Curled in a ball, she sits atop a crate of dust in the back of the warehouse. Heels discarded to her side and stocking clad knees drawn to her chin in a feeble attempt to collapse in on herself and wink out of existence for even a moment; but no matter where she goes, Maman will find her, and drag her back by the hollow of her throat clutched in a vice of claws. A small bottle of gin hangs loosely from one hand as the other hangs limp to idly fiddle with the chain of crystals around her ankle while dim eyes stare blindly into the shadows of the building.
These nights were always the worst; the nights spent awake as the spirit of the fall maiden thrashed about in her body, beating and berating her own soul in a manner most agonizing, and she thinks of cursing the name of her benefactor. She wants to curse her. She wants to spit in the face of the woman who took her in, who gave her life purpose, who granted her every wish. To curse the name of the most powerful woman to ever draw breath. A sad smirk crosses her lips as she lifts the bottle and takes a heavy swig as a thought crosses her mind.
Maybe if I were desperate.
Soft footsteps reverberated through the metal beneath her form, but tonight she would have welcomed a knife between her shoulder blades. But no pain comes, save for the shrieking suffering clattering about within the walls of her own skull; the heavy scent of cigars and expensively cheap cologne meets her nose and she curls in further upon herself.
Roman sits quietly beside her, breaking the smothering void with a simple question that she lets hang over her shoulders like a shawl of wet wool; freezing her to her bones yet provided a strange comfort. Another mouthful of gin and a cough most unladylike as she underestimates her drinking prowess, and Cinder answers with another question:
“Do you believe in destiny?”