#melliott

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a little bit too much

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CAUSE IF YOU CANT HATE ME I CANT HATE MYSELF..!

I made this so long ago (..3 days ago.) but NEVER POSTED IT but seeing the amount of. Love there is for them I was like “oh why not then..!” ANWHAYS oh this song is so THEM god bless my friend @. fuerrziah for fucking TELLING ME THIS BECAUSE I.!!-!:!/!!:: OH THIS HAS BEEN ON MY MIND SINCE FOREVER.

God. Anyways. Yeah. ALSO ELLIOTT’S AHIR IS UP please ignore that ACTUALLY DONT I like it when his hair is up hahahahaha…

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Okay.

…Okay.

THIS WAS SO FUN OH MY GOD I need to do more melliott again RMEIND ME PLEASE PLEASEEE oh I hate them. Also anyone who understands the reference firsthand gets like. 10 dollars. Not from me though I’m broke as hell. [the movie destroyed me. the girl is so me.. good god]

REFERENCE BTW

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it’s been awhile since I talked about them, has it?

I don’t think Elliott would share any to much disdain towards Mivvy. That’s not saying that he doesn’t have a problem with anything, because how he confronts him about this constant self hatred and guilt he harbors since being unable to “get over” his trauma.

Very fairly enough, it’s poorly worded, and furthermore Elliott comes into apology for it later— but not without addressing the problem, again, which is his “mediocrity complex.” All this to say that to Elliott, like any other person, Mivvy’s constant suffering, distress, and self sabotage comes down to just this never-ending car crash he’s then apart of.

Truthfully, and god does he love Mivvy, he wants to see him get better he really does, he knows Mivvy loves him back but his insecurities are all that’s holding him back and if he refuses to get help in absolute fear of being burdensome and lacking independence (despite literally exhibiting codependency) he clearly has a very, very fragile ego and lack of self.

Nonetheless, he doesn’t yet realize that this mindset also causes him to lash out at Elliott (hence why I said Elliott knew Mivvy loved him back, yada yada.) and any sense of affection he can show is through sex. (This is not a. Fun. Fanservice-esque thing, this is trauma-induced.) so it’s not absurd to say that how Mivvy treated Elliott, despite how he truly saw him— was, on some level: toxic.

This is a cycle problem, this is actively Mivvy enduring the cycle that causes him to push people away and also why he’s so scared of Elliott, who desperately runs after him because he wants to help Mivvy, he does— and he succeeds in a way Mivvy never wanted him to. That’s not to say that Elliott said “this isn’t you” to him, but it came onto the point they both had to process what happened.

This sounds like angst porn, I know, I’m sorry. I just want to demonstrate a visibly mentally unstable and obsessed character who forcibly makes himself hurtful to be around, only to realize that this is actually. Something he never really wanted, truly (e.g. when Elliott confronts him about his avoidance and how it hurts him so much that Mivvy keeps on going back to his destructive habits just to avoid what’s truly wrong with him, saying he would completely, and unwillingly leave if nothing ever changed then— surging him with so much fear that he began to just. Try. One last time— truly. In which sounds absurd, but I want to call back that Mivvy is so. Infatuated and inherently dependent on Elliott, since he is the only person that has also made him feel seen.)

And to put in emphasis, his behaviors put so much strain on Elliott but not enough to get to the point where he was that he took a week off writing to again, process what was going on— delaying the date of his publication. Obviously, and after, Mivvy tried to make it all up to him— surprising also because of how much resentment and unseriousness he treats his writing as a front to his absolute admiration and envy for being.

He’s sorry because he loves Elliott, and he’s been more sorry because Elliott loves him. Fuck, he wish he didn’t— he wish he didn’t love him so much, and Mivvy wishes he didn’t love him more.

TL;DR poor them.

[melonae]

oh but you wouldn’t.

strange off putting melliott that has a greater and sinister meaning? You Bet..!

and hello to the 5 melliott fans <3

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upper hand

I never watched Princess Mononoke, but I wanted to redraw a scene for fun before I move onto higher priorities!!!!!

I think the gun metaphor which you’ve.. hopefully.. seen before IS actually what he’s done to cut people off, call them better off as dead in his own mind so he can mourn and forget (he doesn’t. oh, he doesn’t. It’s much worse.) he tries to find words to twist, reasons and reasons to hate whatever situation he’s in and people he’s with just to dig a deeper hole for himself because he knows no way but down.

the idea of someone like Elliott wanting to spend the rest of his days with Mivvy like a pure lover absolutely terrifies and angers him, as if that also wasn’t evident. he can’t pull the trigger, though, because this is the thing he wanted more than anything, both his cowardice prevents him from walking into his embrace and leaving pelican town for good.

sorry if this doesn’t make sense either I’m so fucking spent, goodnight!!!!

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SUGGESTIVE

red.

boys agter they’re unable to express how willing they are to love and die for someone so they just bite a chunk out of them while getting it on

sorry that’s too much to describe at once isn’t it

anyways, I want to shamelessly admit that I based this off of the panel where reze bites denji’s tongue off except this one is more. Uhm. Uhh. Uhhhh.

anyways…!!!! :3 yeah. yeah Yea heyyyYyeahhh…

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I've been watching your animatic on repeat for a good part of the last few days! First, I want to say thanks for making it and sharing it!

Second, if you're up to it, I would love to hear your commentary on each shot! From what I could gather, Elliott and Mivvy have quite a tumultuous relationship! What makes it that way? And can you as the artist/writer see them get better?

Oh, oh man dude.

This means a lot to me, genuinely. First off, thank you, thank you so much.

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Second off, get ready for some words❤️ and insanely, incredible reaching for some points but stick with me here.

This whole parts’— scene, going up to “Mivvy Walking away from Elliott” dialogue is something being said BY Elliott, hence the quotation marks, not his exact words but “why are they laughing when it gets to that point? what happened? what IS happening?!”

Well, they’re drunk, not very easy to show but they ARE drunk in the first frame and that FEELING is what gets them CLOSER. They’re enemies, well, one-sided. Right— and Elliott misses those nights even if it made him hungover the next day, and he would do anything to feel it again if it meant remembering the night(s) prior.

Although the second “scene” isn’t too deep. I want to say that Willy is NOT an antagonist in Mivvy’s schtick. He distances himself from Elliott a LOT and by “distance” I mean he fucking runs away from him. He gets jealous CRAZY and not “IM GOING TO KILL HIM!!” Crazy he HATES himself, he hates himself so much he’d take an excuse for anything just so he can beat himself down for just. Fumbling. For messing up— for failing to take that chance to overcome his deepest traumas and insecurities he has a cycle and he WILL REPEAT IT (according to himself.. and me! but because I want him dead .joke)

This part’s important.

to me at least. “Are they fucking???” Yes. They are. But it goes beyond a sexual act CLEARLY for Mivvy because another thing is that he doesn’t allow himself to (romantically, platonic appears to be an exception but even he feels AWFUL about it sometimes) love someone without feeling deeply, deeply compromised or guilty about it. He doesn’t think he can love that he can only HOPE he is even capable of it— feeling it, showing it.

so why are they having intercourse? Let me tell you a secret.

I cut out a frame of Mivvy holding Elliott’s hand in that scene, which puts emphasis on his despair. He, Mivvy, can’t show any blatant sort of sign he loves someone unless it’s during sex. Hand holding? Kissing? Bodily praise? GENERAL praise? only during sex or else he’d feel just awful. Like “oh it can’t be that bad” no it’s like “I will never look at your direction for an unelaborated period of time after this. I will have visceral thoughts of never coming back from the place I call home now that it will become like a daydream. I will die.”

type bad.

He can allow himself to see true happiness in Elliott when he’s blowing his hole ykwim. because he’s doing something good for him that time, doing something that although never will be worthwhile, will make him want for a reason worthy of wanting him.

Now these. And FINALLY these.

To anyone who hasn’t SEEN the animatic (which I hope you DID) this is an obvious display to their past and how it’s “affected” them, kinda— but also very affiliated to how their current selves interact in that sense.

Both (Mivvy in Canon, Elliott to my interpretation) had harsh upbringings: never been believed for a second, being tormented by the thought of never making it and rather being so humiliated and even WORSE— never having their name known to anyone but the people who knew this was going to happen.

HOWEVER. There are two outcomes, and both of them take a different one.

Elliott constantly persists with his passions, hence what makes him eventually, a successful author. His progression is slow but he knows this is something meant for him despite every hurdle he comes across— because he loves it, even if he’s nervous about if this is the right way to go or not sometimes, he knows fully that whatever word was said about him never making it is absurd.

Mivvy, on the other hand. Sees being a farmer as his last resort. In other words, he’s given up on everything that made his identity as a creative: his dreams. Nobody really knows this except for a few people but nobody truly knows that it fucking kills him.

He envies Elliott so much it makes him almost violent, it makes him scared of him it makes him want to do something awful. Hence why he looks away in the first frame of this, whilst Elliott looks directly at him like he’s REACHING out for him and mivvy slaps his hand away or runs.. away..

“So what about the second part?”

Elliott doesn’t run away, no. But at a certain point there’s always going to be a line, and when Elliott is a lot more upfront and being like “get more support PLEASE or I won’t even dare talk to you anymore.” And a LOT more concerned at that point it’s like Mivvy holding a hand out to be met with such nervousness and even distrust/unpredictability

Elliott still loves mivvy, yes. But he’d rather be heartbroken than watch Mivvy break over every aspect that is his life. He can’t keep chasing something far faster than his legs can ever imagine especially when there’s a speed limit. (METAPHORICAL) he’s trying, but he also knows himself well.

This is where their Relationship begins to take a curve for the better(?) Mivvy gets help, gets THERAPY actually.

The animatic is just the most condensed version of THEM, I promise you truly it isn’t just them. But let me answer your other question.

“Elliott and Mivvy have quite the tumultuous relationship, what makes it that way?” Elliott’s persistence to push forward and Mivvy’s fear to come closer.

Sorry for the late response This made me SO happy but I’m writing a fic right now so it occupied my time. Not finished yet, but even so I had a fun time writing this! So hey, if you (anyone) has anymore asks do NOT. NEVERRR BE AFRAID TO ASK TEJM!!1!:!2!: PLEASE

AAAAanyways! Again, thank you so much. Here’s a treat!!!