November 11th, 2014.
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Red is killing the customer service game at work. Absolutely killin’ it. Admiration abounds.
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How to tell you have a wicked cool kid: You only allot 15 minutes for art-making time after dinner and he straight up does not take that shit from you. Way to be kid. (:
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Time to make a decision. It’s the mascara or the crying.
Life is hard right now people. The tears come suddenly and by the bucketful.
I’m choosing mascara. I am determined to not let this darkness darken me. And honestly, who seriously has the time to apply makeup every single day? Not this lady.
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I have a Sir who shows me the errors of my ways in the most gentle and wonderful of ways. I change, not as a result of his conviction, but because of something he shows me about myself that I see fit to change.
I see to fit to change feeling insecure about certain parts of myself.
I thusly give you a list of things I sometimes feel insecure about. We all have things. I’d like to hear your list if you’d like to share.
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Things I’m insecure about:
My weight
My body
My health
My eyelid
My eye puff
When people don’t follow my train of thought
When I lose my train of thought
When I get so swept away by the spectacularly colorful train passing by that I just can’t focus on anything for a whole hot minute.
I am
Boy crazy,
Nap crazy,
Super enthusiastic,
In love with almost everything,
Always just wanting to float away on a cloud of happiness,
Lovely…… if I do say so myself.
Nervous that I’m the only one that gets the inside joke.
Afraid
That my dreams might simply be too big for my britches.
That I’m not a good enough friend, daughter, stranger, sister, aunt, passerby.
That I like my job more than I’m good at it.
That I have nothing tangible to give to this world and its people.
That I will live too much
And not enough,
All at the same time.
And that I will pass away on the wind away from this Earth never having touched with my own two hands, that which I know to be true.
Oh...... and spelling. I'm a really terrible speller.