meet yours from his lower position. He gets a devilish look seeing you watch.
His tongue darts out from between his lips, licking you through your shirt. A wet spot forms over the bud. “Oh fuck.” You say. Holding his gaze as he continues. He gives a gentle nip to the soft flesh before sucking through the fabric. The added layer of sensation had the knot deep inside of you twisting. Your head falls back on the soft mattress as he continues sucking and nipping through your shirt. Your chest rises to meet him. All the while massaging the slick edge of your panties.
He gives a firm lick before pulling back, the wet spot is cold so quickly under the cool air of your AC. He trails kisses down your ribs, lips meeting skin where your shirt has ridden up. He kisses down to the waistband of your shorts. In a swift motion, he grabs behind your knees and loops your legs over his shoulders. An electric shock courses through your body. Your hands dart to his silky blonde hair, holding him back from the wet spot between your legs. He inhales deeply, suggestively.
“What are you doing?” You say, your voice coming out higher than expected. “Following your instructions.” He teases, that smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Anything you don’t like or don’t want, say the word and I’ll stop.” He says. Despite his serious tone, his dilated eyes and rosy cheeks betray him. Your grip loosen on his hair. A sharp smile stretches across his face, pleased at your signal for him to continue. He nuzzles into the warm wet of you. He breathes deeply, finally able to smell you and not the ghost of you on his bike seat.
His nose presses into you, prodding that bundle of nerves. Your hips buck unconsciously at his touch. He hums into you with approval. His mouth locks around you, tasting you through your clothes. A low, guttural noise escapes you. He sucks the wetness there, the sensation wholly foreign. He has to fight to control himself, the taste of you on his tongue makes him throb against his thigh. It’s so much better than he imagined, your sweet juices, leaking from you as you twitch for him. But he wanted this to last. Unlike you, he isn’t nice enough to not bully you a little bit. He pulls back, licking you from his lips hungrily.
He works painfully slowly, a finger coming to rub a firm line over your slit through the sopping fabric. Your whole body shivers, finally being touched after being teased for so long. He comes back up to latch back onto the wet spot of your shirt, warm again in his mouth. He continues rubbing firm strokes over you, that searing spot of pleasure as your hips move to meet his fingers.
Finally, he peels back the fabric of your shorts, discarding them, rubbing you through your underwear. Fuck you’re dripping wet, the bundle of nerves is swollen, puffy and begging for more attention. He hums into the sensitive bud in his mouth. Circling your clit with a long, steady finger. “Oh fuck, babe, that feels so good. Mikey, please.” He chuckles, your nipple between his teeth.
“You're so wet for me~” He says, dipping a finger into you through the thin fabric of your panties before moving them to the side. You groan. His thumb returns to the bundle of nerves, building up a firm, steady rhythm as two fingers begin to massage and stretch you. You feel warmth pooling in your lower stomach, a tightening sensation. FUCK so soon?! You clench your eyes shut, willing the sensation back, but it grows stronger, more intense with each stroke of his fingers. “What do you want, sweetheart?” Your breathing shifts, head empty save for one thought, “I-I’m gonna come.” He smiles. “Yes, darling, come for me.” His rhythm steady, the pressure building up a warm fuzzy feeling in the pit of your stomach. He rolls his tongue over your nipple, adding to the tension.
It’s too much sensation for you after already coming earlier in the shower. That you've lasted this long is no small feat. “F-fuck c-coming.” Is all you can manage as the wave crashes over you. Your whole body tenses, your walls clenching around his fingers.
You see stars. Warmth spreads all the way to your fingertips as you sink pleasantly into your mattress, body suddenly heavy. He removes his hand, releasing your neck and presses it into the mattress next to your head. The other hand is withdrawn, bringing his fingers up to lick your juices off of them as he hovers over you. You groan, hearing the wet noise, imagination filling in the blank as your eyes stay closed.
Deep breaths fill you up, every inch of your body tingling. You open your eyes and see Mikey. His eyes, lids heavy, irises devoured by his pupils, hungry. You reach up and stroke his cheek. He leans into your palm before turning his head to plant a sloppy kiss on your palm. “Mikey?” “Mmm?” he hums into your hand.
“... Again.” His eyes have a dark sparkle as you feel him smile in your palm. He tilts his head, free hand gripping your wrist as you feel the wetness on his fingers. He plants a kiss there, feeling your pulse on his lips. “As you wish.”
Part 17
RIDE IT | mikey sano
this is part fifteen of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART FIFTEEN LENGTH: 2.1k words
⇝ PART FIFTEEN WARNINGS: OVERSTIMULATION & FORCED (UNINTENTIONAL) ORGASM
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. his mind wandered back to you, your chance encounter tonight. the stress of wanting to get you to safety and, in his rush and carelessness, the harm he’d caused…
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: Welcome to my mind palace. Thank you for joining me.
Honestly, this scene is what inspired the fic.
Rare MikeyPOV Spoiler: he's a freak
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The bike roars. It feels different than the black bike you were growing accustomed to. This was more raw, powerful. As it rockets off, you slide into the muscled back of the man in front of you. You don’t have your trusted helmet to hide the crimson blooming on your cheeks.
This bike felt different in other ways too. Your wardrobe choice did very little to protect you leaving you feeling as though you were bare and pressed into the seat. With each rev of the engine, a shock wracks your body. The vibrations of the bike thrum through you, deep into your core. Fuck. It feels really good. You can’t hear yourself think, body buffeted by the air over and over. Pressure enveloping your body.
You try to call out to Mikey, to ask him to slow down, to stop- fuck- revving in that way that has your thighs gripping the sides of the bike in a vice. He can’t hear you over the whipping wind and engine. You cling to his back, trying to readjust yourself to get some relief from the onslaught to the sensitive spot between your legs.
The opposite is accomplished. There is a warmth pooling in your core. This can’t be happening. Your heart is hammering in your chest. Face pressed into his bare back as lights zip past, blurring into streams of fluorescent and red. You squeeze your eyes shut, using every ounce of willpower to regain control. Each time you breathe in, it’s just him. That deep, sweet scent of leather and toffee. Fuck, it was pushing you closer to the edge.
The gears switching between speeds adding variation to the rhythm pounding into you. You feel the heat spreading from your core, pulsing down your legs, up your chest, all the way to your fingertips. It’s making you dizzy. Your breathing deepens. It’s a fucked up situation, you know it, but it feels too good. With another deep breath you feel yourself unraveling, squeezing the man in front of you.
You see stars. Swimming in that warm, fuzzy feeling, blanketed in the smell of him. You feel yourself start to come down, but the vibration does not cease. The sensation is building again. Abusing that swollen, sensitive spot between your thighs. It's nearly impossible to hold back the noises that are creeping up.
There's a throb of wetness that spreads on the seat beneath you. Fuck you were literally dripping. The sensation is too much. The vibrations are too intense. Then it’s gone. A yelp escapes your parted lips as the engine dies, leaving you feeling fuzzy and heavy. Your face is hot, eyes watering as you’re wracked with shame, embarrassment. You can make out the blurry shape of the front of your apartment building.
He easily wrestles himself from your grip, standing to help you off the back of the bike. When you resist, he turns his full attention to you, exasperated. “We have to go, I have to get back.” “I-I…” “You have to get off.” “I can’t.” You say, just above a whisper. Humiliation makes your voice waver. “What? You- Oh… Oh.” He really sees you this time. You can’t meet his eyes. You sniffle, tears finally overflow and patter on the spot he just occupied. “Oh fuck I. I didn’t mean to. I didn’t fuck I’m so sorry.” He’s the closest to flustered you’ve ever seen him. He’s pacing in a small rotation on the sidewalk, head in his hands.
“Y/N I’m so sorry. I-” He lets out a frustrated noise, knowing he can’t stall any longer. He scoops you up from the back of his bike. You try to protest, but he’s too strong and too fast he cradles you as he moves quickly to get you inside. You resign yourself to sniffling into your hands, trying to hide your face. He moves quickly, showering you with reassurance and apologies as he moves effortlessly up the stairs to your floor. You do your best to bite back little cries as you say, “I’m- so- sorry. I-I d-didn’t…” “Shh, shh. It’s ok, it’s ok. I know. I know. You’re fine, you're perfect fuck this isn’t how I- Everything is fine.”
He places you on unsteady legs at your front door. With shaky hands you remove his jacket and hand it back to him, adjusting your skirt nervously. You can’t raise your eyes from the floor. All you can feel is your pulse in your face… And other places. He takes the jacket, still muttering assurances you can’t hear over the sound of your heartbeat in your ears.
He cups your face pulling your gaze up to those perfect whiskey eyes of his. “Everything is going to be fine. I’ll make it fine. Please trust me.” You wipe at your tears that won’t cease, nodding into his hands if only to have his electrifying touch off of you sooner. His phone has been buzzing incessantly in his pocket. He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath. “Please.” He says.
You look at him and catch the tint to his cheeks and the way his pupils are dilating. You pause there, the world around you holding its breath. “FUCK” He growls. He presses his forehead to yours, making you jump, before finally removing his phone from his pocket, backing away. “We’re going to talk.” He says in the same commanding tone as before. With that he finally answers his phone, sprinting down the hallway back to the stairs. You stand there a while longer sniffling. The sound of his bike roaring to life and peeling out echoes through the street.
It's cold now that he’s gone. Your head is still spinning from what has just transpired. Finally you unlock your door and enter your apartment. You want to curl up and die as you bolt the door behind you. Flinging yourself on your bed, letting the emotions take over, new tears flowing more freely. You breathe deeply in an effort to calm down.
You felt so bad. But so good. You whine as the memory returns, with it, a warm feeling in your core. Your body pleads with you to relieve the feeling building up between your legs. Waves of desire and waves of shame that follow.
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Mikey POV
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The rattling of the garage door closing is the only sound with him in the large, cool space. Everything hurts. But he’s had worse. With a skill acquired through practice, the pain is ignored and pushed down until it is a minor annoyance. He rolls the large bike to its spot in the back. The crown piece in a long line of vehicles.
He hadn’t bothered turning the lights on. The room is dimly illuminated by the overhead light of the garage door and a desk lamp that had been left on. He'll have to yell at Baji, Kazutora, and Chifuyu about that later. He sighs, locking the kickstand firmly and resting the bike in its rightful space; leaning his body into the cool cement wall. It feels nice.
He rests there rubbing absently at an especially sore spot on his side. That fucker Hanma had gotten a good punch on him. Just one before Mikey crushed him. He laughed humorlessly, his anger had gotten the better of him in that moment, unable to restrain himself. It’d been a long time since he’d fought so freely. With what he’d done to the tall man, Y/N wouldn’t have to worry about seeing him for at least a couple weeks.
His mind wandered back to you, your chance encounter tonight. The stress of wanting to get you to safety and, in his rush and carelessness, the harm he’d caused. His eyes lock on the bike seat. Trying to draw out the wet spot you had left there. Fuck. Why hadn’t he noticed? A pang of guilt flashed through him. You had been gripping his back so tightly. He thought you were scared; his speed, your lack of safety-wear. Had you asked him to stop?
He shook his head. Tomorrow. He was going to make this right tomorrow he promised himself. Tomorrow. The dark, sick part of him was tugging at the corner of his consciousness. If he had until tomorrow, then tonight was still free game. He convinced himself with little resistance.
He stood there, still staring at the spot where you had sat. Something twitches low and deep in him. The feelings rising back to the surface. He pictures you there, sitting on the back of his bike. The quivering of your legs, the way you couldn’t look at him, the way the inky blackness of your blown out pupils would’ve given you away if you had, your face painted in a lovely shade of red. It had taken everything for him to hold back the moment it all clicked into place.
He wanted you. He WANTS you. The memory had the material of his pants growing uncomfortable. “Fuck” he growls. He pushes off of the cement wall and falls to his knees beside his bike. He shoves his face into the seat breathing in deeply. Fuck. It was barely there but he could smell you. He inhales again, hoping to get more of you. The dark desire taking over, shutting off logic.
Fuck, he feels dizzy. The crotch of his pants was becoming unbearable. With a low sound of annoyance, he tears the zipper open and frees himself from the confines beneath. He lets out a sigh of relief as the discomfort dissipates, replaced with a pleasant, warm one. He feels your arms around him, holding tight to his back. “Lower, lower, lower” he pants out to his imagination.
His head swims with flashes of you, gripping the seat. He imagines you meeting his gaze, heavy lids, lustful eyes, and fuzzy brain. He imagines your voice asking him. Saying the words he desperately wants to hear. He spits in his hand, starting firm steady strokes.
He pictures you pulling him into your apartment, your bodies tangling as you trip over each other into that little bedroom of yours. The faces you’d make, the sounds. What he wants to do with you. He could imagine the ways you’d ask him the first time, in that tentative way of yours, for what you really want. He’d be more than happy to oblige. He groans thrusting deeply into his hand. He wants to know what you want, he needs it. He feels himself getting close. “Fuck. Please.” He groans, leaning back, resting his head on the wall.
He pictures you pressed into the seat of that bike before him. Grinding into the leather. Finding that sweet spot, clinging to his back, breathing him in, working yourself up and over the edge, clenching and leaking all over his bike seat. Not letting him in on the fun. How unfair. The doctored memory is enough to have him shooting hot streaks of white onto the bandages around his core. The edges of his vision go dark.
Closing his eyes, he can imagine your scent. Slowly, he’s coming down from the high. Dragged back by the hooks of reality sinking in. No matter how he reimagined the situation, you had sat there crying. You hadn’t wanted that. Had he been able to ease your embarrassment? Would an apology be enough? You would probably never want to see him again. What would he do then? That’s his curse. He’s never never been able to let go.
He had been going crazy the last few days. His messages to you have gone unanswered. That you had been ignoring him made the events of this evening even worse. “God damn it.” He whispers, his mind running away in awful directions. He rips the bandages from his torso, chucking the soiled items in the nearby trash can. He zips his pants, wiping his hand on a nearby grease rag. He trails his clean hand over the backseat of his bike. “Fuck.” He growls again, darkly. Its meaning different.
He’d have to play this perfectly. He couldn’t lose you. Anything. He’s willing to do anything to make things right between the two of you. With that, he tosses the grease rag to join his bandages in the trash. He kills the desk lamp and enters his home. Closing the door on the memory of what he just did.
Part 16
MEET ME IN THE PIT | mikey sano
this is part fourteen of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART FOURTEEN LENGTH: 2.1k words
⇝ PART FOURTEEN WARNINGS: STALKER
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. at the dive bar, your phone is blowing up. the voice on the other end sends a shiver down your spine.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: Re: Wardrobe choice - will you see the vision?
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You aren’t waiting long before you enter the grungy club. There are posters from past and upcoming shows plastering the walls. The lighting is dim and really only being cast from neon signs put up behind the bar or on the walls. There are some low stage lights towards the front of the venue. It’s all very rock and roll.
Groups of people mill about, some smoking, others mingling with the musicians near the stage. You’d arrived around some type of set change. Miki skips over to the bar and greets the bartender. They seem to be friends. You join her, taking in the vibe. “What’re you having?” He asks. “Oh, I’ll take a diet coke straight up.” You joke. The buzz of all the sake you drank at the restaurant was dissipating and you’d like to keep it that way. “The usual.” Miki tells him, turning to you.
The next group gets on stage, setting up their equipment. You watch as Miki makes heart eyes at the guitarist. “So how do you know the band?” You ask, quirking an eyebrow. “Oh, you know, just from going to shows around here.” She can’t hide her blush. “Hmmm. So then is that your friend?” You tease, nodding in the guitarist's direction. “Yeah, something like that," she says, an edge of yearning peeking through. She turns back to the bartender to receive her drink, a tall Cuba Libre.
As she does, you see it’s the guitarists turn to look longingly at her. You hide your smile in your drink as the bartender hands it to you. You hear the band start their sound check. As they do, you feel your phone buzzing. You pull it out of your bag and see it’s an unknown number. You decline the call before putting it back. “Let’s get closer to the stage.” Miki says excitedly. The two of you work your way up, close to the front as the band starts introductions. They’re brief and they dive headfirst into their first song. It’s amazing. It’s been a long time since you’ve been to a live show. There’s something special about feeling the music in the air, being thrown off from real instruments.
It’s electric. The guitarist shreds up and down the neck of his guitar. Fingers flying across the strings. You get it now. Miki and him are locked in some kind of staring battle as the song continues. It’s intense, the tension building between the two of them. You can’t help but feel like you’re intruding on their intimate moment. The crowd presses into you as people move closer to the stage. Over the music, you feel your phone buzzing against your side. You wiggle around, finally able to pull it from your bag. Holy shit. 20 missed calls from the same unknown number.
You feel a pit in your stomach. What if it’s an emergency? You lean over to shout to Miki that you’ve gotta make a call. You doubt she hears you over the music but she nods slightly. You elbow your way out of the crowd looking for a quieter area to take the call. There's a huge mass of people trying to get in through the entrance. You get the sense that if you exit, you have a fat chance of getting back in so you opt to duck into the restroom. The music is still pretty loud but manageable. You lock the stall and unlock your phone. Hitting the number to call it back. It rings once before it connects.
The other end is noisy too. You listen closer. It’s the same song that's playing here with a slight delay. You get a sick feeling in your stomach. The person on the other end is still not speaking. You finally break, “Hello? Who is this?” You hear a low, deep chuckle on the other end of the line. Your blood runs cold. “You sound so scared, treat. Now where did you run off to?” You feel yourself start to shake, quickly hanging up the call.
What the fuck was Hanma doing here. How in the hell does he have your number? Your phone starts buzzing again making you jump. It’s the same number. You quickly decline and silence your phone. This can’t be happening. You feel your skin crawl and prickle with anxiety. You pull up your app and immediately request a taxi to the nearest street corner. You feel bad leaving her here, but you’re sure Miki will understand.
Fuck. 10 minutes for a taxi?! You’re in the middle of the city, how could it possibly take so long? You request it anyways. You take a few calming breaths. There’s a knock on the stall door that makes you jump, “Hurry up in there!” A woman’s voice calls in. “Sorry! One second!” You were losing the fight with your nerves. With shaking hands you unlock the door and step out. There’s a tall woman waiting. She has heavy, dramatic makeup, several face piercings and dyed hair. She would’ve already been tall but her platform boots put her at least a head taller than you. As you stare up at her, a look flashes across her face.
“Hey… Are you okay?” You must be shaking like a leaf. Words fail you and all you can do is shake your head ‘no’. She leans down and places a tentative hand on your shoulder. You manage, “I need to get out of here… Now.” She nods looking around the bathroom, a couple other women are keying into your conversation. “I-I have a taxi on the way, I just need to get out of here… It’s… It’s so crowded and-” You feel panic taking over your voicebox. Another woman approaches you from her place at the sink where she had been touching up her lipstick. “Hey, I work here. The entrance is basically barricaded with all the fucking groupies right now but there’s an emergency exit to the right of the bar. It goes into the alley on the side of the building, I can take you out there.”
You nod, eyes welling with grateful tears. She takes your hand. You whisper a thank you to the tall woman as you’re led out of the bathroom. You’re on high alert, scanning the crowd for the towering man with black and blonde hair. The woman helping you bulldozes her way through the crowd efficiently. This had to be some kind of fire hazard.
In no time she's pulled you into the alley. “Will you be okay here by yourself, I can wait with you.” She offers. “No, no. This is fine. This is perfect. Thank you so much.” You say, your shaking subsiding. She looks like she wants to insist but instead nods, forcing a smile on her face. “Be safe.” With that, she steps back into the bar, closing the door. You take a step, scanning the dark space, the only exit back to the street is on your left.
It’s as dirty as you would expect for the area, cockroaches scattering away from you. You cringe, opening your phone to check your taxi. Still 10 minutes away. What the fuck?! You try refreshing the app to no avail. You are about to order a new taxi when you hear raised voices coming from the end of the alley as two figures step into the privacy of the space. You jump back into the safety of the doorway, hoping the figures can’t see you there.
“What in the HELL are you doing here Hanma?! You know what tonight is!” “I was just taking a detour, I saw a toy that was begging to be played with.” “What is that supposed to mean?” The taller figure laughs. It’s sing-songy and immediately makes the shaking in your body start again with new vigor. The shorter figure continues, “Oh, and I heard about your little display at the lounge the other night. Care to explain that?” “Just tying up some loose ends.” Hanma replies. “Well she’s a civilian…” He pauses. “What the fuck does that look mean? So help me GOD.” He huffs angrily. “I know you couldn’t care less, but you’re already costing me an arm and a leg in kickbacks to the metro cops. If violent crimes get involved again it’s your ass, you hear.”
“Always thinking 5 steps ahead, Kisaki. You should learn to let loose.” “Oh what, like you? My contact in the department says Tachibana is getting smart. If you have to deal with him it’ll be a pain in EVERYONE’S ass.” “Ah that little fuck. I’d love to crush him.” “Well, it’ll be Toman you deal with. Unless you forgot that little wedding.” “Fucking annoying.” “I can’t with you. How about you use some of this extra energy you seem to have suddenly found for tonight.” “Booooo, let me play a little longer, it was just getting good.”
“Quit playing with your food and finish it already.” “How lewd, Kisaki~” “I mean it. Whatever it is that you’re doing with that girl, I want it done with. I need you focused. Fuck! You’ve already wasted this much time… We have to go.” The shorter man, Kisaki, says in a severe tone. “Yes, yes, you’ve got it boss.” Hanma says dully, seemingly tired of the tongue-lashing.
With that, the two exit the privacy of the alley. You stay there, in the shadow of the door frame for what feels like hours. Making sure they were truly gone. When you muster the courage you pull out your phone, praying. 15 minutes away. You could’ve smashed the wretched device, fear induced rage flashing through you.
You need to get to the main road. Surely you can just flag down a taxi there. Taking a few deep breaths you feel around in your bag. Your hand closes around something heavy and metallic. You clutch it in your hand, grateful that it had caught your eye on the way out the door earlier, as you make your way to the mouth of the alley, sticking close to the wall. You peek out around the corner. What you see surprises you. The entrance of the venue is still mobbed, but the street that had been swarming with people not 30 minutes ago is barren. It feels eerie. You take a few cautious steps into the street. When nothing jumps out to grab you, you quicken your pace making your way to the main road.
If what you had seen before was eerie then this was terrifying. The big, main street was completely empty. Not a car or soul in sight. You peered up and down the street, hoping to conjure a taxi with willpower alone. You felt the air shift before you could actually hear them. In the distance, a rumbling. You feel the ground shake beneath you, the air hum. A sea of bikes race past you through the deserted street. It all happens so fast. You take a few tentative steps back, whipping around and walking back down the side street, shoes slamming the concrete. You hear something in the roar of engines shift. One voice in a screaming choir straying. You hear it, you feel it rush up behind you and you break into a dead sprint, hand gripping the warm metal of your weapon.
But you can’t outrun it as a massive, vintage bike rockets past you and screeches to a halt, cutting off your path. It is your first time to see this bike, but not its rider. Under the streetlight, an imposing figure with a halo of golden hair stands in your way. He’s in a unique outfit you’ve never seen him sport before; a full black, baggy suit-like outfit with a heavily embroidered jacket. A deathly serious look on his angelic face. “What. are. you. doing. here.” There's a tone you can’t place under his words. But his words command you.
“I-I was here with my friend- Hanma was-” “Get on.” He says firmly. “What? No, I’m sorry. This is… I have a taxi coming…” “It’s not coming. You need to get on now.” You feel like your body could move under his instruction if you didn't will it not to, his words leave no room for argument.
You look down, remembering your wardrobe situation. You gesture vaguely to your miniskirt, knife in hand and head whirling. He’s off of his bike in a flash, His jacket ripped off and fastened around your waist. It’s not ideal. You look away. He wasn’t wearing anything under his jacket, Only his midsection is partially covered with some kind of wrap. It cinched his waist even further in an utterly scandalous way.
He’s back on his bike just as quickly. “Now.” He commands, pointing to the spot behind him. You don’t fight it any more. You put the heavy metallic weapon back in your bag, carefully climbing over to straddle the seat behind him. You do your best to adjust your skirt and his jacket to cover you. “What, no hel-met tonight?” You joke trying to ease some of the awkwardness.” “Hold on.” Is all he says in response.
Part 15
THE ANNIVERSARY | mikey sano
this is part thirteen of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART THIRTEEN LENGTH: 3.1k words
⇝ PART THIRTEEN WARNINGS: STALKER
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. after everything you need a distraction. while celebrating an anniversary dinner for your job some mysteries are revealed.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: We're (me) getting liberal with the OC side characters AND I swear the wardrobe choice is relevant so humor me for both please and thank you (you will thank me for at least one)🙏
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You had kept your phone on ‘do not disturb’ for the last few days. Messages from Emma and Yuuki sit unopened. Even Senju and Yuzuha have tried messaging you. There was a pit in your stomach. You had so eagerly started to build your foundation and social circle with this group that you hadn’t set up anything to fall back on. You couldn’t shake the feeling that the foundation crumbled on Saturday night.
It’s a sick feeling, like you’ve peeked behind the curtain. The image you built up in your mind becomes disenchanted and reality sets in. You don’t have the energy to fight off the voice that goads, “I told you it was too good to be true.” But there is solace in your solitude. You never had trouble spending time by yourself before and you’re resigning yourself to being alone for now. Maybe it’s a coping mechanism, but it’s always easier to be the person who leaves.
Life is routine. Work is routine. Wake up, work, go to bed. Wake up, work, go to bed. That’s how your week is going. You’re checked out today like you have been the rest of the week, absently wiping the counter behind the cafe register when you feel a tap on your shoulder. You jump. “S-sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you. D-did you hear me?” It’s Shinji. You still haven’t really made up after your awkward conversation a few weeks back. Shifts with him have been tense.
“Sorry, I didn’t catch that.” You say. “Oh, uh, Miki wants to do a shop dinner tonight… You’re the only one who didn’t respond to the chat so she asked me to ask you today…” He shifts uncomfortable from foot to foot. Right, the now not-so-new employee was trying to arrange a work party. “Oh… Sorry, I haven’t really been on my phone recently.” It’s not a total lie, but you had seen her messages. The thought of going out sounded exhausting. Knowing Shinji was going to be there is another factor that made you want to decline.
“W-well, the boss was really hoping we could all go out and celebrate… It’s, um, it’s some kind of anniversary for the shop.” Damn. The image of the kind, older woman flashes in your mind. She’s been so good to you. And Shinji, curse him, had perfectly keyed into your weak spot. It’s as if he could read you like one of the books he was always nose deep in. “With it being a holiday tomorrow and the shop being closed… I-I’m sure it would mean a lot to her…” “FINE. I’ll be there, I’ll go.” You surrender.
He gives you a thumbs up before retreating to the bookstore. You sigh leaning on the counter. You finally open your phone, hiding it behind the register on the off chance someone comes in. You click on your messages and scroll until you see the ‘Cafe+Book’ group chat. Ignoring those messages from Emma, Senju, Yuzuha, Yuuki… Even Mikey’s. You see Miki has messaged you separately. You click the message.
“Hey~ I hope you can come tonight! If you don’t have any plans after, I was thinking of popping over to a little live-show venue nearby! My friend is playing a show there tonight.”
You hesitate.
“Hey! Sorry for the late reply! I’ll be at dinner, can I think about the live-show for a little bit?”
To be honest you still haven’t fully recovered from your last night out. You haven’t touched a drop of liquor since and you didn’t have the inclination to change that tonight. She responds quickly, liking your message.
“Well if you decide you want to go, this is the vibe”
She sends an imageboard of a grungy rocker girlfriend look. Fuck it’s cute. Now that you think about it, you had just gotten that mini skirt - one that you had ordered ages ago but the delivery details had gotten sketchy. The ring of the deliveryman at your door had nearly sent you into a cardiac episode… Were you actually considering this? You pocket your phone and return to work. You would have enough time to run home and change after work… FOCUS! The day creeps by. If you went it could be a fun distraction. But last time you went to a club you can’t remember it. You should get out and make some new friends here in the city. But see how well that turned out last time… The voices are LOUD today!
Finally, it’s time to go. You confirm with Shinji and make your way home to change. A certain miniskirt is still on your mind. You lay out the outfit on the bed, weighing your options for the hundredth time. You know you’d feel really cute and confident if you wore this. You’ve also been waiting for the right occasion to debut this outfit and one just fell into your lap. Fuck it. You’ve been on autopilot since the lounge. This is the first time you’ve felt anything in days. Plus you didn’t work tomorrow.
You change into the outfit. It’s perfect. Black tights hug your thighs as the fleshy part of your legs disappear beneath the mini skirt. You add some makeup to your eyes to match the look. You slip on some shoes and you’re ready to take on the night. You do a spin, the pretty smile on your face reflected to you from your floor length mirror. You haven’t seen that smile in a minute.
You type out a message, hitting send,
“Fuck it we ball. Let’s go to the show”
You skip out the door, a little behind schedule. Making the train just in time. The dinner is at a restaurant close to the center of the city. A real hole-in-in-the-wall type of place that’s been there for ages; one the city built around. From what you pieced together, the owner of the shop is friends with your boss. You slide the door open, entering the traditional restaurant. You’re met with a loud chorus of greeting from the staff. It’s lively here, more of an izakaya than a restaurant. There are a few other parties here and there, laughing and drinking heartily. It’s a really nice vibe. A server ducks out of the kitchen to greet you. He’s young, cute. He does his best not to stare at you in your outfit.
“Welcome! I assume you’re here for Asami?” You recognize your boss’s name. “What gave me away?” You joke. “You cafe folk all have a particular look about you. Asami doesn’t hire just anyone.” He jokes back, matching your tone. From the way he talks about her and his lack of honorifics, it sounds like they’re close. You’re curious but hold back your questions as he leads you to the back of the restaurant; a private room.
He slides open a door and you’re greeted by the smiling faces of your coworkers. Your boss sits at the head of the table. A soft look in her eyes. Shinji looks like he’s getting tipsy already despite his glass of beer not being even halfway empty. Miki waves enthusiastically, dressed in a similar style to you. She has this bright and energetic personality, like a human battery. She has a smattering of freckles and foxy green eyes. She’s also dyed her hair orange for the time being. One of the perks of working at the bookstore and not at a company.
The two other employees were twin girls, Nana and Sana. They’re daughters of one of the boss’s friends, which is how you imagine they’re able to work despite still being in High School. They have soft hazel eyes and dark brown hair that they usually styled up in braids or an updo. Because they are high school students, they were only in the shop on weekends which meant you didn’t really get to interact with them unless you went in on your day off. They had a bad habit of slacking off on their phones and when you came in on Mondays you usually had a small pile of their work to complete before starting your own. But they were reliably there, on time, every weekend.
You take a seat in the booth next to Miki who elbows Shinji to scoot over more. “It’s good to see you, Y/N. I’m happy you could come to dinner.” Your boss says in her motherly way. “I’m happy to be here! I hope you all haven’t been waiting for long. And sorry for not getting back about it sooner.” You do feel guilty. The twins are buried in their phones. Your boss waves off your apology with an ‘it’s not necessary’ gesture. She continues, “Now that we’re all here, shall we order some food?” It is a resounding yes.
Your boss calls out for the staff. When the door slides open, a mountain of a man steps in. He’s older, dark hair streaked with white. You don’t know if he actually has a scary-looking face or if it’s just the dramatic eye scar that makes him appear so. He also has a body that looks as though it’s made of iron. Large, muscular arms built over years of training, the skin taught and sinewy. Adding to his scary image is the heavy ink that is visible on his fingers, hands, and forearms before it disappears under the rolled up sleeves of his chef’s jacket. The tattoos are done in a traditional Japanese style.
“Asami and company, what can I do for you tonight?” His voice is baritone and deep, but has a warmth to it that doesn’t entirely match his appearance. “Are there any dietary restrictions?” She asks the group. After all have been accounted for she tells the man, “We’ll do six tasting menus with whatever accommodations you can make.” The man smiles at her. “Coming right up.” He exits, sliding the door closed as he does. You make eyes at Miki. She matches them. Your boss sees the two of you exchanging nonverbal communication.
She laughs, “That's Yama. He may look intimidating but he has a good heart. He’s an old and dear friend of mine.” You blush, embarrassed to have been caught by your boss. “I like his tattoos.” You say, meaning it. One of the twins scoffs, was it Sana or Nana? “You say that now, but when he’s parading around shirtless after one shot of sake it’s another story.” “Totally cringe.” The other adds on. Your big sis radar goes off, why has this man been around these high schoolers shirtless?! As if seeing your mind whirring, your boss supplies, “He’s also our Nana and Sana’s father.” Your radar shuts off, crisis averted.
As if on cue, the large man slides the door open, a massive, expensive looking bottle of sake in hand. He places it down on the table with a hefty thud. Seating himself at the other end of the table, across from your boss. Another server comes in with seven sake glasses, depositing them on the table before stepping out, closing the door behind him with a bow. Yama removes two of the glasses and his daughters whine, “Come on dad, just one glass.” One says. “It’s a special occasion.” Says the other. He huffs, looking annoyed, but slides the two glasses to them. “Just a sip.” He says, faking a serious tone. Oh, he is a big softy.
The girls jitter excitedly. After pouring a small amount of sake in everyone’s glass he shares a long look with your boss. The feeling in the room shifting. Everyone grows quiet. He says in a low voice, “I’ve been saving this bottle for this night. I… I can’t believe it’s been ten years.” Your boss nods solemnly. You’re utterly lost, the mood getting heavy and serious so quickly. Your boss speaks, “Thank you all for coming. A special thank you to Miki for suggesting that we do this. As you may know, today is a very special day for the shop. It’s an important day for me too.” All eyes are on her, even the twins have put their phones down.
“As you may know we renovated and remodeled the shop nine years ago. Before that, the shop was just a cafe. It was a passion project for me and my late husband. We wanted a space for the troubled youth in the neighborhood to feel safe. My husband and I…” A soft smile ghosts across her face. “Well let’s just say, we weren’t unfamiliar with that environment from our own past. Yama knows that too well.” He chuckles at the end of the table. “It’s the shop where we started our family. Our son grew up in that cafe. He was finding his way in the world. After my husband passed he was, well, in his rebellious years. Running with some little gangs. I gave him a space for him and his friends to hang out together…”
She pauses. You’re hanging on her every word. “Well. On this night, ten years ago. I lost… Everything. There was a fight. It was just between high school boys. But it grew out of proportion so fast. That night, tonight, a rival gang came to the cafe while my son and his friends were there. They destroyed everything. They took everything. They took my everything…”
Her face hardened, eyes refusing tears. Her fingers come to dance across the pendant around her neck, holding it delicately. Time may have dulled the pain in her but your heart breaks open for the woman before you, forced to be strong. Yama is not as strong and is fighting fruitlessly to stop the heavy stream of tears pouring from his eyes. You feel one of his daughters kick him under the table. “He passed away there in the cafe. I’ll never never forgive myself for not being there for my son in his final moments.” Your mind flashes back to the boy in the alley, begging for his mom as he knew he was losing the battle. You can’t stop them any more as tears spring from your eyes.
“At least I know he wasn’t alone. That gives me some peace. His friends stayed with him up until the very end.” She says. Her mind seems a million miles away. “I feel him there. Still. Sometimes. With me in the cafe. The reason I keep the cafe and bookstore open is in his and my husband’s memory. And I want to thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for helping me keep this dream, this place, and their memories alive. So tonight. The night that marks the ten year anniversary. Let’s celebrate life and the family that we’ve made here. No matter where life takes you, you’ll always have a home at our shop.”
There isn’t a dry eye in the room at this point. You don’t care anymore that you weren’t going to drink tonight. You pick up your glass and clink them all together, “CHEERS!” Shortly after, the first course of food is brought in. Then the next and the next. Each course is more delicious than the last. The portions were the perfect amount that you feel full and satisfied without feeling like you’re going to go into a food coma as you finish your final dessert course. You pat your stomach pleasantly. Listening to the buzz of conversation around the room.
The boy who greeted you earlier has pulled up a seat and joined the party. He’s Sana and Nana’s older brother, Soma. He just graduated high school and is working hard to be a chef. Yama, a few drinks deep, pours his heart out about how proud he is of his son. How he’d take over this shop one day. He was all too eager to praise Soma and tell the group that your meals tonight had been prepared by him. Soma shies away from the compliments but smiles nonetheless.
This segues into Yama whining that he wants his little girls working in the restaurant with him and Soma too. They both said it’s not their vibe and it’s too macho here. They said the cafe and bookstore suited their aesthetic better and you wouldn’t disagree. Yama looked like he could cry again and the trio of siblings took to teasing his father for his weak constitution.
To deflect, Yama turns to teasing Shinji who is beet red and drunk even though his beer has only gone down no more than two fingers in the time since you got here. He must be an uber lightweight to his chagrin and Yama’s delight. The twins and Soma keep trying to sneak more alcohol but Yama catches them. Your boss, Asami, laughs at the interaction and slips them a little bit under the table while Yama is distracted with Shinji; Miki joining in on the teasing.
You lean back, a smile on your face. This is nice. It does feel like you are a family. You wouldn’t admit it to yourself, but there has been a hole, call it homesickness, in your chest. Tonight was doing wonders to fill it. You have that feeling again. Of overflowing. You’re so blessed and grateful to have such wonderful people in your life.
The party dies down and a taxi is called for Shinji who is falling asleep in the booth. The group of you argue with Yama about payment but he insists everything is on-the-house. Hopefully it’s not just the sake talking. Asami rises, “I hope you all have a lovely night. Stay safe and enjoy your day off tomorrow.” “Asami, won’t you stay here with me and the kids tonight?” Yama offers. “I can’t stand the thought of you being alone in that big house of yours.” “I won’t be alone.” She says gently, hand resting once more on her pendant, warmth in her eyes. He nods, seeming to fight back any further pestering. Miki turns to you and excitedly says, “Shall we?” You nod enthusiastically.
The two of you exit, thanking Yama, Soma, and the other servers for the delicious meal. The venue for the show is only a few blocks away. The two of you make the quick walk, excited for the evening’s festivities. It feels good to have another female friend to go out with. You shove down the images of a certain blonde and pink-haired duo. The streets are busy, crowded with people looking for some fun before the holiday. Most are already three sheets to the wind and the two of you have to avoid guys in the street trying to flirt with anything that moves. Cretins.
You don’t see in the sea of bodies on the street that you have caught someone’s eye in particular. Is it fate? A curse? Either way, something is set in motion the second those golden eyes lock onto you.
Part 14
THE LOUNGE | mikey sano
this is part twelve of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART TWELVE LENGTH: 6.3k words
⇝ PART TWELVE WARNINGS: STALKER
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. a night at the lounge does not go as planned.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: It's all starting to come together~
DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS WORK IF YOU ARE A MINOR. BY CLICKING THE READMORE, YOU CONSENT TO VIEWING ADULT CONTENT.
The taxi pulls up to a corner by the lounge. Hopping out, you make your way to the entrance. Emma hasn’t responded to your messages yet and you’re starting to feel a bit nervous about being here alone. You also feel utterly unprepared for the entry process. Would you have to show an ID? Say a password? Tell them you’re with Emma? You consider turning around and waiting by the corner when you see a line of expensive looking bikes parked out front. One bike in particular catches your eye and fills you with hope and dread.
You make your way to the door, unsure if being on time meant you were actually late or early. You say a prayer, an affirmation, and a few curse words for good measure. Making your way to the security or valet, you’re not sure. A particularly serious looking man looks you up and down before nodding and moving to hold the door for you. Well that was easier than expected. You step into the lounge. It is the image of elegance. Dark marble floors. Deep velvet curtains that tuck away pockets of lounge seating. Low lighting and a well stocked bar. A champagne tower is the only thing that’s actually illuminated in a warm spotlight in the center of the room. Low, sensual music plays on an expensive-sounding, bassy speaker system.
It felt like old Hollywood here in the heart of Tokyo. Thank god you looked the part because you felt anything but. You discreetly take out your phone to send Emma yet another message. You walk along the wall, trying not to draw attention to yourself. Deciding to people-watch in an effort to redirect the hyper focused lens of your mind onto other people.
The men and women are stunning. Dressed head to toe in black as far as the eye could see. The twinkling of massive crystals hanging heavy from ears and decolletages. They glint dramatically in the low light. As you admire the room, your gaze drifts to a group standing near the bar. The light catches an unmistakable head of golden hair. The one haunting your waking and sleeping mind.
He’s mingling with the group. You recognize Baji and Kazutora but there are a few new faces. One man has an undercut with satiny black hair. From one ear hangs a silver cuff that reflects the light of the bar. You’re too far to make out any more details, but if he’s anything like the others, he’s probably a total hunk. The one standing next to him has black hair that is slightly curly and slicked back. You can only see his profile, but he looks like he has a kind, handsome face.
As he shifts his weight on his feet, your eyes catch something a little lower. You see this man is absolutely cheeked up. His tight dress pants leave very little to the imagination. You have to force yourself to look away. Surely, your staring would be obvious to anyone who saw you. Your mind trails back to an off-handed comment that Emma made and, in your heart, you sense this man with the peach must be Takemitchy.
You look back at the blonde. He’s as handsome as ever in an all-black suit. You can see from the looks and not-so-subtle whispers that many of the other women and even some men share your sentiment. As you continue admiring you feel someone slide up beside you. Given their proximity, you do your best to shift your gaze to make your staring at Mikey less obvious. You hear a soft snicker and turn your eyes to the source. Your heart leaps to your throat as you see a very beautiful, very brunette woman and her blue-haired partner standing next to you.
Seeing you look, the brunette woman faces you. You can’t help but feel like a gazelle before a lioness; you’re ready to bolt out of there. To be fair, you’d like to give her the benefit of the doubt. Maybe she’s not as bad as Emma’s made her out to be. What little hope you have for her character quickly evaporates when she asks you, “Are you here all by yourself?” There’s a fake concern bordering on teasing dripping from her voice. She speaks slightly louder than you’d like her to. Feeling like the attention of some of the nearby couples has been drawn to this conversation. So she’s one of those…
“Waiting for a friend.” You say. Short and sweet, hopefully she gets the hint. You turn your head back to the center of the room. She steps directly into your eyeline and says dramatically, “Oh my god! You’re the girl from the video! You know, actually, Kokonoi was going to have me do it but I was busy that night. I’m glad he got a replacement.” Video? Kokonoi? Replacement? What the fuck is she talking about?
You do your best to mask your cluelessness. But, as has been pointed out before, this is not your strong suit. Unfortunately, she’s keyed into this as well, her eyes narrow on you in a predatory way. “You look so good ! Have you seen it yet?” You don’t answer, hoping if you ignore her, she’ll go away. “Oh, come on, don’t be shy. Here, take a look.” She whips out a phone and holds it to you, a video loading. As it starts to play you see the logo of Koko’s club. It appears to be some kind of promo or advertisement. There are splices of moving bodies, pouring drinks. It cuts to Emma and Yuzuha posing in the VIP. A few more shots of the bar and DJ and then. It’s you. Up in the front of the club on the stage. To yours and the editor’s credit you look amazing. But your stomach drops nonetheless.
You feel anxiety prickle on your skin and an emotion like betrayal and embarrassment twists in your chest. You’re grateful the dark light of the lounge hides the shade you’ve turned. You blink away tears, pretending you have something in your eye. “Oh yeah.” Is all you can comment. Hakkai leans in to say something to the brunette but she brushes him off. Complicated feeling swirl in your stomach.
Here you are, in what will surely be a five star lounge, dressed head to toe in designer clothes that probably cost more than your annual salary, all paid for and provided by Koko. If you think about it that way you feel less gross about the situation. You still wish he or Emma had run it by you before using you in the promo.
At this point you’re ready to go home. Sera has a satisfied smirk on her face and you hate that you let her get under your skin. Fuck it, “It’s too bad you were busy.” You say flatly. “I guess I just got lucky then.” You can’t miss that her eye twitched. Bingo. “If I can be honest with you, I just wasn’t comfortable shaking my ass like a little slut up on stage. Like seriously, how embarrassing. But I mean, you had to do as you’re told though, right? That’s how it is for us models.”
You were gonna take half of what she says as a compliment if she thinks you're a model and ignore the rest. “Like you said.” You reply dismissively, hoping she’ll finally back off. She huffs, clearly frustrated you’re not giving her the reaction she wants. She looks like she’s about to string together another thinly veiled insult when you turn to her fully and say, “So, if I can be completely honest, this is really embarrassing. This whole mean girl act.”
That seems to have struck a chord, you can practically see the vein pop in her head. Hakkai must see it too as he steps in, nodding a farewell to you as he sweeps her away to the bar. You can see at a distance the two are arguing. She’s waving her hands and even stomps her feet a few times. How off-putting. You lean back to the wall. The nerves from the unintended confrontation start to dissipate.
You’d been distracted by the brunette and completely missed Emma and Draken slipping into the lounge. They catch your eye as you see them walking over to join the group. You hesitate. You were still hopped up on nerves and the closer you got to the group, and the champagne tower, the more obvious your flush and watery eyes will be. You make the executive decision to hang back a bit longer to calm down more. You won’t admit it, but you may be further postponing the inevitable confrontation of you and Mikey.
You continue to watch the group as Emma throws her arms around Mikey’s neck. The way his features soften even at this distance. You can’t miss the nasty side eyes thrown Emma’s way by some of those party guests who had been eying him earlier. You suppose they don’t know or realize they’re brother and sister. It must be hard when you’re as pretty as Emma.
You finally feel ready, pushing off the wall to make your way to the group. Doing your best to ignore the eyes trailing you as you do. You’re closest to Kazutora and Baji who part to make space for you in the small circle. Emma lights up and wraps you in a big hug. “Ooohhh! You look even better than you did at the store!” She admires you from head to toe. “You’re… More sparkly than usual,” Baji compliments, fully not looking at you. Kazutora eyes you and some of the other ladies in the room with a low whistle, “I could get used to this.” He adds. “Don’t be gross,” You hear a gentle voice say.
You look to see the source of the voice. A petite woman appears, standing next to the man you assume is Takemitchy. She has soft features, big doe eyes, and a pretty mole next to her perfectly-lined lips. It’s hard to see in this light, but her hair looks to be a strawberry blonde. It’s styled in pretty beach waves with half of it pinned up. “Apologies Hina, not all of us are married yet.” Kazutora says back, his tone lacking his regular bite.
“Hina? It’s nice to meet you. I’m Y/N.” “Nice to meet you too. I’ve heard a lot about you.” She has a kind smile, you feel a bit like you’re melting. “Nice to meet you, I’m Hina’s husband, Takemitchy.” You have to bite back an ‘I know’ as you would rather walk into the ocean than explain how you came to that conclusion on your own. You turn to the final new face, “I’m Chifuyu.” He says with a boyish sparkle in his eyes. He’s cuter than you expected. He seems earnest and sweet. He turns and has an aside with Baji as you direct your attention back to the bigger group. “It’s good to see you, Draken.” “Same to you, Y/N. Glad to see you’re in good health.”
You blush, almost forgetting or willingly repressing that he had seen you in a state last weekend. The memory brings you to the last figure, “Hi Mikey.” You say tentatively. When he doesn’t respond you say, “Uh, I wanted to say thanks for last weekend.” You’re not the only one who notices a shift in the group; as if everyone is listening for Mikey’s response. You feel like you said something you shouldn't have. This is confirmed when Mikey merely nods, not making eye contact with you.
You could curl up and die. He hates you. You want to climb under a rock and never show your face again. As if sensing your spiral, Emma links arms with you and proposes, “How about us ladies go find a booth?” You nod, ready to escape. Hina smiles and links arms with you too as your trio make your way to one of the alcove seating areas.
You crawl in, resting your head in your hands on the lacquered oak tables dramatically. “Oh my god he HATES me.” “What are you talking about?” Emma asks, surprised at your reaction. “Did you miss the part where he totally ignored me?” “He’s probably just on edge being here at the party.” Hina slides in from the other side of the booth and scoots in to sit next to you. She pats your back and says, “There, there.” She’s an angel. She continues in her soft voice, “I’m sure it’s not like that, he definitely doesn’t hate you. Even Takemitchy noticed Mikey’s reaction when you came in.”
The seed of hope planted by Hina is just enough to pull you out of your doom spiral. “Yeah, and Takemitchy is almost as thick as his dumpy so it means something if he noticed.” Emma tacks on, making you laugh and Hina giggle. “He’s probably on guard because he wasn’t expecting to see so many people here. Takemitchy was also surprised by who came out of the woodwork for the event tonight.” Hina continued.
At that moment, Yuzuha and Senju slide into the booth next to Emma. “Hey girlies~” Senju says excitedly, a glass of something in her hand. “Emma, Hina, Y/N. Good to see you all here tonight.” Yuzuha says with a winning smile. “YUZU! SENJU!!!” Emma exclaims, wrapping both of them in a hug. Hina simply smiles brightly and waves to them. “So, what’d we miss?” Senju asks, taking a sip of her mystery liquid.
Not wanting to show your hand and talk about Mikey with them, you change the subject with a dramatic, “OH!” You sit up straight in the booth. “Guess who tried to cat fight me by the bar earlier…” This catches the group’s attention. “Ayo, I’m already swinging” Senju says, rotating her arm. “ Sera ” This sends a wave of reaction through the group. Hina has a discontented look on her face. Senju is practicing her punches. Emma has dropped her jaw in faux drama and Yuzuha is scanning the crowd, you assume, for a brunette head. “When? Why? What happened?” Emma asks.
“It was a little bit before you arrived. She and her boyfriend, Hakkai, right? They came up and she started like trying to beef with me? OH! Did you know Koko made a video of us the other night?” “Uhg, he always does sneaky shit like that. One of the many reasons I don’t feel bad about swiping that black card of his.” Senju says. “Oh, yeah, he had to okay it with my agent and, Emma, I think you heard about it then, right?” Yuzuha adds. “Yeah, but he didn’t mention anything about you or Senju being in the video…” Emma says knitting her brow in concern. She pulls out her phone, searching for the video. The familiar song of the ad starts playing.
You feel like you’re all dolled up in clown makeup. The group leans in to see the screen, Hina slides over your lap to join the group watching the video. You continue as they do, “Well Sera knew. She was really pleased to show me.” You don’t need to see Emma’s screen to know when your ‘debut’ in the video occurs. Their eyes go wide and Senju chokes on her drink. “Oh shit.” Emma says. Through her coughing fit Senju manages, “Fuck you look HOT!” Hina nods in agreement, a blush dusting her cheeks. Yuzuha seems utterly unimpressed that Koko would do something like this but still gives you a thumbs up.
“Wait, you didn’t know he was filming you?” Hina asks gently. Your silence is answer enough. “I mean you look amazing, but I can’t believe he didn’t ask…” Senju adds. “You know him, he’ll do anything if he thinks it’s best for business…” Yuzuha adds, getting lost in thought. You feel validated by their support.
“Anyways,” You continue with a clap. A quirk you seem to be picking up from the bubbly blonde of your group. “Long story short, I guess she was supposed to shoot the video and she said she was glad he found a replacement and that she actually didn’t want to do it. I think she also called me a slut at one point??? And then when I wouldn’t argue with her, Hakkai dragged her off to the bar.” It was a lot for the group to process. Hell, it was a lot for you to live through. “So we don’t have time to unpack all of that.” Senju starts. “What the fuck is she even doing here anyways?” Emma asks, clearly frustrated. “Come on, play nice.” Yuzuha says, playing the mediator.
“Why should she, Sera isn’t.” Senju says, coming to Emma’s defense. “She’s seriously the lowest common denominator. Not even our resident saint, Hina, likes her.” Emma adds, exasperated. You turn your eyes to Hina in curiosity. Seeing your questioning look, Hina supplies, “When she wouldn’t take ‘No, I’m married and not interested’ from Takemitchy and kept trying to force herself on him, that sealed the deal for me pretty fast. It didn’t help that I was right there .” There’s a wrath hiding under her angelic tone. Scary.
“Just because your brother has bad taste doesn’t mean we all deserve to suffer.” Senju says with a bit of bite. “Brother?” You tilt your head, looking around the group. Yuzuha sighs, “Hakkai is my little brother.” she says in the voice of a tired older sister. Now that you think about it, they both have those pretty, thick lower lashes and sleepy eyes. The resemblance isn’t striking but you can definitely see it.
“I’m sure you all have valid reasons to not like her, but I don't. And Hakkai really likes her... I mean she’s always been sweet to me. She even asks me about modeling.” “Yeah, probably ‘cause she wants to snipe your jobs.” Senju fires back. “Speaking of, rewind, what the fuck was she talking about? Replacement? Okay, for one, upgrade . But also, Koko fucking hates her, he would never ask her to model for him.” Emma says.
“Well…” Yuzuha starts. All eyes turn to her. “Come on, don’t be like that. She was asking about modeling and getting gigs and I might’ve mentioned something about Koko’s event. But Hakkai was the one who tried to arrange it.” She says, palms up and facing the group. “Clearly, Koko didn’t go for it and, like you said, upgraded.” She deflects, gesturing to you. Her compliment softened the blow, but the other ladies didn’t seem thrilled by this admission at all. You feel your throat getting dry.
“Anyways, that's how my night’s going. I need a drink.” Senju looks excited. “Not that kind of drink.” She pouts as you rise from the booth, “Can you grab me a tonic soda while you’re up there?” Hina asks. You can’t say no to those eyes. “Oh! An Old Fashion for me!” Senju tacks on. “Jesus, I clocked out from the cafe last night.” You joke. Ensuring your humor lands, you ask over your shoulder, “On the rocks or neat.” “Rocks please~” You turn towards the bar only to be faced with the group of men you’d split from not too long ago blocking your path.
Deciding it’s worth it to not have to brave a second confrontation alone, you take the loop around to avoid them. You move discreetly, circling the curve of the room. Sticking close to the velvet curtains. From your periphery you see a woman approach Mikey. You feel a twinge in your chest. Maybe it’s the masochistic part of you, but you can’t help yourself. You slip into the shadow of a curtain to watch the scene play out.
She’s tall, lean, and proportioned like a goddess in a pantsuit. Her hair cut neatly below her chin in a chic black bob. She makes her move, placing a hand on Mikey’s shoulder, angling her body towards him. The rest of the men in the group naturally shift their stance to separate their conversation from the pair’s. She bats long, heavy lashes, toying with the lapel of his suit. Her bedroom eyes smolder even from this distance. Her body language reads like an open book and she flaunts herself confidently. You feel that twinge again. She appears to make some invitation to him, bringing the rim of her glass to her lips, playing with its edge there seductively.
Mikey stands, unmoving for a moment. He simply nods his head and raises his glass to her in a polite dismissal. The woman seems as shocked as you are. She backs off maintaining her composure, a forced smile plastered on her deep plum lips. Mikey returns to his group who seem to poke fun at him about the interaction that just played out. Why did you feel… Relieved? In your heart, you feel better that it wasn’t just you who had been rejected tonight.
Your relief is short lived as you are struck with the most bizarre deja reve. An arm snakes around your waist from the booth behind you. Swiftly pulling you in from your spot by the curtains. You’re pulled into the lap of a man you don’t recognize. That is, until you see the tattoos that inked into the back of his hands. You twist in his grip, trying to wriggle away from him. You manage to push around, facing him. Fuck, he’s tall, even sitting like this. More than that, he’s strong. You finally lock eyes, seeing the man for the first time. His hair is dyed in highlights of bleach-blonde. It’s wavy and combed over to one side. He’s sporting some gold-framed glasses that match a shimmering gold earring dangling from his right side. Both accessories bring out his golden eyes that glow almost unnaturally in the lounge light. He has a wicked but handsome smile plastered on his face.
He looks like a bad boy through and through. He is definitely bad news. He leans into you, your back pressing into the hard edge of the table. “My my what do we have here. You look stunning, darling. An absolute knockout.” He has a deep sultry voice. It felt like the air rippled when he spoke. Hell, under any other circumstance, if an 11/10 tattooed bad boy literally fell into your lap, or you into his, you wouldn’t hesitate to snatch him up.
But something wasn’t right. Alarm bells were going off. Something in your gut was telling you to run away. His eyes were blazing, burning into you. Those eyes. Everything was happening so fast. “What the fuck! Let go-” You start to say, your voice raising in panic while you push hard on his chest. His very toned, broad chest. You curse yourself for noticing. He covers your mouth quickly and leaned in to further invade your bubble. “Now, now, don’t go cutting our fun short again.” He wraps his other hand around one of your wrists. His smile stretches wider. You’re scared.
“Enough, Hanma.” A voice slices through your panicked thoughts. Mikey stands at the end of the table. Face stone cold but death in his eyes. “Mikey~” Hanma says in a sing-songy voice that makes your skin crawl. Hanma looks from Mikey to you, a dark look flashing in his eyes.
“My my, Hanma. Typical of you to cause a scene, despite this being my grand opening.” Koko says, in a sarcastic but icy tone. Seeming to appear out of nowhere. “Ah~ Koko, the man of the hour. Just who I wanted to see. Do you have a moment?” He punctuates the question by removing his hand from your mouth and withdrawing a fat stack of cash from his suit pocket. His arm cages you in as he slides the stack across the table between him and the white-haired man. Koko looks absolutely serpentine, you hear the click of his lips as a smile spreads across his face. He lazily picks up the money, fanning through it dramatically. “I suppose I can make time for an old friend. Join me.”
Hanma releases you. You jump off of his lap in an instant. He stands to full height, towering over you. He stoops as he passes you, just inches from your face. “Until next time, sweetheart~” He turns, following Koko to god knows where, Mikey shooting daggers at the pair the entire way. You feel like the spotlight is on you. You want to sink into the lush velvet curtains and disappear.
Emma, Senju, Yuzuha, and Hina notice the commotion and pop their heads out of their booth. When they see it’s you at the source, they’re around you in seconds. Each asking variations of the question, “Holy shit, are you okay?” in hushed voices. They tuck you into the booth, drawing the curtains slightly. You lie. Saying whatever you need to to give yourself an out. You want to go home. You definitely don’t want to be here when Hanma and Koko come back from their “meeting.”
It seems like others in the group are on the same page. You see Mikey, Draken, and Takemitchy discreetly move, milling about the room. While their move may seem innocuous, in the short time you’ve spent with them you can sense their body language is off. You aren’t the only one to notice, as Emma stands to join her brother. A serious look on her face, Yuzuha follows after her, leaving you, Senju and Hina seated in the booth. You turn to look at the other men, Chifuyu, Baji, and Kazutora who have positioned themselves casually at the end of your table.
To an untrained eye, they’re relaxing and talking, but you notice they’re using their bodies to obscure the view of the booth. Their eyes are also scanning the room like hawks. It is very much giving the sense that they are bodyguards. Senju kills the last of her drink and in a deathly serious tone you’ve never heard from her before, she asks the trio, “Does this mean what I think it means?” There’s a beat of silence before Kazutora answers. “It seems like they’re making their move. That’s not the kind of money you bring to have a “chat” even if it is with Koko.” He’s uncharacteristically serious.
Senju has a thousand yard stare as she sighs. “This could get messy really quick.” “We should save this. There are too many ears here.” Chifuyu says in a low voice, not looking at the pink-haired woman. She leans her head against the booth as Emma and Yuzuha return. You catch the end of their sentence, “-there’s a door there. Try to be cool, if it’s too obvious they might rush you… But Toman should get out of here as soon as they can. This could turn into another incident if we don’t play it smart.” Yuzuha says firmly. “Be careful.” With that she slips into the crowd.
It all goes over your head. Emma smiles and says to Senju and the trio of men, “Mikey says usual spot.” and holds up three fingers on her right hand and a zero with her left. They all nod subtly. She slides back into the booth and says in a low whisper, “A car is on its way, we’re going to head out, but we need to keep it lowkey.” You feel like your head is spinning, all you can do is nod. “Ok, good. Hina, you, me, and Y/N are gonna head out first. There’s a door near the bathrooms we can slip out from. Let’s just play it off like a girl’s bathroom break.” “I hate this.” Hina says, her eyes glossy. “I’m sorry.” Emma says softly, unable to meet her eyes.
She peeks over her shoulder for something or someone that you can’t see. “Let’s go now.” She says. The three of you rise. She puts on an act, “Baji, Chifuyu, Kazu, can you watch our booth please? We’re gonna run to the restroom.” “Come on, boys. I barely bite anymore.” Senju plays along, patting the seat next to her. They slide in as you slip past them. You try to act natural as you look for the restrooms, but you feel your vision narrowing. Thank god Emma links arms with you, directing you to a hidden hallway that’s obscured by a partition. You move there only to bump into an entirely different, troubling scene.
A couple is taking advantage of the secluded space. Good for them, but the woman was being pressed into what appears to be your exit door. The man is nearly as tall as the door frame. He’s built like a quarterback with broad shoulders and a buzz cut. What short hair he did have seems to be bleached. Even from the back, you can see he has a tattoo that snakes up his neck and onto the side of his head. You feel a flush of white hot. Wait… Is he? The woman’s pleasured sounds ease your concern in that regard.
The woman lets out another low, wanton moan, head bumping back into the metal of the door with a thud. Her hands grip at the satiny material of the man’s jacket. Her leg hiked up high around his waist. His hands disappear out of sight. But the movement of his arms, shoulders, and back leave little mystery as to what he’s doing. The woman moans out again, “Oooh baby, it’s so gooo-Oood.”
Fuck. How were you going to get out of here? You practically feel an icy, black vortex next to you where Emma is standing. “No. Fucking . Way. Jesus Christ! Classy as ever, Sera.” The woman yelps in surprise, “Oh! Fuck! Oh my god! Stop stop!” She’s beating on his chest in a panicked rhythm. He lets out a low frustrated noise but stops moving. You hear the unmistakable sound of a zipper as he pulls back from her and turns his attention to you. As he turns, the woman behind him is revealed. She is adjusting herself, her chocolate brown hair mussed and lipstick smeared. It was Sera. She was somehow redder than you were.
Sera is pretty tall and even she is dwarfed by this man. He says something deep and low in a foreign language. There’s a harshness and growl to the rolled R’s that gives you the impression he’s swearing. You can't make out if it’s Spanish or Portuguese.
The man says something else, parting the three of you as he leaves the hallway, returning to the party. Sera looks like she wants to call after him but holds back. She’s left there, red from the neck up, sputtering. She tries to form an excuse, or a comeback but Emma cuts her off in a voice that betrays that she’s holding back, “This is low, even for you. Get out of here.” Sera pauses, closing her mouth. If looks could kill, the three of you would be lovely corpses. Adjusting her hair and dress one more time, she glides past you and into the bathroom.
“Jesus.” Hina says under her breath. “What the fuck. If she’s going to cheat she should at least be a little sneakier about it.” You say gobsmacked. There’s no time to discuss as Emma swings the door open to a back alley. Emma looks to the left and the right and quickly turns left. You and Hina follow in stride. As you near the street, a paneled black van screeches to a halt. Your heart sinks. This is the end, you’re about to be snatched up.
An impenetrable black window is rolled down and you’re met with a familiar face brow creased in worry. “Hurry, get in.” Yuuki urges. Behind him, at the wheel, you see another man. All you can make out is his icy-white hair. The door slides open and the three of you pile in. Before the door finishes closing the van is peeling out. You brace yourself against Yuuki’s seat in front of you. “Yuuki, what are you doing here?” He doesn’t respond and instead turns to look at the man in the driver’s seat. The driver responds for him, “He was with me, I got the call.” He concludes. “Okay… That’s nice, but what the hell is going on?”
Emma interjects with, “You were gone for a while… What happened in the booth?“ You feel a bit of conversational whiplash. “That guy, Hanma, grabbed me out of nowhere and pulled me in there.” “Why? Did he say anything?” “Fuck if I know why he did it?! He’s been weird and… Touchy… Ever since that night at the club… He was just saying some cryptic weird shit.” Why do you feel embarrassed? Like you’re on trial for something. You desperately want to change the subject.
“What the hell was up with all that cash? And why did everyone start acting so weird after that…” Silence. “Is anyone going to tell me what’s going on?” You feel the frustration bubbling in your chest. “Emma? Hina? That debrief would be much appreciated right about now…” You search for their eyes, hoping they’ll explain, but they avoid your gaze. “Yuuki?” The white-haired man in the driver’s seat starts to respond for him once again, but you cut him off, “I didn’t ask you. While we’re on it, who even are you” Emma places a hand on your knee, sensing you’re getting worked up. You flinch. A move that doesn’t go unnoticed.
“Mitsuya.” The driver says. “I’m sorry, I assumed Yuuki would’ve told you about me, given I’ve heard so much about you.” “Mitsuya.” You say back, the name not ringing any bells. You look at Yuuki who’s turned around in his seat. “I’m sure you have a lot of questions, Y/N. But it’s probably better to save them for later.” Yuuki looks to the other women in the backseat to back him up. Hina steps in, “They’ll tell us when it’s safe. The best thing we can do is remove ourselves so they don’t have to worry.” You can tell she’s choosing her words carefully.
It feels bad. To have the answers you want be tiptoed around. You feel emotion building up. “Fuck that! Sorry Hina, but what the fuck does that even mean? What is going ON?! And why are you guys being so fucking shady all of a sudden?” They sit there in silence. You feel it swell again. Anger. It takes over as you continue, “Okay, so, just to clarify since nobody else wants to, I woke up today and thought I was going to have fun at a lounge party but instead I’m getting groped in a booth and hustled out of a back door a minute later and now here I am in the back of a fucking murder van with my friends who are LYING to me.” You’re lashing out. You realize that, but you can’t hold back. All of the feelings from today are clawing their way to the surface. Sadness sinks her claws in, shoving anger down.
The car cruises in silence. “Emma. Please.” You plead. Emma keeps her eyes glued to the road. “Yuuki?” He doesn’t move from his place in the front seat. You feel the tears building up. “Let me out.” You say quietly. “What? No, it’s not safe here!” Emma says in an exasperated tone. “I don’t feel safe here . Let. Me. OUT.” You say trying the door. “Come on, Y/N, please be reasonable.” “Fuck you. Fuck you, Yuuki.“ you choke out. You can’t hold back as the tears start to flow. Pulling hard on the door again, palming the dark surface to find the lock.
“Please.” Emma says, just above a whisper. “I’m sorry. Please.” She isn’t looking at you but she puts a hand towards you on the van seat. The word sparks something in you. You’re back in the alley, begging anything, anyone. Your grip on the door slackens. “Take me home.” You say, defeated. Mitsuya nods as Yuuki scrolls through his contacts for your address, punching it into the GPS once he finds it.
You rest your head against the glass of the window, looking at anything but the others in the car, doing your best to hide your watery eyes. Emma tries, “Once I touch base with Mikey, I’ll tell you what I can…” she offers. “I just don’t want to get you tied up in things that… I don’t want…” “Forget it.” You say, cutting her off. You feel hollow, focusing on the sound of the engine.
The van creeps up to your apartment and the door automatically slides open. You step out, ignoring the voices calling after you from the car. You move quickly to your building’s entrance. Once you’re out of their eye-line you slow down. You trudge up the stairs to your room. It’s all blurring together again. That familiar feeling you’ve avoided for a couple of weeks until now. You couldn’t run from it forever, you suppose.
It takes all of your willpower to not slide down your door as it clicks behind you. You slip out of your heels and move into your home, peeling off the expensive clothes and letting them pool on the floor where they fall. You methodically remove your accessories. Depositing them on the counter.
What the fuck had you seen tonight. What had you been close to? Brushing shoulders with something dark. Something entirely new to you. There’s something in the pile of mail clutter that catches your eye. It’s crisp, white, peeking out from under your electric bill. You slide it out from the pile. A business card? You can’t quite place where or when you got it. You flip it around in your hand, reading ‘the violent crimes unit’ among the print. You read the name, “Naoto Tachibana.”
Part 13
AT THE EDGE | mikey sano
this is part eleven of the series kill the lights
⇝ PAIRING: timeskip!biker!mikey sano x fem!reader
⇝ SERIES SYNOPSIS: after moving by yourself to tokyo, you black out at a party and wake up with a new friend. as she sweeps you up in her fast-paced city life, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper for her mysterious brother. but something dark is brewing in the city. as his past threatens to resurface, mikey must fight not only physical enemies but the mental battle of his feelings for you. he can't resist you , but could he ever forgive himself if something happened to you? he'll love you selfishly and protect you savagely.
⇝ PART ELEVEN LENGTH: 1.9k words
⇝ PART ELEVEN WARNINGS: MASTURBATION
all characters are 20+; Alternate Universe! Canon Divergent. you get ready for a night at the lounge, blissfully unaware.
⇝ AUTHOR'S NOTE: A little bit of diet spice ;) We have some spice lite on the way. Yes chef, thank you chef.
DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS WORK IF YOU ARE A MINOR. BY CLICKING THE READMORE, YOU CONSENT TO VIEWING ADULT CONTENT.
You move your hands to apply more pressure. The blood is flowing too fast. It slips through your fingers, hot and slick. You feel like your hands are sinking into his chest. The blood wrapping around your wrists and trickling up the skin of your arm.
You try to scream to cry out to him. His eyes roll back and all you see are the whites as his body starts twitching. Your stomach drops, goosebumps sweeping over your body. Dread. You feel a hand slither around your waist. A blood soaked gloved hand gripping your waist. Fingers digging in painfully. The crimson liquid from the glove streaking across your front and soaking through the fabric of your clothing. You’re ripped off of his body.
You wake with a start, gasping for air. You had avoided the nightmares for a couple of nights, but it seemed they weren’t through with you. You toss yourself over, sweating. Dry heaving over the edge of the bed, gasping painfully for air. You feel the hot streak of tears streaming from your eyes, dripping down the tip of your noise. The soft patter of them hitting your floor is the sound that grounds you back in reality. You focus your breathing. You grip your sheets, feeling the fabric between your fingers, tethering you. You lay back, your tears slow but still roll in fat streams down your cheeks, tickling as they disappear below your earlobes. You breathe.
The nightmare was different tonight. Worse. You lay there. Breathing deeply. You needed a few more hours of sleep to function at work. The week ahead of you is daunting, but the lounge party promised a welcome distraction. You count your breaths until you slip back into sleep.
***
You stare at the message for the dozenth time that week,
“Thanks for getting me home in one piece”
That message has been typed and sitting, waiting to be sent to a certain blonde biker since Sunday night. You sigh, closing your phone. Why did you feel so nervous to text him? It’s an honest thank you, nothing weird about that. You couldn’t shake that little voice in your head vying for attention. That voice that whispers, “why didn’t he message you?” “What if you said something really out of pocket to him?” “Maybe he’s protecting your feelings…” “He’s probably annoyed that he had to take care of you…” You shake your head to clear the thoughts.
You can’t rot in bed all day. The time of the lounge party grows closer, motivating you to toss back the covers and swing your legs over the edge of your bed. You withdraw your outfit from the closet and lay it out in preparation. Tonight is the night. It’s time to take your ‘everything’ shower and get dolled up. Just like you’ve been looking forward to doing. You turn the water to hot, stripping out of your pajamas. You go through the motions of shampooing your hair, putting in a conditioning mask, and shaving every inch of your body.
You work up a lather with your body soap. Enjoying the warm water, feeling your muscles relax. You turn to the showerhead, the buttery flow of water is soothing. You wipe the water from your face. It feels nice. You wipe again in a languid, steady movement. You recreate the feeling of his hands methodically wiping, cleansing. You continue, imagining your hands are his. Massaging soft, steady circles into your face.
You feel your hands drift lower, trailing down the column of your neck with the same steady pressure he used that night. Your heart flutters in your chest. You continue, dropping your hands lower, tracing a pattern down the center of your chest. Teasing yourself where you wish he would touch you. You build the image in your mind. Picturing what he would look like touching you like this. What would he say? What would he sound like? You imagine his teasing voice and how, no matter how much he tries to hold back and maintain the upper hand, his hungry eyes would give him away every time.
Fuck. You finally bring your touch to a pebbled nipple, the soap making your touch silky smooth. You imagine his mouth on your neck as you roll the nub between your fingers. Pinching, pulling, teasing. A small noise escapes your lips. You bite it back.
You feel your stomach clenching. Something deep and low in your core. You trail your other hand lower. Tracing patterns in the soap in the expanse of skin below your belly button. Pausing before you reach the part of you that craves your touch. You feel the skin quiver under the whisper of your fingertips. You build up the feeling more, making a few more circles on your lower stomach.
Your breathing is heavy now. You imagine his breath matching yours. Hot and heavy. You inhale deeply, trying to smell that deep, sweet toffee smell that clung to his dewy summer skin.
It’s too much. You finally give into your touch, dipping your fingers between your legs. Even you are amazed by how hot and slick you’ve become. You roll the pebble of your nipple as you give a long steady stroke with your other hand, spreading your wetness around. You let out a small mewl again. Leaning your head against the tiled wall of the shower. You continue the movements in sync. Your mouth falls open, panting. Your legs are starting to shake. Your attention is drawn to the soft, bubbly water rolling down your back.
You turn, taking hold of your shower head wand and picking it up out of the holder. You sit back in your tub, resting your head against the edge. You run the water down your chest, the pressure is perfect. You bring it lower, your body twitches under the steady stream of warm water as it hits that perfect spot. You feel yourself tighten. A warm fuzziness spreads over your skin as you hold the stream steady on that sensitive spot between your legs.
You feel your stomach tighten and take a deep breath in. Feeling yourself unravel as you do. Your mind goes blank. The image of him, temporarily erased. Your body tenses in waves of pleasure. Twitching deliciously. It keeps washing over you, slowing each time. Your breathing evens out as you come back down. Fuck that felt good. You sit there in the afterglow, feeling fuzzy for a bit longer.
When you finally come back to yourself, you finish rinsing your body and hair. Also rinsing off the nagging feeling of shame that you pleasured yourself while thinking about him… Again… How many times has it been this week? If you were ready to be completely honest with yourself, you might consider that you are scared to message him because a rejection is worse than not knowing. At least that’s how it is right now. But you’re not ready for that. So you pull yourself up and out of the tub with legs that feel like jelly, toweling off. You’re red as a lobster as you step from the steamy shower room, welcoming the cool air of the living room.
You sit under the AC in your bedroom for a little bit, cooling off and scrolling for makeup inspiration. You settle on a smokey eye and the perfect lip shade. One that matches the expensive lip oil you’d picked up for the evening’s festivities. As you feel your internal temperature regulating, you move to dry and style your hair. You decide to put on a video for background noise. Scrolling briefly, you click on a trending video that is long enough to keep you entertained as you get ready..
It’s a true crime and mystery video. The YouTuber had a nice way of speaking that balanced the serious nature of the content with lighter takes and humor. You mostly tune out the story, appreciating the company while you get to work styling your hair in sections
As you continue, her tone changes to a serious one, unconsciously making your ears tune into what she’s actually saying, “It was at this moment, when the adrenaline was wearing off, that the young man realized he had been stabbed. I mean, I can’t even imagine the fear and pain he must've been in; knowing that his attacker was still out there hunting for him. At this point he was literally holding his intestines inside of his body as he crawled his way to the highway. Tragically, he wouldn’t make it. He was just meters away when the attacker found him, beating him over and over again on the head. The young man lost his life there. It really just breaks my heart to think that he was so close .” This is too much.
You feel yourself physically reacting to the story before your mind catches up. You quickly exit the video and sit there, steadying your breaths. You are laser focused on slowing your pounding heart, fighting off the feeling of impending doom. You employ some techniques you’ve been working on; you name 5 objects in your room. That helps. You start counting backwards from 1000 in 7’s. That helps. You rub your chest in slow circles, that helps.
You continue breathing, slow and steady. Coming back to yourself. You sit there a moment longer, thinking through the feelings that just flooded you. You remind yourself: you are safe, he is fine, it’s okay. You focus on those facts as you opt to put on your ‘getting ready’ Spotify playlist. Trying to wipe the memory of the story from your short-term memory, shoving down any lingering feelings.
You continue to distract yourself by doing your best to recreate the makeup look you found. With only a few minor corrections, you are finished. You sit for a moment, admiring your work. Finally, you rise from your place on the floor in front of your mirror. When you check the time, you still have about 30 minutes before you have to call your taxi. It’s time to carefully slip into your dress. The material is luxurious as it pools around you. You have to take a moment to admire the way it fits like a glove, accentuating your body in all the right places. You look hot. You feel hot!
You decide to make the most of your remaining time by getting a picture of you in your dress. It takes a few tries, but you get the perfect shot. You mess around with a song and a color filter before you hit the post button, it quickly uploads to your story. You click out of the app and request your taxi. While you wait, you transfer the contents of your bag to a designer clutch Emma picked out for you. The black knife has become a daily companion. You deposit it snugly in the inner pocket.
Slipping on your heels, you lean against the door, watching the little car icon moving on the map as it approaches your apartment. All the while you keep getting banner notifications of people reacting to your story. It further bolstered your mood. When the taxi is a block away, you leave your apartment. You leave with confidence. Excitement bubbling in your chest, the promise of another lively evening with the girls.
Part 12



