Facts Continue to Change Their Shape
“No.” Steve looked at Cath, still on the bed but kneeling as if in penitence. “If this hadn’t happened, if Doris’ safe hadn’t been broken into and I hadn’t told you I knew she was lying, would you have mentioned it? Were you ever gonna tell me any of this?”
The hesitation of words stuck in her throat was the only answer he needed.
“Steve, no. You don’t mean that,” Catherine said. She reached out a hand. “It was a bad decision not to tell you.”
“Yes, it was.” Steve took several shaky breaths. “I don’t blame you. I don’t. I know better than anyone now how my mother can manipulate and bully. But you know me, Cath. You’ve known me longer than she has, and you…”
“And I thought I was protecting you,” Catherine said. “I love you.”
“I love you, too. I’m just not that sure it’s enough. You know me.” Steve’s eyes were hot, vision blurry and in this instance, it was better that he couldn’t see. “You know I’ve been lied to my whole life and you made that bad decision anyway. If you did it once, you could do it again, and I can’t take that risk right now. I can’t.”
Danny lay a hand on Steve’s forearm and squeezed. “Cath’s a good person. Maybe you just need time.”
“Maybe. I don’t know,” Steve said. He shook his head and felt more mixed-up than ever as far as Catherine was concerned. He’d hashed it all out in his head many times over and it wouldn’t completely reconcile. There were always spare pennies. Enormous trust issue sized pennies. “There isn’t a doubt in my mind she did it for good intentions. I’ve already forgiven her. I just don’t know if I can trust her again.”
I love that some fanfic writers obviously have a better grasp of Steve's character than the actual tv show writers seem to, because this fic? explains exactly why i do not for a minute believe Steve would just get back with Cath, just like that, all things forgiven and forgotten. Trust is something that's fundamental to every relationship, and with Steve, that goes tenfold. so, yeah
Also, i found myself very surprised to agree with everything that was written about Doris here.
This is not really a McDanno fic, but more of a Steve character study and an episode coda for 3.18.
the fic, more mcdanno recs