#marsisranting

[saebyeokslefttoe]

i hate it when i'm reading smut and they call pussy someone fancy word like the reproductive organ wtf i didn't know i was in science class.

[michaelceranumberfourfan]

why can i not get over her

shes into a guy

we were never meant to be

its been like 2 years of this shit

i will NOT go back

[michaelceranumberfourfan]

all my friends hate me, home alone watching edward scissorhands, halloween would be just the perfect night for it

[michaelceranumberfourfan]

rant ig idrk

people will say shit like "youre abandoning me when im vulnerable. youre a terrible friend and person" but what did YOU do when i was in the worst place of my life, over and over again? you made it about you. you made MY problems about you. i was there for you for three years while you cried my ears off about the same damn things. and as i picked you off the ground you complained that i was pulling you to hard. cant anything be about anyone but you?

[michaelceranumberfourfan]

tfw youre at a dance and that song comes on and you and your ex who youre "over" lock eyes and then you have to leave so you dont start crying

[michaelceranumberfourfan]

no ones awake. its 3 am. im on my dads old laptop. my ex girlfriend is straight. im in love with her. i dont think i love anyone, or ever will. these girls i so want to be friends with are out getting hammered together. deep down id love to go, but im not a part of their group, not really. i want to be loved. i havent smoked since last week. im going to a meeting tommorow for a youth action council in my county. i feel out of place there, but i met a really cool person there last week. maybe we'll talk. i seem so young for my age. i feel like ive been 16 for years. everyone looks down on me. adults seem to get me, at least they try to look so. truly, its very easy to tell pity and disgust from actual interest. boys my brother's age swarm me. i am strange. i created a new pinterest board. a "new me" inspo. i like it. this hot, trashy version of me. shes all i need to be. as long as im perfect, who needs friends. admiration would be all i need. treat me as a god, untouchable and vain. treat me as a friend, loving, but put me away when youre bored. treat me as a lover, buttering up until you have what you want. treat me as an enemy, cold glances and harsh tones, but recognize me nonetheless. treat me as a dog, give me your scraps, love me when im there, and leave me to rot. treat me as a child, innocent but stupid, amusing even. there are few things i feel i can truly ever get from life. will i ever make it to 21? what have i missed? what bucket list have i yet to check off? who will take me in when im all but gone? when will i kiss someone who loves me back? no ones awake. its 3 am.