I maybe a little late but I hope you are having a wonderful Kaisoo day filled with Kaisoo!!!
Thanks babe hahaha~ c":
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I maybe a little late but I hope you are having a wonderful Kaisoo day filled with Kaisoo!!!
Thanks babe hahaha~ c":
Happy Birthday!!! Hope you have a great time with your friends and hope you have a wonderful birthday!
Thanks so much!!! :DDD
babyraelo replied to your post“i wish i knew what having a dad is like”
for the first 20 years of my life I felt like this, then I met him and now he lives 5,241 miles away, now I'm asking myself the same thing all over again. /hugs/
yeah, he came to graduation last may. honestly, i felt angry but happy but angry that i was happy he was there. he didnt deserve to be there. but i was still glad he came. i remember speaking with him tho, he changed his name ..and i forgot what he said it was but he converted to islamic or something. he moved a couple months ago and lives somewhere far, well from what my grandma (his mom) had told me.
michi097 replied to your post“i wish i knew what having a dad is like”
I wished I knew too. I sort of envied people when I was younger because they would have both parents.
i remember bits of my childhood when he was there. when i got into school. things changed. disappointment after disappointment occured and its sad, but i expected it, even at age 8. he kind of became like a ghost in my life, really. he was there then he wasnt. and i started to grow up and feel like....is he even a father? he doesnt even deserve that title to be honest, he really doesnt. it just hurts sometimes. and it makes me so fuckin angry that someone could be so heartless and would just give up on their child like that.
its weird because ive convinced myself all these years that ive been trying to be successful for myself. but ive always felt obligated to try to show him that im better off without him even if i know he probably doesnt care alot. idk.... maybe thats why i'll rather see other people happy and not myself. maybe this is why i get depressed frequently. maybe thats why i have trust issues. maybe thats why ive never had many friends and zero relationships because having friends and a boyfriend means distraction. if being alone and focused will keep my grades up, ill be able to be successful in the future to show him im that i was better off. maybe thats why i spend all my time trying to convince myself that he doesnt mean anything to me because he was never there anyway. but somehow i still care and i hate that. he doesnt care about me...but i still care..even if its like .000000000000001%...
and as cliche as it sounds, its hard to grow up when you dont have a father to tell you that youre pretty and that he cherishes you cause your "daddy's little girl" and you'll me safe cause he would kill someone over you. as im thinking about this, when i was younger, i pictured him scaring the shit out of my dates I would have had when i was on older like in the movies. despite the embarassment, it would have been fun to experience that. i just want him to care. when you hear compliments from someone else, you dont really believe it because its not enough. its not that he has a power over me, its just that...idk... my ma has always been there, telling me things, that im this and that, but sometimes i feel like she's obligated to and she just doesnt really get it. i can admit that her real father wasnt there for her either but she still had a step dad there that loved her and would do anything for her, unlike me. but honestly, my ma has always been great with keeping me from worrying about him alot to the point i almost forgot i was supposed to have a father. so i thank her for doing everything she can on her own. i love my mom so much and idk what i would do if she was gone too. im really greatful. but sometimes you just need a father to be there even if you feel like you dont. anyway..sorry for this. ive kind of been holding this in since forever. and i still can express the way i feel fully. i feel really lame about this.
michi097 replied to your post: “A deep peace takes over Kyungsoo’s body and he finally closes his...”:
What fic are you reading?
http://aozorawaltz.livejournal.com/2571.html
THIS FIC WILL RIP YOUR HEART OUT, ESPECIALLY THE EPILOGUE I'M SO FUCK IGN HURT RIGHT NOW sighs
I barely saw your post my ID is michi098.
Yeah...I think my post got lost somewhere lol but I messaged you!! I hope you got it :)
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RULE 1: Post the rules || RULE 2: Answer the questions the tagger asked you then make 11 new ones || RULE 3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post || RULE 4: Let them know that you tagged them
MY QUESTIONS
1. Summer or winter? Why?
Summer. We don't have winter here T_T and summer's better than rains and flood.
2. Last concert you visited.
2ne1's The Party
3. Favorite Video Game? Why?
I haven't played in ages T_T Hmm i think my favorite game is The Sims? I enjoyed it very much. :D
4. Your first fandom?
The Sapphire Blue Sea :3
5. Favorite Youtuber?
None.
6. How much time do you spend on the internet?
More than 12 hours? I'm always online. :D
7. A month without a computer and internet connection?
I actually try to go offline for a few days to just take a break and its good. But a month, i dunno...><
8. If you could time travel, would you want to go to the past or future?
To the future!
9. In which country you would like to live?
South Korea.
10. Your favorite creative activity?
Painting. I haven't painted in a while though
Questions:
1. Where do you wish you were right now?
2. Something you do a lot?
3. When was the last time you cried?
4. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
5. What should you be doing right now?
6. Plans for the weekend?
7. First thing you'll do if you heard news that your favorite group is filming something in your hometown?
8. Favorite movie?
9. If i give you 1 million dollars what would you do with it?
10. Your best advice on life is?
11. Random quote you love?
too laaaazy to send each one messages lemme just put your names here okay go :3
sourire137, xingming, michi097, loieee, exotagius, bonnytale, rorororoxy, dashluvhae, oneborrowedheaven, we-carry-onn
michi097 replied to your post: guys i’ve been feeling like shit since this...
Hope you feel better.
thank you :'D, i teel better today c:
michi097 replied to your post: I have my math test is like half an hour hELP
Good Luck on your test!!!
jellykaibaby replied to your post: I have my math test is like half an hour hELP
hwaiting! i hope you do well :3
heeh thank you guys, (i totally messed up on the last question omg)
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