venting post
i’ve been isolated from the world and stuck in my room for over a week and now im feeling a bit sick. i haven’t left my house at all and i feel sad and alone, but i dont want people over or in my me space. aka my room. i havent drawn much, i’d either draw a line and give up, or just leave the page blank.
ive been crying for hours at a time because i never got break from school until spring break began and was just letting my pain out by crying in privacy of my own room.
especially when im always pressured to do things i dont want to do such as doing much of feminine things. sure i paint my nails on random occasions when i feel like it, and make a big deal out of my hair, but i dont really want to be forced into girls clothes, make-up, or anything like that.
ive just been so under pressure latley thinking mostly to myself if i should come out as a demiboy soon or if i dont i never will out of fear. im afraid to ask for top surgery in the future with that as well.
i ask for a friend. thats weird to ask for a person with anxiety, but a friend to talk to online every day about each of our problems and vent to each other without embarresment would be the best thing to make me feel better and probably you feel better if you want too pm me
