#mh tw

[mushe-room]

me and the deep end getting real close again

[stevenwifav]

i’ve mentioned it vaguely but i was recently put on an anxiety med and i’m still adjusting. so in that vein i’m slower than usual, and my replies may be shorter than usual. but thank you for your patience 💕

[ssoheartbreak]

so I got 2 teeth taken out, not the ones that were hurting me but heyho im sure the dentist knows best, but while I was writing and crying in pain my mum was actually helping me survive and stayed up to call the nhs and see if there was anything they could do bc the pain got so bad and then made an icepack and shit. finally thought oh my mum isnt so bad she’s earned a little trust in helping me deal with these things

but then today comes and after my teeth are taken out she’s asking about my job seekers benifits and if they’re going to backdate them, I hadn’t applied before yesterday bc yknow depressosuicido, and she kept calling me on it like it’s not that big a deal, im getting an advanced payment and then i get another in a month so hey at least im getting money, but nooooo she’s screeching again and this is why i dont wanna trust her with anything. like everything she gained from helping me with my tooth pain was just lost in that moment

[soft-robots]

fuck you for doing this to me fuck you fuck you fuck you this is all your fucking fault

i’m doing my fucking best but it isn’t enough and i hope you’re fucking happy now and you probably are because you’re a horrible person

why fucking why i don’t deserve this, do i? i feel like i’m dying, i feel like my chest is going to be ripped open, i just want it to stop

i just want to forget you

[michelangehoe]

im not good enough for you im not good enough for you im not good enough for you and one day youre gonna realiz eit and i dont know what i'll do

[michelangehoe]

it ever hurt to breathe & u dont kno why bc everything in ur life is fine but u just,, kinda feel empty & numb lol

[michelangehoe]

umm do u ever look at old pics of urself & then wanna kill urself in the present bc u had so much Potential and u just,, threw it all away

[michelangehoe]

WHY DOES BEING IGNORED LITERALLY MAKE ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF LOL