#maria'sbrain

[mariathelady]

Almost free!

You guys I am sooooo close to leaving this town I have mistakenly trapped myself in! Like in less than a month I can leave and go ANYWHERE I waaaaant! Woopwoop!!! My goal is to be financially stable enough to live a year in Australia or the UK! That’s my dream. If I can fond some time to slip a visit to Germany in there as well, then I will die happy! I would be lying if I said that super hot guyscwith bomb ass accents didn’t have at least a little to do with my traveling plans! Lmao

[mariathelady]

I think not!

Letting people bleed you dry so they can live....that's some bullshit. I feel like some people are missing that self preservation gene. Like while they were being created God was like "nope you don't need this!"

[mariathelady]

Metamorphosis... Or not.

I’ve been talking and thinking about changing certain aspects of my life and how I live it for a while Now. So far I haven’t been very successful in doing so(lol surprise surprise). I tend to want to do these things, but I will not focus on them for longer that a second(or so its seems). I am at that point in my life where its dawning on me that time isn’t going to stop being what it is so I can “accomplish something”. Lol this seems like common sense I know. But when your growing up you always tell yourself “there will be more time” “your still young you have all the time in the world” and other lies along those lines. That’s not true. Waiting….or should I say procrastinating is not the key. Sometimes in certain situations it can be! I can’t deny that. But it is NOT the key to moving on in life! I have grown a lot these last few months being away from home. But it’s time now for me to stop fucking around and make moves! Do these things. One of my biggest fears is waking up one day and I’m like 60 and knowing I did nothing…I did nothing. That’s a scary thought. I’m here for a purpose and I won’t rest until I find out what it is! But that’s also the hardest part….<

[mariathelady]

I seriously have to remember that I am a convenience....the faster I remember this the fast I can stop bitching to myself about my hurt feelings. Fucking stupid feelings.