wish i could give blood.
this past weekend my grandfather has been in the hospital under extreme care. he has been continuously losing blood and they can't figure out why. i found out that he has had three blood transfusions in the last 48 hours or so. i just want to say thank you to all the amazing people out there who give blood. whether you give it one time in your life or every year, thank you. you've helped save someone's life. and that's wonderful. in an attempt to overcome my extreme fear of needles, this year i tried to give blood at the school blood drive. but i couldn't do it. i just kept crying. and crying. and crying. im still mad at myself about it. i wish i could feel like i've helped save someone's life by giving blood, but instead i just feel like a failure.
i did talk to my grandpa today, though. he's such a brave man. i asked him how he was and he just said, "well it's better than losing my mind, right?!" i love him so much<3 please keep him in your thoughts.(: