I've been pining for my friend for months. She asked me if I wanted to go on a date with her before I had the guts to. I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend two dates in so she wouldn't have to be brave twice.
My girlfriend (!!) takes me to petting zoos and to make wildflower bouquets and handmade stamps of the constellation of urs major we put outselves in. She refills my water bottle as soon as it's empty. I refill her hot water bottles as soon as it turns too cold. I take her to planetariums to see the stars even during daylight.
i opened tumblr for the first time in a while and saw i had some concerned anons, so i just wanted to come in and say that i'm doing well, no need to worry about me! i haven't been on here because i pretty much stopped engaging with 911 content around the time they killed bobby - only a little bit because of that and mostly because thesis stress was overwhelming me. i'm happy to report that i finished the thesis and graduated and am now half a year into my first full-time big girl job (and somehow weaseled my way into basically running the department i'm in?? truly nobody is more confused than me but it's been fun and my coworkers are lovely), but the 911 hyperfixation has sadly not returned, and at this point, i'm not sure if it will. perhaps i might hop on this blog for other stuff, who knows, but i'm not expecting things to go back to the way they were.
anyway, i hope you're all doing well!! i do miss my mutuals and our little circle of tag games and wip excerpts and all that. i'm sending you all hugs and kisses and all the good writing vibes, should they be desired <3
what is 2025 even??? we're almost done with january and yet it feels like i'm in this weird liminal space where life doesn't feel real
anyway, here's some random life updates:
-applied for a full time wfh position back in december that would've given me a significant bump in salary, probably secured us a house this year. ended up *not* getting that position. found that out after christmas, so that was great /s
-i've been consistently going to the gym for about 2 months now. so far i've lost about 12 lbs and 3 inches off my waistline. while the weight loss is a huge part of it, really my main goal is to do basic stuff like being able to walk long distances without pain, go up a flight of stairs without being winded, etc. also i want to get strong enough to carry my wife bridal style. i can deadlift 60lbs (!!!) so uhh...170lbs more to go
-i did end up hurting my knee during one of my workouts (bursitis to be exact) and had to take a month off the gym. turns out, if you have weak muscles, your joints will try to overcompensate! wow! thankfully PT has been helping immensely. it's not completely gone but it's better and i'm cleared to keep working out.
-started hormone therapy for my PMDD (premenstral dysphoric disorder). it's been life changing. turns out my depression is hormone related, who knew?!
-i'm doing another yearly reading challenge this year. i was a little ambitious last year and failed to reach my goal of 36 books so i'm lowering it back to 24. i'm trying to be really conscious of what i spend my time on this year and i really want to be able to make time for my creative projects and workouts while also keep my reading goals. so, 24 seems like a good amount for me to be able to do all of that. i hope, lol.
-i've been enjoying bluesky as of late, esp. with the mass migration a couple months ago. i'm still slightly cautious with how i engage with it because i can feel my social anxiety slowly creeping up again but for now it's been a great way to connect with new and old friends.
-*edit* i forgot to add that I’ve been getting the urge to write again??? which i legit haven’t felt in over 5 years so yay! now i don’t think any of them will be seeing the light of day but it’s nice to feel inspired again
watching jadon's farewell video to marco made me cry holy shit. the way his message was the longest too you just know how much marco meant to him. naw this making me so emotional fr.
honestly i don’t even have a strong opinion on the plot reveals i just wish we didn’t have to find out this way. i wish kenny and the script writers and the cast and everyone else involved got to tell these stories to us the way they intended to. i wish we got those extra seasons, the extra songs. and i’m so grateful for what we did get but i’ll never stop wishing that things turned out differently and we’d be anticipating season 2 rn
Aqdzwjqkfjejkwifjejwd 100% unrelated to OP but look what arrived in my mailbox today👀👀👀!!! Me? Importing a whole magazine just for a few pages about my favorite upcoming indie game sequel? It's more likely than you think-
