#mesa talks

[joenessalovesu]

tonight is a battle between mother and sister, featuring ME!

which side am i on?

TBD.

((actually, i already know, but it’s nice to keep those who read this in suspense))

[mesacat13]

*shuffles up* Well if you do find any good TMNT fanfiction don't be afraid to share, I love AU's and your awesome art has me really craving some Shedder-raised turtles hahuehjfgdf

I don’t know any fics where they are raised by the Shredder, (though there is an AU where Leo is raised by Tigerclaw and works with the footclan, its called No Love is Greater by Sesshomarusama3) but I do know some good ones. All this are on Fanfiction: Unbreakable by Americanpyscho (its kinda dark and is about Michelangelo), Underdark by Nekotsuki (about Michelangelo and Leonardo 2003) and Shattered by Sesshomarusama3 ( about 2012 Leo after the season 2 finale). Those are the ones that pop into my head as of right now. I know I’ve read some really cute ones but I cant think of the titles at the moment.  The only other Au I’ve read is Adventures in Turtle Sitting by Flynne where April babysits the turtles when they were smaller (its a cute read)

[mesacat13]

Kinda have an art block

I don’t know what to draw, so if anyone would like to suggest something, feel free to message me. Maybe you can help spark my imagination, haha

Tmnt (2012, 2003, idw comics) prompts would be great, any character/characters you’d like (Nothing nsfw) Thanks!

[iamnoteither-blog]

Why do people like the thrill of horror movies? I'm sitting here in the dark by myself (not completely dark cuz I have Christmas lights but even if the all the lights were on, that wouldn't make any difference) watching the Pilot of Fear TWD. Because I got used to TWD so I thought, eh, it wouldn't affect me anymore. But holy fuck I keep waiting for shit to go down and I'm having so much anxiety...and yet. Here I am. ...I keep waiting for that old guy to die while the kid's in restraints (especially because they're keeping his arm/not his face in frame as they talkkkkk)

[iamnoteither-blog]

Letters don't have titles...or do they?

So I started to write letters a while back. Some to myself, but most to an actual person. I liked putting them in envelopes, writing their address and mine, placing the postage just so because I’m a tad OCD, and sealing with a lick of the gross sweet sticky envelope thing(don’t like that part so much). Sending it off and getting their message that it was recieved gives me a great feeling too.

I liked the writing part too. It is relaxing. To just sit in a place and pour out my stream of conscious. Sometimes I write with an intended topic in mind though even then I tend to digress, but mostly I just write whatever comes to mind.

I’ve always wanted to write but I got stuck at the computer screen. Still do for essays. Figured out that when I start by writing with pen and paper, my thoughts organize themselves differently and everything comes somewhat easyer. I still make mistakes and cross things out, but though it can be deleted on a screen, I can see it on the paper. Though they are mistakes, the proof of their existance remains. The proof that I am writing what is in my head rather than what is polished, is there for me, and my reader, to see.

I am a horrible speller. If it sounds correct, that’s how I spell it…but that isn’t how this language works. I am not so great at proper grammar either. I actually just spelled ‘grammar’ wrong but my keyboard corrected it. These things are hidden (for the most part) in my essays and in emails, etc. Sometimes I am repetative as well. My English professor told me I ‘weave the previous paragraph’s topic into the next and the next and so on’. I thought that was a bad thing but, for a research paper, apparently not.

Sometimes my letters aren’t for the reader. Sure I’m writing to a ‘you’ and a ‘dear’ and I write about a topic they somewhat know, but the letter becomes more like a journal. A hard copy of what I think and feel and consider important. A piece of me I share because it’s good for me. Pieces of me to be held in someone else’s hands. Like this one.

This “letter” isn’t addressed to anyone. It won’t be signed or stamped or mailed. And I don’t mind if it’s not read. Because it’s for me. My thoughts placed outside myself for a different perspective.

Knowing I want to write more but that I don’t really write much, my boyfriend asked me to write for him on my blog. He knows my letters but not my digital writing. He made it a new year promise that I would because he believes I’ll be good at it and it’ll be good for me.

I know resolutions are meant to be made by and for one’s self. Meant to be kept as a show of will by one’s self. But I appreciate the support and encouragement in my pursuits by someone I love that will push me to be better. 

So. More “letters” to come.

[iamnoteither-blog]

Broke a New Years tradition this year and I'm sad. Also sad because I can't remember if it was broken last year first or if this is the first year it's been broken...

[iamnoteither-blog]

I'm really horrible at maintaining connections. ...when the other also doesn't reach out, are they horrible at it too? or...do they not care as much as I do...as much as I feel but may not show. Do they not think about it as much as I do? Does it effect them? Do they wish I would say something, anything, to remind them they are important to me too? Probably not.

[iamnoteither-blog]

Can someone explain why people (if tumblr can be called people) are soooo ready (and complain a lot about ) or a show about a homosexual couple and or person yet I never see anything about Callie and Arazona on Gret's Anatomy? The show isn't only about them but neither is it only about any one of the characters. A disabled white (oh nooo) woman married to a Latina (or maybe Greek I can't rember where she's from) woman raising a daughter. Also. Officer Peck and her girlfriend who's name has slipped my mind one of whom is seeking to adopt a daughter on Rookie Blue (Canadian). Why? Maybe it's because, within the show, three of these women realized that they sre lesbians rather than growing up knowing and not having liked men at all. Or maybe it's because they are women and, as the trend in fan fiction goes, they just aren't as realistic or interesting enough because they aren't men. And or because they could just be lesbians because some man decided it and they aren't meant for their relationship but rather for the development of some male character. Please. Explain. Is it because they're not teenagers in an angsty young adult novel? The shows just aren't hyped and new and flashy enough? I don't understand.