29.05.2021
sooo lil update on my life. i might actually get my adhd diagnosis soon yayyy! i have one more appointment to go and then it’s all good, i will finally know what’s wrong with me lol. but also my therapist said that she suspects that ugh.... okay this is really weird... she wants me to do another evaluation bc she suspects that im gifted. like as in overly intelligent like high iq. and it makes me feel weird. bc yeah, i looked up giftedness and i guess it lines up...? like im very sensitive and have low self esteem and all that. but then... idk. it’s flattering and all. but i don’t believe in iq. and the term “gifted” just sounds off. idk it’s cool and all. but it feels wrong. but if i do have incredibly high iq then i’ll join a cult or like a secret society or something. that would be cool.
anyway, other than that, i feel like a bad girlfriend. again. bc i think that im very uninteresting. whatever i talk about, my bf is never interested in what i have to say. and he still hasn’t read the text i gave him back in like march. so im v frustrated. bc i try so hard to be interesting to him. i tried getting into cryptocurrency, i bake for him, whatever he talks about i try to look it up and stuff. but we’re just not interested in the same things! it’s sad but umm yeah
