How to not be a shit person
I need people to learn how to not be a shit person and learn that human’s make mistake or in my case you made a mistake.
The next time someone tries to judge me without knowing me I’m probably going to punch them in the throat. The next time someone says I wouldn't be working if i stayed in school I’m going to lost my mind. The next time someone tries to call me out for something when they’re ones that made the mistake I’m going to both lose it and punch them in the throat.
Between my school making lost my mind and the stress that is to work 30 hours, go to school for 21 hours a week and deal with the stress of people telling you, you’re lazy and you don’t do anything or you shouldn’t have an opinion of how things work because you’re young and naive.
Fuck you. I sit in my room every night contemplating why the fucking world works the way it is don’t tell me I’m young and naive I fucking live this shit everyday. I have every right to have an opinion and voice it just like everyone else has been doing for the last twenty years of my life.
To guy who called me out for having a job and trying to work my way to success because he read a number and heard something he only thought he heard, man I want to punch you in the throat. Trying to get me fired because you read 35.00 instead of 53.00, just because you weren't listening to me maybe cause you were to busy trying to lower the price on something you knew wasn't on sale. Calling me stupid cause you didn't hear what I said or telling me I must be high cause I didn't remember something I didn't fucking say. Yelling and through a fit, I’m sorry are you fucking five I swear. Telling me if I had stayed in school I wouldn't be in this situation. Jokes on you I’m about to graduate college in three months, you fuck. Thank you leaving the store mad because the way you reacted of course we weren't going to do shit for you I only called my manager because I didn't have to take your shit but the minute he came up there you leave. Thanks for making my week more stressful.
I hate people, plain and simple. I love helping people but I hate people. People are the reason I don't wanna be surgeon anymore, people are the reason I don’t wanna be a doctor anymore. People are the reason I rather work behind the scene and be a researcher, I don't wanna teach or have my own practice, I don’t wanna help people directly unless I’m working with people who I can grow with. I can’t deal with being around a lot of people at one time because I swear It is draining. I feel like actual shit if I’m around people for too long. I come hope feeling like actual crap because I’ve been around people for too long. Ugh, I hate people you won’t understand.
I hate people who don’t take time to consider other people’s opinion. The minute you’re like trying to explain why you think a certain way they think you’re trying to say you’re the best thing since god given earth. Maybe I just want you to see this from a different point of view instead of shoving yours down my throat.
I hate that even as i sit here and write this I can’t get my thoughts together and I’m sitting here boiling over on a roller coaster of emotion. Pissed off and boardline insane, about to cry and so fucking stressed out as fuck. Having a panic attack and still wasting time trying to type this all out in hopes I feel less like shit.
I hate that my job keeps scheduling me for 31 hours when I’m taking 21 hours do you know how much time I need to study that I don’t have hahaha. Wonderful but I guess I shouldn't complain cause I’m happy to have a job because I also have bills which people tell is nothing compared to theirs but they dont factor in I’m paying bills while I’m still in fucking college.
I’m tired of my friends guilt tripping me because I don’t have time to spend with them because I’m either at work or school or trying to graduate by you know studying.
I hate that my future is planning out exactly how I want it to though I’m investing so much into it and suffering financially for it.
People you tell people to stay in school are just as bad as the school themselves. Dear school you’re giving a diploma that isn't going to grantee I’ll get a job just that i graduated from a four year university. Trying to get a job, internship, volunteer work when you’re an undergrad is hard as hell and I don’t understand why at all considering everyone is like you’re nothing if you don't have a job out of college.
The world is literally pissing me off and I’ll be surprise if I make through April. Between my school, my job and just my fucked up head in general, life’s a fucking joke.