Just a bit of an update for myself because I’m almost 100% sure that nobody really reads this.
2018 is going pretty well; Tristen is recovering well from her microdiscetomy and her physical therapy is helping so much. Our lease is up in May, looking for a new place is too much stress for her so I’m taking it on. We want a place that’s half way between the City where she goes to school and works and my work. Our budget is really small and we also have to find one that is pet friendly for Sadie and Booger. I have few places in mind but we haven’t done any tours because its still a few months away.
I signed up for a Intro to Biology class with a Community College, its twice a week online and its going really well. I’m only in 3 lessons but its interesting to have my faith strengthened though what I’m learning. Next month I’ll be taking a Medical Terminology class that’s in a campus close to where a work, it’ll be once a week. I hope to be able to take a math class in the summer and possibly more classes in the fall. This is all to help prep myself to take the SAT subject tests so that I can apply to University of Glasgow. I’m trying to save up but all the money I had saved went to pay for the classes.
I was talking to a man, Joe, I met at the store behind my house; he really liked me ( talked of marriage) but after a few months of attempting to get to know him, and a lot of thinking and a visit to the temple, I’ve come to the decision that he isn’t a good fit into my life. I want to live a zero waste, vegetarian, tiny home lifestyle. I want to move to Scotland and go to school to be an autopsy technician and maybe travel a little. I want to be a traveling Death Doula. As of right now, there isn’t room for a man in my plans and he doesn’t fit in anyway; plus the fact that he isn’t religious at all. My standards and desires for what I want in a partner + my experience of the instant connection that I had when I met Josh almost 3 years ago still is what I base things on. I want to feel like we knew each other in the Pre-mortal existence, like we were best friends then and are picking up where we left off. Josh had so many qualities that I’m looking for, but it was the wrong time for both of us, and even though I’ve tried to keep our friendship going - I feel for him, it’s and ‘out of sight, out of mind’ kind of situation. Plus the fact that he has so much shit to work through. But I can’t dwell on it and I have to move forward with my life. I believe the best thing for me to do is to prepare to live in a way that I would want to share with someone, but plan on that not happening. I have to focus on living a life that I feel is honorable and true to my beliefs, no matter if I find a partner or not.
I’m also trying to incorporate more fruits and vegetables into my diet; I’ve gained a lot of weight and am so tired of being tired and feeling fat. I didn’t realize the difference between being fat and feeling fat - it sucks. Any ways, I want to be a Pescetarian, which is basically a vegetarian but with fish - fish will help with my eyes (pre-glaucoma). So far, the main difference I’ve notice is that with my b.m. which I’m pleased with. I want to incorporate juicing back into my diet, but definitely not to the degree I was before because its too hard on my system. I’d like to juice for breakfast or lunch.
Just before New Years, we found out that dad’s femur had broken. After some more testing they discovered that it broke due to prostate cancer that had spread to his bones. So now he’s on radiotherapy and healing from having a rod put in his leg. It’s definitely a worrisome situation; this could be the beginning of the end for him and I am urging both him and mom to get their affairs in order now, plan out their funerals and get everything situated.
Anyways - that’s pretty much it. I’m trying to stay away from FB and IG, I’ve made a month so far and hope to continue.