THE MERCIFUL OF ALLAH SWT
tonight, hard for me to sleep. actually lately. I was thinking of something, something about me. try to absorbing the lack of myself. i know everyone isn't perfect. there are always weaknesses also strengths on themselves. whether its physical or spiritual.
but somehow i feel there's something missing in my heart. i tried to pondering it. and i know what it was
my faith:)
i realized, lately i did so many sins. I'm too focused with my campus-work, too focused with my scholarship, and too having fun with my new friends until i forgot my creator. i rarely recited al-qur'an, and after i prayed i immediately left and didn't say a words of forgiveness. i was like "well at least ive did my responsibility as His servants".
For all my brothers and sisters, please don't think like that. that's totally wrong. ofc shalah is your responsibility as His servants,did you know that God is longing to talk with us? but He wants to be a place you rely on, a place whenever you need a time for a rest, calmness. He's the only place to find the best peace from any other best places in this temporary world.
and now I'm regretting it. how can i did that? me, tiny human that full of sins and don't have anything to be proud of as a servant.
but Allah swt, with His extraordinary kindness still bestows His mercy upon this very despicable servant.
ashamed appears all over myself. feel myself so nasty. i want to change, but I need a motivator and mostly reminder. is there anyone can help me?