“I killed her. Francesca looked me in the eye and begged me for her life before I tore her apart. But I don’t feel better, I don’t feel peace, I don’t feel anything”
Nothing I am Elijah, is natural... I don’t want to live like this, Elijah. I hate it, when I was living in the bayou, I finally understood the purity of being a wolf, the nobility. I killed eight wolves tonight, before I got to Francesca, eight of my own people. What’s noble about that? I acted no better than..”
Maybe I should just start a series of commentary regarding really sad scenes which have choked me up over the years and this one, being one of them.
IM SORRY I ALWAYS LIKE THE STRONG ON THE OUTSIDE GOOEY ON THE INSIDE CHARACTERS. Hayley Marshall is one very strong alpha wolf, but here - this moment she’s a mother who just lost her kid and she’s a newly born Hybrid. This scene broke me apart because not only is she mourning her child but she’s also learning this new version of herself. She’s now not only a wolf, but she’s a vampire. She’s essentially the one thing that her people have never, ever gotten along with. She’s now part something she was born to hate.
The way she rips apart the nursery ~ get me a bunch of tissues, I’m going to die crying and wailing about this scene.
When she says, I don’t feel peace, I don’t feel anything. I want to throw you back to the term ‘turn your humanity off’ and Hayley, she can’t do that because her wolf side is turned on/ it can’t be turned off and my heart breaks for her. She can be so sad that she can’t breath, but she can’t turn off her humanity to ease away the pain and fucking hell that’s so sad.
What breaks my heart the most is this woman has lost her identify and has nothing to show for it, she never wanted to be a hybrid, all she wanted was family and her baby and she’s lost both. She’s now against her own people in a meat suit that doesn’t quite fit. She’s lost and heart broken and torn down and fucking hell Hayley Marshall.
