#master apps

[todayesterday]

tomorrow i'll get the results to probably 2 very important academic-selection-prodecure-and-application related things and also i will have my first master apps interview and so naturally i am vibrating with crippling anxiety to the point where i feel like it's hard to even move my body because it is completely numb in fear i love having a health relationship with my academic life & goals

[todayesterday]

i'm doing readings to start working on the dissertation projects i need for master's apps and wondering why the fuck am i willingly about to submit myself to 2 years of torture. like why am i doing this to myself do i hate myself