#metatronian

[havetardiswilltimetravel]

I know exactly what you mean, actually. I've been places before, like a party or a wedding where I'd be extremely nervous to the point I felt like throwing up and I couldn't breath, and yet somehow people don't believe me when I say I'm shy and have social anxiety. They all think I'm extroverted and upbeat, telling me I was the first person to talk to them and introduce myself and I'm like wERE YOU eVEN PAYIng attentiON I WAS SO NERVOUS OMG

YES.

[crowleesi]

I'm planning (more praying I can get into) the Supernatural panel next week at my cities con. Misha and Mark are going to be there, and I honestly thought of you first. Because everyone I've talked to is excited for Mishap but I'm like MARK THOUGH. *sigh* I'm going alone so I'll take lots of pictures!!!!

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I get really emotional when mark makes people think of me

god bless you

I HOPE YOU GET IN let me know what you’ll tag them with so I can track the tag ok :’)))))))))))))))

[theasylumsabyss-blog]

metatronian replied to your post: I fucking hate mixed signals

they are the worst

Yeah, I just....I don't understand them. I don't like to be paranoid, but if a person does one thing one day and another thing the next I'm kind of left to speculate why they're doing it, you know? It's just...yeah - it is the worst. 

[xfeminist-kittenx]

metatronian replied to your post: I’m 17! Yay! CONGRATS DARLING!!!!! Thank you!!!!

[trashlie]

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I need you guys to know: this is a little over 8 minutes - some of that is me reading, part of that is my stupid laughter. Uhm. I'm generally rambly and kind of mumbly at times and trying not to be too terribly loud cos Dustin is asleep and mostly I'm just really embarrassing and busy embarrassing myself SO.

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FEEL FREE TO TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU LAUGH OR SOMETHING cos Jesus I listened to it and was pained and laughed and wanted to cry at few times alfjkdlakjldfkj LMAO augh

[stonefruitcake]

metatronian replied to your post: I feel so torn up right now. My family is being...

you know i actually relate almost 100 percent and it makes me sick because i can’t be there to be with all of you and you and i should just go backpacking and spend our days becoming wise vagabonds and randomly attending cons okay ilu so much ok

MADDIE I just want you to know that you're the Sam to my Dean, the Sherlock to my John, the Tony to my Steve THE SCOTT TO MY JUSTIN AND BIGGCEST IS BEAUTIFUL and even if I haven't spoken to you a lot lately I love you so much and I know you're going through the same shit as me and I wish we could love together and SOBS I LOVE YOU  

[trashlie]

4, 18.

4. Last time I cried and why

It was last night, actually! It wasn’t a heaving sob or anything, but just a cry. I was talking to Crystal about a friend of mine I’m kind of worried about, and that’s probably where the tears started - my feelings of helplessness and inability to do something to help, to SAY something to help, generally not knowing how to be there as a friend for them - but it spiraled wildly out of control and next thing I knew, we were talking about how, much as I love the way the internet connects people, it terrifies me how something could happen to any of the people I care about online and I might never find out.

Like. All my closest friends are people who live all over the world. I don’t have any friends who live near me. Most of them are people I’ve known online. And should something happen to them…? I know there’s some who I could find out about, but it’s alarming how people can just… drop out of our lives and we could never find out. And even if you did - can you imagine logging onto Facebook/tumblr/IM and reading a message that so-and-so has died? So-and-so you never got to meet face to face, you never got to have coffee with, you never knew the sound of their voice. And I just cried, because god that’s horrifying and leaves the worst ache in my heart.

18. Phobia

Heights. Christ I lose it. I mean, like if it's something like an airplane, where I'm closed in and feel secure, I'm fine. I can look down and I feel fine. Then there's things liiiike a ferris wheel, where there's a SENSE of security but also a sense of JESUS CHRIST TAKE THE FUCKING WHEEL I CAN'T DO THIS but I can do that. I just. You know. Freak out if the carriage starts to rock too hard. But then there's things like standing at the edge of a building that scares the fucking piss out of me. If I feel like I can fall, I just... nope.

The (formerly known as) Sears tower, at the very top, has these plexiglass extensions to the building, yeah? You can walk out in them and it's just this clear see-through all around you and GOSH I just. I can get in there but I'm also a mess because WOW IT LOOKS LIKE THERE IS NOTHING BENEATH MY FEET I SEE /CLOUDS/ BENEATH MY FEET NOPE.

Sometimes, an image comes across my dash where it looks like you're on the edge of a building looking down and I have to scroll past because for a moment my head swims and my stomach drops and NOPE let's NOT.

[trashlie]

6, 9, 14, 19, 26, 32, 43. (pssttt ashlie you are awesome and I still kind of secretly stalk your blog just thought I'd let you know).

FJDLKFJALKJ <3333 I laughed out loud over the bit about secretly stalking my blog because YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO IT SECRETLY YOU KNOW THAT :33

6: Age you get mistaken for

Hmmmmm. You know, I don't know? I went to a casino with my parents once and was distraught I didn't get carded cos DO I REALLY LOOK MY AGE?! But then again, I'm pretty sure I can barely pass for 18 anymore so. :/ I guess probably my age. :| ;~;

9: Got any Piercings?

Just two holes in each ear. :3 The second set, though, my mother did and I will never ever ever again pierce anything the same way cos holy crap. (However my sister has pierced herself all over herself so. You know. To each their horrifying own!)

14: Biggest turn offs

Oh god, I hope it goes without saying that personality is the first thing that's going to turn me off to someone. That is, someone who is a general inconsiderate asshole. If you tell offensive jokes of any kind, if you're racist or sexist or ableist, if you take lightly things I take seriously, I won't be able to take you seriously. Er. Bad hygiene would be a physical turn-off?

19: A fact about your personality

I know I call myself anti-social and standoffish, but it's much more that I'm scared and uncertain and awkward (not in a cute manner but just in an I make myself and situations in my head uncomfortable) and I complain when I should do something. I'm a lot lonelier than I let myself believe and I'm much more of a snob than I wish I was and I'm working on changing that and being less of an uptight person and someone who is easier to get along with.

26: My biggest pet peeves

I really hate when people call girls chicks. I hate when someone feels the need to take down another person/group in order to make theirs look better/sound better. I hate when people think not listening to mainstream music makes them better - and this isn't just a hipster thing but a thing thing where people are like OMG I CAN'T LISTEN TO THE RADIOOOO GOD THAT POP IS SO CHEAP THERE'S NOTHING GREAT ABOUT IT. I don't like anglophiles - especially the ones who think they're better than everyone BECAUSE they're so gungho on England or something (and are not very educated about the matter, either). I also hate snoring and being interrupted and not being taken seriously and the conversations offline where people talk and talk and don't let you get in a word edgewise and assume your opinions (usually wrongly!!!) before you're ever given a chance to state them yourself.

32: What words upset me the most

Chick. Badass. Weak. Erm. A lot of gendered insults that I feel too uncomfortable writing here but I'm sure you can guess what they are. I can't really think of any right now but I know later I'll be able to!

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

Sorry to disappoint but... I... idk??? I don't really think of people as sexy, and I definitely define it differently from attractive. Errrrrr. idk. :( er. Maybe the kpop artist Bi Rain? He's the most sexy person I can think of? ROFL I'm so bad at this D:

<333 THANK YOU HEHEHEHE YOU KNOW YOU ARE TOTALLY STILL INVITED TO TALK TO ME WHENEVER you don't have to stick to secretly stalking :3