#melsreality

[nikefan45]

Some Early Truth

I've never been able to talk to someone the way I can to her.

I can tell her what's on my mind no matter what it is.

She will talk to me about what I tell her, won't yell, scream or laugh.

She understands me.

This helps me so much, I don't bottle it up inside of me and let it eat at me and tear me up inside. 

There are hurdles in front of us but I know it's nothing we can't get over.

I will never let her go.

[nikefan45]

3:11

Wide Awake

Pillows make shitty replacements

Some days are harder then others

Frustrated...At myself

I want to wake at 3:11 with you in my arms

[pandemiclaughter]

I'm tired of this shit.

I'm sick of being at school all day and working all night on school.  There is no fucking way I can even make it to the gym tonight....that's all I wanted to do.  I'm sick of being so busy that I can't make it to the gym on a day I also went to school.  I make it every day during the week, I was just trying to make it everyday this week---including weekend, it's just not going to happen today. 

And now I feel guilty for taking the moment to sit here and bitch about not having time, because this just took some time from my paper and online module and exam and I haven't even cracked a book to study and I have another big paper due next week and I'm pretty sure I have a quiz on Monday and all my clinical paperwork is due soon and I'm going to play with Mel tomorrow regardless of all this, because I need to have a little, just a little bit of fun in my life. 

[nikefan45]

Friday 5

Been awhile since I've done this, I'll give it my best shot 1. All relationships have arguments, it's why make up sex is awesome! But having to wait for make up sex sucks. 2. I've spent less time on Tumblr but more time reading books...I'm happy about that. 3. Mel is a beautiful woman and I know many wonder why she chose to be with me...I have no clue either, but she did and I do my best to make her happy. 4. I missed the drama yesterday but kinda figured some of it out. You are all beautiful people, it's nice when everyone sticks up for each other. 5. I'm thinking it's a movie weekend.

[nikefan45]

Day 14

It's Monday right? I feel a little lost on what day it is.

I'm already in pajamas and I am ready for bed.

The Seahawks game yesterday was incredible. Even though they lost it was great to see them come back. I think I went through ever emotion in that game, threw a cloth napkin across the room a few times, screamed, yelled at the TV and the best part was I got to do all of this with Mel. I've been following the Seahawks for 37 years and I enjoyed this season as much as the Super Bowl season, so excited for next season.

Apple gave me a new iPad Mini, it's already boxed and on it's way back to Nikefan45 2.0.

Nikefan45 2.0 is heading to Washington DC on Friday, he will be there for 5 days to see all the sites and the presidential inauguration next week.

It gets harder and harder to come home. 

[nikefan45]

Day 10

Thursday was a pretty normal boring day, this is the problem when writing out your day and nothing to write. Maybe these boring days will inspire me to have re fun or do more things???

Do you ever have a word pop into your head thinking it means something but you can't figure out what it means??? Yesterday that word was flame.

HH at Blue Mesa, none of the regulars were there and I felt out of place.

Packed last night for my weekend getaway. I love my weekends with her, it's when we get to be a couple together instead of 7 hours between us.

[nikefan45]

Day 8 with some Truth

Its easier for me to think of things to write about using pen and paper then it is on the phone/computer.

I was going to go to BWW for wing Tuesday but it's raining and don't feel like going out. So I've started drinking wine and going to watch The Bourne Legacy.

I really like candles, makes the room peaceful and love the flame in the dark.

Heading to Memphis this weekend to see Mel, she'll get to experience Seahawks playoff football with me (wish her luck).         

[nikefan45]

Day 7 on 8

Fell behind a day so need to get 7 out early.

Met the internet last night for beers, it’s not really meeting the internet anymore but meeting friends.

6 months doesn’t seem like a long time, it’s gone by fast and I have loved every minute of it. I look forward to each new day with you.

Getting back into the routine, the holidays are always fun but it’s nice to get back into the routine…it’s less rushed.

This week there are 6 coworkers that are retiring from work, I have been there almost 10 years and 3 of them I have worked everyday with, it’s going to be weird to see them leave.