#margawrites

[margawrites]

these days my

heart is tender

i can feel it on my breasts

i hear it when i raise my voice

i can taste it on my hot wet tears

still an ocean

not just a glass of

water

too much but

he’s perfect

he loves to swim

to swim as far as he can

although

like anyone else

he gets thirsty

but he keeps coming back

so

the tears have long gone

become a part of

the ocean

and they have stopped

but the heart

is

sometimes 

tender

[margawrites]

PARASITE - A reflection paper, as to how it goes when we were in our Primary School days.

It is 6 in the morning and I've recently watched this movie, hence I would really need to write this down or this idea might get off my brain when I wake up later.

The movie is 9/10. 1 is because; I was really confused at first and when I'm halfway there, I can see from a different perspective how did they come up with every detailed scene that they can the director can show us.

I was really impressed with how did they come up with the deets of the following:

The Smell

The Argument of the Poor People

Elitism

Poverty

It was really called a parasite for a reason. At first, I really thought that the parasite was the poor people (spoiler alert to those who did not watch it yet!) but I came to the realization of, both rich & poor people are the parasites in this movie.

It's quite obvious that the movie is about poverty and capitalism. The rich family is not described as the antagonists, but in their naivety and casual entitlement, their parasitic nature is laid bare! On the other hand, the poor ones were struggling to "praise" and even fight just to get a hold of these rich folks' scrap of meat just so they can survive their entire morality.

The film seems to be a concept of education, intelligence, and determination providing class mobility. Is it by nature or nurture?

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Idk why I find it hard to keep myself sober since April 2022. I know I do not have any alcohol issues back then but lately, I’ve been drinking for like, every weekend now! I swear, this isn’t healthy and I swear I do not like the feeling.

But don’t you sometimes feel trapped? Trapped in a situation you really don’t know what to feel anymore?

I am very content and happy with what has been going on with my life lately. But sometimes, I just want to disappear so I would see how everybody (even my so-called “friends”) would react without me.

This alcohol madness has been going for weeks now and I don’t like how I am getting used to it. I need to re-charge and re-start. I need to get out of here. I love my demons but I guess I love myself more.