#meltdown?

[cb-writes-stuff]

Asks will have to wait until I’m not

Whatever this is

I don’t know

[totaltrauma]

Okay so someone suggested I use song titles, and like. The ones I’ve been struggling the most to name are the Zoey ones for whatever reason and now I’ve realized I can be even more obnoxious than I already am and name them after Vocaloid songs........... BWAHAHA YESSSSS

[suitemadameblue]

it is too dark with sunlight lamp off. it is too bright with sunlight lap on. it is too loud in house. music is super hit or miss right now. noise cancelling headphones are tight and make my headache worse. i’m having a meltdown(?), my whole body hurts, and my final paper need 8 more pages in two hours. can someone please come kill me. 

[owl-cordon-blu]

You ever have moments where you just suddenly feel fear and anger for absolutely no reason and you want to scream but you're lowkey dissociating so hard you cant even really process what the fuck is happening??

[cutmefromthelight]

now that I know the signs of an impending meltdown, I think I almost had one.  I had been on edge all day because of my mom, and when we went into town this evening, she kept correcting me on things regarding training my dog even though HER dog has no training.  And my dog wasn’t cooperating and there was music and I couldn’t think so I snapped at her.  Then, when we got back in the car to go home, she wanted me to explain something to her, but I had trouble getting the words out.  Finally, when we got home, my brain was buzzing and it almost hurt to talk to people and I wanted to scream and cry but I managed to calm myself down by watching Bones.  So yeah, I think I was on the verge of a meltdown.  But if I wasn’t, please correct me!  I might have just been overly irritated :/

[cutmefromthelight]

I’ve been trying to think of examples of when I might have had a meltdown so I can share them with my therapist on Tuesday, but I’m having difficulty.  I’ve thought of one possible example.

I’d had a pretty stressful day at college, running all over the place trying to get everything packed and ready before I went home for the weekend to pick up my emotional support dog.  I was beginning to feel relieved when I got on the bus and the bus was about to leave, and then I realized that I’d left my glasses in my dorm room.  I don’t need my glasses to drive (I was planning on driving back to campus on Sunday with my new dog), but I prefer it (and I’m technically legally required to wear them).  I started to feel panicked and angry, and I asked the bus driver if I could quickly get my glasses from my dorm room.  He said no, and I went back to my seat.  I knew I had to be calm because I was on public transportation, but inside I was screaming.  I couldn’t believe how stupid I was, how I couldn’t do anything right, and I tried to calm myself down and tell myself that I could use my old glasses at home, but that didn’t help.  My mom called, but I ignored her because I didn’t want to risk snapping at her with the state I was in.  I wanted to scream and cry and hit myself and maybe even bang my head on something.  All because I forgot my glasses in my dorm room.  Was this a meltdown, or was I just overreacting?

[divine-garbage]

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