#medstruggles

[comeandwhisper]

When you're makeup is fucked up from crying because of your med change and you can't stop shaking at the public library and you just want to feel NORMAL. #mentalhealthaintcute #medstruggles #bipolartype2

[cherimd]

Me on Christmas break

“You should be doing something apart from med.”

Okay, so what should I be doing that is non-med?

What are my hobbies? What is it that i love doing aside from med? Why do I feel like I don’t have one?

Badminton? Stargazing? I’m not even adept in Astronomy. Astrology? Why does it feel irrelevant? I’m looking for something that I can share, something that feels productive. Not just watching TV, reading a book. How about calligraphy? No. I’m not that good at it. I don’t have the tools. I’m really not that into it. Making music? I play the guitar. I can sing. Perhaps I could set a cover until I go back to QC. What do you think? But can I do some other things? I don’t feel like starting my readings for next year. I want to do something like that of Dani (the typewritten poetry), or AnthRab (the haiku). What if I continue making graphics with Inkscape? Perhaps I could do another piece this break. But I’m afraid I’d be running out of creative ideas. And besides, all I’m really doing is like copying a piece. Perhaps that’s what I’m really good at, copying. I’ve got no originality. What am I going to do? Painting? I don’t have the materials. Puzzles? I really want to do a jigsaw puzzle. But I don’t have one.

I want to learn to do something new. I want to be great at whatever that would be. I want it so badly.

*sighs*

[1out-of-7billion]

I really didn't want to take my meds today but I did so I ate brownies because meds will help me better myself in life and recognizing that deserves a brownie

[the-struggle-chronicles]

That feeling...

When you lost your dissection kit and despite all efforts can't find it