#merylstreeeps

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maybe im just in desperate need of reassurance but what makes you think, from the conversation between leah and serena, they didnt sleep together? :( bc when leah comes into the office she goes *knock knock sleepy–* and that just really did not bode well with me? maybe im just a needy lesbian in desperate need of reassurance that it’s all gonna be okay but I really dont see how :’(

the ‘i dont want to be a problem for you two’ bit in their convo just after Bernie’s arrived back. That’s not something you say to someone you’ve just fucked when their partner pops up out of the blue. 

So whatever physically happened between them isn’t cut and dry.

they’re definitely affectionate beyond purely platonic levels, but i really dont think they fucked. what they got up to behind closed doors might not be above board, but it def was above the waist (hence the mention of snog and a snuggle in prev. post)

Also, my focus in this isn’t berena staying together. I care more about the characters having healthy interactions in universe while balancing the logistics of actor schedules and the narratives the writers room have chosen to write. 

berena is endgame. that much is fkn obvious. unless something happens that takes Redgrave reappearing in the future off the table, Bernie and Serena are going to ride off into the sunset together when Russell finally leaves to work on a different project. 

but endgame doesnt mean they have to stay together. 

frankly, given what they agreed to during Redgrave’s last appearance, I expected them to be on a break this entire time, and free to see other ppl should they so wish. that’s not what the writers went w (tho i dont know why, bc it would have made things so much simpler, and forced themt to give Russell something non berena related to stay on the show which would have been better for the story anyway), but for me, ‘wait for me’ didnt mean ‘we’re going to do this long distance’; it meant ‘we’ll part now bc it’s not healthy for us, and we’ll be together again when it is.’

And i think that’s what this portion of their story is going to be: them realising that they need either accommodate each other’s needs in a different way, or part ways for now. 

besides, this way we get to see be in love and actually get their shit together when they do get Regrave’s contract back in the game, and their relationship gets the time and space it warrants. and it’ll be all the sweeter for it

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@ellychandlers @merylstreeeps: HONESTLY THO??? HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ANYTHING MORE BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR WHOLE LIFE???

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oh my god lordi is rolling in his grave (even tho he isnt dead) we have ours in march, idk why it’s so late :/

I don’t know why ours is so early. All these months of waiting for the inevitable failure lol.

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WHA T THE FCUK

she's not going to stop until she has MURDERED US

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@merylstreeeps y e a h  b o i i did some readings and *thumbs up* did you end up deciding on Bernie’s starsign?

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@merylstreeeps when i first started Holby i was skim watching at 2 in the morning hoping for something mindless to pass through a bout of insomnia. I started at Bernie’s introduction bc the character seemed interesting and I kinda recognised Redgrave and then I feel in love w Bernie almost immediately then focused in on her as I kept skipping. I didn’t start watching Serena’s scenes till i was legit invested in everything but by that time they’d started being friends and most of their scenes were together and I’ve never backtracked till now and im kinda glad bc now i have so much happy to watch during the sabbatical :)))

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@merylstreeeps hella for head!canon-y goodness :)))

I’M SO SAD THAT THEY WERE ALONE but also im blessED bc this timing fits in perfects w the fic im working on rn so hella y i i i s !!! BUT MAINLY IM JUST SAD BC ALSO THIS FIC THE LEGIT THE ANGSTEST THING IVE EVER FUCKING WRITTEN LIKE ITS GOTTEN SO MUCH WORSE SINCE THE SNIPPET I TACKED ONTO UR POST AND I AM S O  S A D 

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bernie is civvies or serena in scrubs?

Bernie in civvies has added at least five years to my life so far, so it’d be ungrateful of me to choose anything else. (But also where do i submit a formal request for Bernie in uniform?)