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“Never say ‘no’ to adventures. Always say ‘yes,’ otherwise you’ll lead a very dull life.”

— Ian Fleming

people come and go but the right one will always stay.

and I chose to stay for you

I miss you so bad, I miss the way you pinched my cheeks while saying "gemes bgtt km ini", when you grabbed my hands, when I looked so tiny while you were hugging me tightly, when you kissed and stroked the top of my head while I was clinging into your chest. I also miss when you leaned your head on my shoulder while saying "ak ngantuk bgt" and you put your hand on mine while rubbing it so subtly. I miss when you spooned me and since you're so big, you said "km ky adekku jdnya" while laughing so beautifully. I miss your deep stare that weakened me very easily (even now) and said "km cantik." then smiled at me afterwards. I miss you so bad, I don't want anyone else in this world unless it's you. if I given the chance from God to get you back into my life, I promise l'll make it work this time for a lifetime. I miss you.

Kaki-kaki itu melangkah pelan, dengan penampilan rapi, rambut klimis, alis tegas, serta tubuh jangkung semampai yang membuatku mendongak melihatnya. Tatapan tajam yang penuh hasrat namun tenang, berhasil menghipnotis diriku tenggelam ke dalamnya. Tangan yang kokoh tanpa ragu menyergapku dengan lembut di ujung sana, perlahan namun pasti mulai berjalan ke paras, jari-jari itu memindai setiap detailnya dengan intim. Tanpa sadar, bagian anatomi tanpa tulang saling menyatu dengan rakus, mengecap tiap jengkal, memberi teritori kepemilikan mutlak. Sunyi, mulut membisu, telinga menuli, waktu berhenti, kamulah poros perputaran dunia saat itu.

— enviedesolitary.

ousia-poetica

That kind of luck that they call love, I carry it painted on my heart.

what makes me disappointed is not about your past story but when you couldn't answer the simple question I gave.

Aku sayang kamu, tapi bukan berarti aku akan terus sendirian hanya karena aku menyayangimu sedang kamu tidak.

Like a white canvas, that's my life. Sadly I couldn't even paint my own canvas because it was people around me who painted it with the colours they wanted until I met you.

Thanks, because of you I can be myself, do whatever I want and now I'm able to paint my own canvas💜

apparently it has never been my goodbye.

#Spotify

Tolong ya, jangan tanya lagi apa aku masih mencintaimu atau tidak. Memangnya, perlakuanku padamu kurang membuktikan?

I'm not ready yet.

Awal pertama kali mengenalmu, aku tidak pernah melihat apa-apa dari dirimu.

Kau tidak kaya, kau tidak berduit, kau juga bukan lelaki yang suka bergaya sana-sini mengikuti jaman.

Kau bahkan mengatakan sendiri kepadaku bahwa kau memang belum memiliki apa-apa. Hanya pikiran luar biasa dan tingkah laku baikmu yang kau punya dan berhasil membuatku jatuh cinta hanya dalam hitungan hari.

"Kalau sekarang belum bisa punya uang banyak, kamu nggak papa kan?" Katamu saat itu.

Aku menanggapinya dengan lelucon seolah berkata aku tidak mau denganmu. Padahal batinku sudah berteriak, tak peduli dengan kondisimu aku akan tetap menemanimu.

"Jelas tidak apa! Tak usah meragukan cintaku yang bahkan sudah totalitas hanya untukmu."

Sayang aku pemalu, lebih suka mengelak daripada berkata yang sejujurnya.

thetinypsychologist

MOTIVATION VS SELF-DISCIPLINE

When studying, most people try to find motivation thinking that this will get them through their study session, or they will see their failure as a result of a lack of motivation. But motivation isn’t always what we need - what do you do on the days you have no motivation? This is why we need self-discipline.

MOTIVATION VS SELF DISCIPLINE

Motivation - a willingness to do something. It is the set of psychological forces that compel you to take action. A goal or reward that you look forward to that will encourage you to study - while this is useful, what happens on a day when you just don’t feel like studying?

Self-Discipline - making yourself do things you know you should do when you don’t want to. Being trained to routinely study regardless of how unmotivated you are - this is what will get you out of bed on a day you don’t feel like studying.

So if motivation is ‘why we should do something’ - self-discipline is more ‘what to do next’.

HOW TO BE SELF-DISCIPLINED

Make a commitment with yourself that you will make studying as your habit. This is super important. Commit yourself to make this as your new habit. Don’t half-ass any of these suggestions or any other suggestions that other people give. Don’t give yourself silly, illegitimate excuses in the process. For this, you can do it by remind yourself on what your long-term goals in life are. Or if they don’t sound rewarding enough, remind yourself what failure feels like/ could feel like.

Set yourself a routine and stick to it

Never have a zero day - try and study every single day - even if you feel absolutely awful - 10 minutes is better than nothing!! Do flashcards from your bed or watch youtube ted talks if you can’t physically study. This will help help develop a routine and make it easier for you to cope. Also, by studying everyday your brain will know that the content you are learning should be stored as long-term information so this will benefit you in the long run!

Avoid long breaks. Unless you know that taking an hour long break means only an hour, then you can ignore this. But fo the majority of us, once we’ve taken a while out of studying it can be hard to get back into it again. One minute you’re taking a 20 minute break for a snack and some phone time and the next thing you know you’re on Youtube and four hours have passed! To avoid this, try stick to shorter breaks - five or ten minutes for a snack break, toilet break and to check any phone messages. A good method to try for this is the Pomodoro Method!

Build on your productivity, not your failures.

If you come from a past of procrastinating and now feel motivated to change and discipline yourself, do NOT try to do everything at once. Start things slow and in steps.

Set yourself smaller deadlines for your goals like monthly and weekly deadlines - e.g. if you are doing a project, due 27th June, set personal deadlines, like have the introduction written by the 8th, have your literature review written by the 15th, have project complete by the 25th.

Break down the things that you must do into smaller, concrete activities and put those smaller activities in that to-do list; allocate specific time periods to do each smaller activities and put it the to-do list as well; set an alarm reminder for each smaller activities. Say you have to study for English on Tuesday, because for whatever reasons you just decided to dedicate your time this Tuesday to study English. However, I’d suggest that you break down that specific activity (or “daily goal”) before putting it in your to-do list. So, instead of just putting “study for Physics”, try putting “read and highlight Chapter 9″, because putting very general/broad activity like “study English” can actually make you too confused on where and how to start doing it, and make you very prone to distractions in the process.

Know your limits. Self-discipline isn’t doing as much as you can until you break - it’s about having control, knowing what you can realistically manage and getting that done.

Give yourself rewards! I love to have something to look forward to as I get work done! This means mixing motivation and self-discipline. I tell myself after this lecture I can have an animal crossing break or check some messages etc.

Track your progress – don’t forget to put a checklist on your to-do list after accomplishing a task. It would relieve your stress a bit and motivate you to continue doing the remaining activities on your to-do list.

Remove distractions from your study space! Personally, if my phone is out and I notice a notification…I’m gonna check it. It’s human nature! So to combat this, I use apps like Forest that force me to stay within the app while I study. If I know I might get hungry during a study session I’ll keep a little snack by my desk so I don’t have to get up and somehow find something else to distract me.

Just do it isn’t that easy. I find to get myself in a ‘work boss’ mood I need to feel good about myself so I put on a nice outfit and maybe some eyeliner and hype myself up so I know I can do my tasks and get stuff done! It feels so much better than lazing in my pyjamas trying to study.

Be patient. It’s going to be a rough journey, it’s going to be hard but you’ve got this! Take it one step at a time. Start off by completing one task a day, then move to two, then three, and the next thing you know, you’ll have a regular routine where you will constantly be ticking off your to-do list everyday! But remember to be kind to yourself, know when your body is not in the right state of health to study and don’t force it. Only force yourself to a limit, you’ll know when to stop and that’s okay. Just try again when you feel better! Your health is much more important!